The Beast And The Blessed

Chapter 124

Nineteen: Joselin

Joselin’s P.O.V.

The food I had gathered for us was long forgotten in the kitchen. My plans for the evening were gone as well. The air in my tower swirled angrily with the threat of a storm caused by me. It had been a very long time since my emotions ruled my magic.

It made me feel inept, and the lack of control was worrisome. I hadn’t lost control since I was a teenager.

The pain in my chest was unwelcome, and a few stray tears slid down my cheeks.

My body’s betrayal and willingness to show emotion were infuriating, but I knew my true anger was directed at the man downstairs. I was sure he hated being there. With so many people around and trying to talk to him, I knew he would be uncomfortable. Even that knowledge didn’t satisfy the petty part of my mind that wanted him to be miserable for hurting me.

If he wanted to go to a mating mixer and look for a wolf to mark, contradicting all the sweet words he shared with me last night, he could.

I was a big girl. I could find a way to get over him. Nothing had worked so far, but that didn’t make it impossible.

I could warn Natalie about the unknown threat and have it be her problem. She would be taking over my job soon anyway, so there was no point in letting her get her feet wet. She might as well jump right in.

With her handling that, I would be free to escape and find myself outside this castle.

My gut twisted at the idea of leaving Tobias, though. No matter how upset and angry I was, I would hate it if I left without getting answers. I had loved him for too long just to turn away and never look back. There were so many questions for him, but the most important was why I wasn’t enough.

Rona’s words played on a loop in my head, reminding me that a man like Tobias wouldn’t want a woman who looked like me. My teeth ground together, and my hands were in tight fists as I stopped pacing.

There was only one way I could get an honest answer to ease or confirm my concerns.

I knew this experiment would be damaging to my mental well-being if it confirmed my

out, I would never feel confident enough in myself. I would never be able to be in a relationship without that fear hanging over me. I just had to hope that what I was about to do wouldn’t bite me in the ass. I needed to go into this with no expectations to prevent

I could do this.

been shoved up on the highest shelf of my bookcase so it would stay out of

knew what I wanted

low and hushed for a few minutes before I felt my skin tingling. The usual vibrations of the runes and knots on my skin could still be felt. But when I looked down, I could only see the tanned

never been able to hold color before, and while most people enjoyed being tan,

of me, the fake one. A

His jaw was bound to drop when he

it was not as formal as these events expected, but I didn’t have the patience to choose a new outfit. No one beyond the staff had seen

was a dash to get back downstairs. I wanted to get there before Tobias left

I didn’t think he had a reason to show up tonight. I thought he had chosen me. If not as his mate, then maybe to date me. The fact that he was here told me that his priority was to find his mate, and whatever we had would be short-lived if it wasn’t

the glamour, they would smell me as a wolf instead of a witch. But there was still no

my breathing caught when he didn’t look away. I took it as

body buzzed with excitement with every step, and while I knew this moment could completely shatter me,

him, my voice coming out softer than usual and sounding strange to my ears. Only it wasn’t mine. It was hers. Whoever this woman

and I could see the question in his glare, wondering why

the strong, silent type.” I reached out as one of the servers walked by, grabbing a glass from the tray in their hand and taking a small sip of the sickly sweet beverage. “How

free hand on his chest, gasping when he clamped his tightly around my wrist. His grasp was firm, but he didn’t

down, giving me his ear. The closeness caused my breasts to

and he growled in response. If he hadn’t held me so close, I would have

room was full of naked men and women. Many wolves and

by the tip of my tongue trailing up his neck. I could

I also