I walk into the empty apartment two hours later, dump my bag on the table and survey the room. I don’t even want to be here, I should be at work organizing, instead of coming home to sob into my pillow. I need to get a grip of my life. Wilma is right and all of this has been non-stop, yet all I’ve done is bury my head in the sand and pushed myself to go to work, never taking the time to absorb it all. I need time to think. Real time to myself, to figure out what I’m going to do.

Do I want to work in Europe?

No … I don’t want to leave New York.

Do I want to leave Carrero House?

No. I love working there, it’s familiar and stable. Plus, I adore Wilma, Margo, and even Rosalie. I would miss the people I see every day even though we don’t interact much. I couldn’t leave Sarah. I mean, I know she has Marcus and lately, I’m starting to warm to him a little. I even laughed at a joke he made a few days ago, but still … She’s my best friend.

But, on the other hand, things aren’t going anywhere. I feel like every time I see any light at the end of the tunnel, Jake appears and blacks it out. He’s all I can see; all I can focus on and it’s driving me slowly insane.

How did we get here? He used to be my everything, my friend, my protector, my lifeline … and now he’s the cause of everything that’s wrong with me.

Dragging days and sleepless

playing in the street. It’s getting late in the season so it’s unexpectedly warm for the time of year. Christmas will be here soon and that’s going to be an ordeal and a half

I miss that girl.

to be doing well in her new home and in such a short time she’s settled so well. She can’t believe how blessed she is, getting used to a wealthy family and all

when I was staying in hotels with Jake. It had become part of the ritual of our life. Since I’ve come

this every day again as it helped before, helped me get my emotions in check, helped me work through my internal dialogue. I’m sweating like crazy, working over everything,

tomorrow night. Show everyone who I am, who I used to be. I don’t need a date at all. I’m PA Emma and I was always

I know there. All the staff from sixty-fifth, Margo, Wilma, Rosalie,

and my ally when

and I know her family are all going

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