What the hell? Where did that come from?
“Being closed out.” He has a hint of humor in his eye, but I know he’s being serious, sardonic, and not in a friendly way. I frown at him and go back to my sight-seeing, confused at his manner. Trying hard not to rise to it and inwardly churning up with anxiety.
“What does it take, Emma?” That edgy tone in his voice betrays a bad mood looming up.
Why today?
I curse inwardly. Jake’s negatives moods are the worst thing ever; maybe he’s hungover and obviously still tired. He shifts gear as we round a rather craggy coastal road; his focus on the road, his brows furrowed, and a tightness to his jaw that screams of tension.
“Jake, please … What are you talking about?” I squirm in my seat and adjust my clothes to distract the awkwardness in my pose.
How have I closed him out? He’s seen more of me, knows more of me, than anyone on the planet, does he not see that?
“You’re not even going to mention last night? Is that another conversation over?” he snaps this time and I bristle.
“You didn’t mention it either.” I spit, a little too aggressively. Riled by the up by this attack; it’s like he’s getting his period.
“I was waiting to see if you would.” Eyes cool green and face tense, he’s in difficult and stubborn mode.
Great!
“Why?” I snap, but he just shrugs again.
Oh my god.
don’t want to fight, I want to go back
happened; we crossed a line.” I plead, trying to make him see sense, trying to stop this fiery
is! Right back to square one.” The sarcasm thick in his tone. His body stiffening
mean?”
conversation. No acknowledgment of it, just wham. Over!”
I won’t sleep with my boss? I’m not letting myself go? That’s being closed off?”
it always about sex with
any doubt about it last night … It’s not the issue … It’s the afterwards, Emma.” His voice is laced with venom,
anyone
being an asshole and
in my seat to turn away from him, trying to fully face out of the side window. I’m thrust forward as he slams on the brakes and we screech to a halt, kicking up dust and stone around the car, throwing everything loose toward the front with
What the hell?
calming breath. I notice he’s swerved us into the side of the road, out of the non-existent traffic. He unbuckles and gets out of the car
do? What the actual
not like this, not with this kind of rage. I feel sick, unbearably emotional and I reel it back in, taking deep heavy breaths, trying to still my hands. Trying to not let him get to me while my stomach
looking at me and he doesn’t try to put his belt back on. I really don’t know what to say. Angry, aggressive men as big as
is he reacting this
in his head sometimes as I watch
about sex, Emma.” He’s quiet and pensive and his hands move back to the wheel, but he doesn’t start the car. “It’s about this eternal need in you to stay in full control … Never letting
I do enjoy things in my life, he has no idea. He’s the closest
PMSing like fuck.” He’s calmer, but his voice is still strained, that edge to his tone. I sit stiffly, focused on
only briefly.” He flicks his eyes at me, and I spin away, hating that he’s even seen
don’t need anyone … But it’s not who you
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