The Luna Choosing Game

Nicholas held Elva safe and secure in his arms as he stood to his full height. Elva buried her face into the corner of his neck and shoulder. He gently patted her back.

He glanced down at Elva, his gaze so tender that it made my heart clench.

“There, there,” he whispered. “You are safe now.”

“Oh my God,” said one of the other girls in the room, fanning herself. “Of course he’s good with children.”

“Someone pinch me,” said another. “I think I’m dreaming.”

Nicholas’s soft expression hardened as he glared out at the rest of the room. “Whose child is this? Why is she here?”

I started forward, but the girl in the pink dress spoke before I could reach him.

“An outsider sneaked in, unless she’s a maid.”

Some of the other girls snickered at my expense.

“She can’t be a participant,” another girl fake-whispered, loud enough for half-the room to hear. “I thought we had to be virgins, and she’s got a kid.”

I wanted to disappear into a corner. Whether virgin or not, I was nothing compared to the rest of these girls.

My clothes weren’t as nice as theirs, and my figure wasn’t like what it had been at the Academy. I’d lost much of my musculature. I was skinny from too many nights of skipped dinners.

Elva’s wellbeing had always come before my own.

Her sake was the only reason I continued forward rather than hide in embarrassment. I stopped only when I reached Nicholas.

He looked at me, and I looked at him.

I’d forgotten how gorgeous his eyes were, golden brown with flakes of green. When we’d dated, I had spent hours looking at them, trying to memorize that color, but it had seemed different each time.

Before, when I’d stared long enough, I could earn a bashful smile from him. Now, his face was totally devoid of emotion. He looked at me like I was a stranger.

Did he… not recognize me?

I had changed, sure, but not enough to become unrecognizable. Unless he truly had sealed me away in his past and moved on, never once looking back.

be a great embarrassment to him, showing up here, years after leaving him, and

Maybe he hated me.

outsider.” The girl in pink motioned

and even his voice was monotone. Another moment of staring at

He led me to an adjoining room, separated by a

toward him. “Your Royal Highness, please remember that per

stopped to look at the man,

an exception,”

sir. Of course, sir.” The man bowed twice

and closed the door behind us, leaving Nicholas, Elva, and I alone in a small

thought I might be sick. I had never imagined I’d

would he think of me, to see me as I was? To see me here, as

at ease against his chest. She must have cried herself to sleep, eyes closed and drooling. She

perfect façade cracked. He frowned. His golden eyes

Elva, his arm looped

dare you hide my child from me?”

thoughts skidded to a stop. I blinked once, twice, but, no, I couldn’t

Eloquently, I said, “Huh?”

three years old.

been so young

remember where he was when

anger, but the certainty that fueled it seemed to slide into bewilderment. His gaze

mistaken,” I said, hoping

on television. For me to hide a child from him would

That’s her name. But

moment, before the anger returned

he seemed to struggle to get it out. He

glanced between me and Elva. “She looks

to Nicholas. Elva was mine in every way that mattered. I would not have

to answer some unspoken question for him, and

What

he immediately cut

Elva down onto one of the

Mommy,” came Elva’s quiet