The Luna Choosing Game

Nicholas held Elva safe and secure in his arms as he stood to his full height. Elva buried her face into the corner of his neck and shoulder. He gently patted her back.

He glanced down at Elva, his gaze so tender that it made my heart clench.

“There, there,” he whispered. “You are safe now.”

“Oh my God,” said one of the other girls in the room, fanning herself. “Of course he’s good with children.”

“Someone pinch me,” said another. “I think I’m dreaming.”

Nicholas’s soft expression hardened as he glared out at the rest of the room. “Whose child is this? Why is she here?”

I started forward, but the girl in the pink dress spoke before I could reach him.

“An outsider sneaked in, unless she’s a maid.”

Some of the other girls snickered at my expense.

“She can’t be a participant,” another girl fake-whispered, loud enough for half-the room to hear. “I thought we had to be virgins, and she’s got a kid.”

I wanted to disappear into a corner. Whether virgin or not, I was nothing compared to the rest of these girls.

My clothes weren’t as nice as theirs, and my figure wasn’t like what it had been at the Academy. I’d lost much of my musculature. I was skinny from too many nights of skipped dinners.

Elva’s wellbeing had always come before my own.

Her sake was the only reason I continued forward rather than hide in embarrassment. I stopped only when I reached Nicholas.

He looked at me, and I looked at him.

I’d forgotten how gorgeous his eyes were, golden brown with flakes of green. When we’d dated, I had spent hours looking at them, trying to memorize that color, but it had seemed different each time.

Before, when I’d stared long enough, I could earn a bashful smile from him. Now, his face was totally devoid of emotion. He looked at me like I was a stranger.

Did he… not recognize me?

I had changed, sure, but not enough to become unrecognizable. Unless he truly had sealed me away in his past and moved on, never once looking back.

I could be a great embarrassment to him, showing up here, years after leaving him,

Maybe he hated me.

outsider.” The girl in pink motioned

even his voice was monotone. Another moment of staring at me

him. He led me to

man in a suit hurried toward him. “Your Royal Highness, please remember that per the selection rules, you aren’t to be

the man, who nervously backed

an exception,” Nicholas

The man bowed twice

and closed the door behind us, leaving Nicholas,

I might be sick. I had never imagined

idea what even to say. What would he think of me, to see me as

at ease against his chest. She must have cried herself to sleep, eyes closed and drooling. She seemed

once, his perfect façade cracked. He frowned. His golden eyes filled

on Elva,

hide my child

stop. I blinked once, twice, but,

Eloquently, I said, “Huh?”

in his arms. She was three years old. That lined up with our breakup three years ago.

tried to recall the memory. We’d been so

remember where he was when he’d climaxed. But, hadn’t he been wearing a

it seemed to slide

I said, hoping to give

He’d even said so on television. For me to hide a child from him would have been a cruelty. He

name.

a moment, before the

struggle to get it out. He swallowed

between me and Elva.

tell that to Nicholas.

silence seemed to answer some unspoken question for him, and he started to

startled. What

and he immediately cut off the deep

one of the

be mad at Mommy,”