The Impact of You

Chapter 35

Avery

I sob for all the lost time, the memories that we’d never create, the mother that abandoned me as a baby. I cry for a life that could have been. For the choice my mom had to make and at such a young age, and for the circumstances that led to that decision.

Life is a crapshoot. We’ve all been dealt a hand that we have no choice but to play – my mom by getting pregnant too young, me with simply the circumstances I was born into.

After meeting her face to face, seeing how normal she is, I’m not immature enough to believe she’d given me up because I was a bad baby. No. She’d made the best decision she could for me and for herself. But that didn’t make this any easier. She’d done the most selfless thing she could do. She’d given me to two loving parents who desperately wanted a child. It broke my heart. There’s grief and loss mixed in with happiness and joy. It’s all too much.

Jase just holds me. He lets me completely fall apart. He doesn’t say anything, other than making calming sounds meant to soothe. He rubs my back in slow circles and rocks me silently against his chest. I can’t even let myself hope what his presence might mean. He’s here now, all solid and warm, and holding me. It’s not nearly enough, but it’ll do. For now.

By the time I’m all cried out, my throat is raw and Jase’s T-shirt is soaked with my tears, but he doesn’t seem the least bit concerned about this shirt. His hand continues its soothing path, rubbing slow circles between my shoulder blades while my breathing returns to normal. 

Jase

When her tears finally stop, little unsteady hiccups continue to rasp in her chest for several minutes more. Avery eventually lifts her head from my shoulder and blinks up at me, wiping away the remnants of her makeup.

“I’m sorry,” she croaks, her voice raw from crying.

“No. Don’t be. I’m glad you let it out, and I’m glad I could be here for you.”

She nods. “Thanks, Jase.”

“Anytime, Whistle.”

Confusion crosses her face at hearing the nickname I haven’t used in a while. She’s wondering the same thing I am – about us. About where we stand now.

She sits up on the bed, completely disentangling herself from me. The loss of warmth from her body next to mine is unwelcome, but I resist the urge to tug her back to me.

take a shower,”

damp from her tears. “Yeah, okay.” The warm water will soothe her some, I hope. “I’ll go out and pick us up dinner. We can eat here in bed if you’re

climbs from the bed. “Yeah, low key

take the keys from the bedside table and watch as Avery disappears into the bathroom,

Chinese takeout. Dressed in a white tank and pink cotton pants,

hair is still damp, but combed neatly and secured in a braid across her shoulder. It

you get us?

bag on the bedside table and begin unloading the paper cartons. “Chinese.

“Yeah, that’s perfect.”

Avery is openly laughing at the movie. I throw the leftovers away in my adjoining room and close the door.

my bed and hers up against the headboard and is lounging against them when I return from brushing my teeth.

a princess perched on her throne. Now that we’re done eating, the room is too quiet, too full of her. Suddenly I don’t know what to do with myself. Avery just continues

and rub the back of my neck, waiting for her to give me some indication she wants me to stay. Although she’s commandeered all my pillows so….

herself comfortable. “Kidding. Of course you’re staying.” She pats the bed beside her “You being

her on the bed. “You doing better?” I ask, though I can see

in the last couple of hours, I can only hope has been helped by my presence. The feeling is addicting. I just like being near her, and I’m not going anywhere

making room for me on the bed, and moves closer to sink against the

we talk about my past … indiscretions?” she

about that. I wonder if she’s going to start, because I have no clue what to say. She grips

I can get over the pictures. We’ve all made stupid mistakes. But I don’t like feeling lied to.” She doesn’t say anything, just keeps looking straight up at the ceiling, her expression neutral. “The main thing holding me back is that you’re not who I thought you were. I

and she seems to draw some inner strength. “You saw the real me. The messy, scared shitless me trying to figure out a

behind that dumpster…shit, Avery.” I take a deep breath, letting it creep out of my lungs

issues with your mom – fine. Mission accomplished. But guess what? I don’t want to be

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