The Beast And The Blessed

The Beast And The Blessed Chapter 116

Eleven: Tobias

Tobias’s P.O.V.

She had wanted me, and I had pushed her away.

She was done waiting. I was out of time.

I knew with every beat of my heart and breath in my lungs that I wanted her to be mine. Everything about her drew me in, called to me. She was the embodiment of seduction. But she was also funny, intelligent, and loyal. Every time we spoke, all of my responsibilities vanished from my mind, and I just wanted to spend all of my time with her.

Even Ana didn’t make me feel this way; that had been a hard pill to swallow. I had tried so hard to protect her and to love her. But I had failed on both accounts. It was unnatural. It was against the will of the Goddess.

My beast felt the pull to Ana, but my mind had always been on Joselin. For that, I would never be able to let Ana go. The guilt alone was too much for me.

I ripped open the door to my father’s house. The musty smell of the abandoned property made my nose wrinkle in disgust. It had been so long since I had been here. I hated doing it. It always brought back too many memories.

Yet, I also hadn’t built up the courage to fix the place, so I could sell it. It was mine now that my father was gone, but the horrific memories inside made me want to burn the place down instead. I didn’t want to have to go through and renovate it to hide the horrors of my past.

I was physically strong enough to do it, but I didn’t know if my mind could handle it. The easiest of the issues would be the scratches on the inside of the door and walls of the closet in my childhood bedroom.

The most difficult would be having to rip up the flooring and replace it to hide the blood stains on the first floor.

I had thought I could mentally prepare myself to move on and offer Joselin everything she could ever want. It didn’t seem possible with the ghosts of my past still here. Maybe this was the closure I needed.

I had always hated this house. Every room was walled off from the others, making it darker than I’d like. The closed off floor-plan was exactly what I had avoided when I purchased my current home.

We had a few things in common, Joselin and I. Our horrific upbringing was what we had bonded over when I found her. Soon after, she became my best friend, my only escape. I had hoped for her to be my future as well.

Then I found Ana, and it felt wrong to spend time with Joselin.

Now, Ana was gone, and the only thing stopping me was my guilt.

The only way to move on was to let go of Ana. She wasn’t here to forgive me anymore. I could beg and plead to the Goddess until the words lost all meaning, and I had, but it made no difference.

I glanced down at the discolored wood.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will take care of it. Tomorrow I would get my closure so I could move on.

I walked to the front window, cracking it open to air out the house a little while I was gone before locking it behind me and leaving.

for Joselin. It didn’t matter if I felt I couldn’t do it yet; I couldn’t face those demons. I had

didn’t, I would lose her

her. Instead, I was alone, and she was alone. How would it feel to crawl

now or

bed. The horrors that awaited me were always the same, one memory or another. I closed my eyes, threw my forearm over them,

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her. Her sweet innocence could have gotten her out of anything unless it was with him. He despised her kind. She was a disgrace to this family. A human mate would dilute his perfect Lycan bloodline. He repeatedly reminded me of

she was

Ana.

I had first shifted at fourteen. We were lucky

I had seen some of my pack mates undergo the change as early as nine. We could find our mates at any time after that. It was one of the many reasons why we were superior to wolves.

present themselves as a potential breeder for our kind. The Offering is what we called it. It was how King Killian

knew I had already found my mate was torturous, but no one knew about Ana. After what

ensure everything was running as it should have been. My father had me

one of the maids cleaning the bunkhouse, working so young at only fifteen. As soon as I walked into my

would take her away to the capital, and she would live with me among royalty. She never expected that having me as a mate would mean she would have

He was furious.

him, but it was even worse that I had been

he brought her back with us anyway, claiming she was to be a maid in our household. No one knew she was

should have known

She should have listened.

told her I would distract him so she could make a break for it. She never did.

never let me leave. He would rather see me dead than let

can’t do anything right, can you? We should have rid the Earth of your kind ages ago.” His growl of disgust made me flinch. I opened the front

cried in pain, her body smashing against

when I stood between him and his prey. He reeked of liquor and moonflower

I snarled, shifting into my Lycan as he watched with rage that I had dared to challenge

place!” He snapped, gripping me by the neck

of my beast yet. He had decades of training and experience on the battlefield. I was just

mine!” I argued when his hand tightened

a chance to make a plan of attack. Hit after hit, my father launched a full strike at me, avoiding my

black dots danced in my vision, stumbling backward as he tackled me down. The back of

Run, Ana. Please.

we had been too young to mate, and she couldn’t

me than the last, and while I could feel my body trying to heal, he was

it!” She yelled as my father slashed his claws down my chest, splitting the skin open as he had done countless times before. It was his way of teaching me a lesson. I

my punishment. He would have sliced open my chest with his claws and locked me