The Mystical Attraction of Alpha

Chapter 104 – Three Little Words

Ella

“Ella, I love you, but you’re driving me crazy.” My sister’s voice floats through my phone, sounding more exasperated than irritated. After his shower, Sinclair went to his office, and I promptly called my sister for advice.

“What do you mean?” I inquire hesitantly, I’ve just finished explaining

“I mean,” She sighs heavily, “Who are you, and what have you done with my sister? You’ve always known exactly what you wanted and done whatever was necessary to make it happen. You are a strong, independent woman – not some bratty, indecisive, emotional basket-case who’s too caught up in a man to know her own heart.” She groans.

I wish I could argue with her assessment of my behavior, but I know she’s right. However, before I can acknowledge as much, she continues, “It’s like: you like Sinclair, you don’t like Sinclair. You want to be with him one moment, and the next you’re trying to foist him off on another woman – just make up your mind! I swear, I don’t even recognize you anymore!”

“Can’t you see that’s the problem! I don’t even recognize myself anymore.” I exclaim, rubbing my sore neck. “My entire life has been turned upside down –”

“I know! Because that’s all you ever talk about anymore.” She bursts, interrupting me. “Do you have any idea when you last asked me about my life? That you showed interest in anything other than your own problems?”

Her words sting, and I realize she’s right. I have been so wrapped up in my own drama that I’ve been neglecting my sister. I hate to think it, but the truth is I don’t have any idea what’s going on with her. “I’m sorry, Cora. What’s going on with you?”

“Nothing, but it would be nice to know you care!” She snaps, sounding more than a little petulant.

And she had the nerve to call us bratty! The little voice in my head observes.

my child. I’m committing a fraud of epic proportions in order to save an entire fucking species from civil war. And you’re pissed because for the first time in our entire lives,

asked you to do that!” Cora argues, “you made

growl. “I had to be the strong one because you

maybe you should have let me fall apart!” Cora counters defensively, “maybe if you had, I would

I finally say, my voice hoarse.

you were hurt because of me. And sometimes I just think that maybe… maybe if you hadn’t protected me then

sorrow swells inside me to learn

thing I can thank Dominic for. Trust a bossy wolf to make

“I think maybe that’s why this is all so hard for me. I feel so… raw. I don’t think I’ve ever been so emotionally vulnerable, and I don’t have the

but you also have to take responsibility for learning

is insane.” I object pointedly. “It’s not like this isn’t the first time

that I was falling for Sinclair a while ago, but this is the first time I’ve been able to acknowledge that I passed

El, if you call your relationship with that little weasel love, I will come over there and smack you right

like it started out that way.” I defend,

you something. Did you ever feel even a fraction of what you feel for Dominic,

so long since I even thought of Mike, and I’ve been in such deep denial about Sinclair that I haven’t even considered comparing my feelings for the men.

think you believed you were in love with him for all those years?” She presses. “Why do you think you let him treat you so

I didn’t have the first idea what a healthy relationship looked

agrees. “That little shit preyed on you from day one – we were just too young and inexperienced to realize it at the time.” She has the grace not to say “I told you so.” The fact is that Cora tried to warn me about Mike more than once over the years, but I was too stubborn to listen to her. Instead she continues, “I wish I could go back in time and kick

too.” I chuckle,

question is: What are you going to do about Dominic, now that you’ve figured