Go away, Jake.
I silently pray.
“Emma, open the door … For the love of god.” He returns, his voice calmer, yet still booming through at me.
“Someone’s at the door, Jake …”
Go answer it and leave me alone to freak out. Leave me to calm down and stop shaking like a leaf.
I’m trying to sound cold and cool, but I’m petrified.
“I don’t give a fuck, now open the door … Why are you hiding?” he’s exasperated, hurt.
Why am I hiding? Because I’m scared … The overwhelming realization of what I’ve just done is drowning me. Jake’s anger and aggression are scaring me. I’m suffocating, and I can’t think straight. I can’t look at him … How could I? I’ve just seen every part of him naked and let him do things to me; intimate things … Pleasurable things!
For the first time in my life they didn’t feel wrong, yet I experience the most guilt and shame I’ve ever felt. It’s too much. My head feels like it’s going to self-implode, taking my body with it.
The buzzer goes again, only this time longer and repetitive, someone making it clear they have no intention of going away. He thumps the door once more, making me jerk, as he storms away, cursing. Whoever is out there is persistent, and he knows they’re not going to just leave.
I run to grab a robe, now that I know he’s gone. I’m vibrating all over and I know it’s not just from fear. My body is still reeling from what he did to me; the overwhelming climax that rocked my entire world.
and swathe myself in the plush bathrobe, hoping to feel more secure. Hoping to
are voices in the room … I can’t make them out, but
Who’s he talking to?
that I’m grateful, but I need to calm down and pull myself together. I need to get my emotions in check. I’ve
the voices; they’re raised now, and I hold still. I strain to hear, but I’m scared to get too close to the door. I don’t know how to
to be another one of his play mates, he picks up and drops on a whim … … How could that work when I’m with him all of the time? I
to dating someone he’s seen before. Very rarely anyway. It’s
the planet does. I fell at the feet of Jake Carrero and gave him all of me. I am no better than any
in fact I am
over thinks every tiny detail. I am a woman who let herself fall
deal with all
in the room have moved away and I realize they’re more muffled than they should be. Whoever is here has been moved to his room, and he’s shut the
door, peeking out as I do. I can see his from here and it’s shut, the sitting area
floor nearby and Jake’s clothes are still lying in a heap. Whoever
and in his room with him. I want to know if it’s one of his play mates, even though I don’t have the right to care. It’s getting to me on extreme levels, jealousy eating
overly familiar to me hits me like a ton
retract and my
Marissa Hartley!
Fuck.
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