The Mystical Attraction of Alpha

Cora

“It’s all right,” Roger says, his eyes going wide as he takes in my pale face, my scared expression and realizes that he’s freaked me out for the third or fourth time today. “It’s not – it’s not bad, I was just kind of a dick – it was a misunderstanding –”

“What?” I ask, more confused now than ever.

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“Listen,” he says, leaning in towards me. “Just let me tell you, all right? II was going to tell you at some point, definitely not like this but…” he sighs, looking into my face and then down at my stomach, and then back up into my eyes. “I think that… if we’re going to start on this new part

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of our lives – this parent thing – well,” he says, giving me a charming little half–smile and a

shrug. “We should be on the same page, right?”

I nod, agreeing, but looking at him a little askance. “Did you not think that we should…go into our mating? On the same page?”

He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. “It’s a little different, Cora – because it didn’t matter – I didn’t think we could have kids

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I frown at him – not mad or angry, but confused…

“Listen, let me just tell it,” he says, leaning forward and looking at me with pleading eyes.

“Okay,” I say, quite simply, taking his hands and leaning even closer to press a kiss to his mouthr letting him know that I’m listening with an open heart.

“Okay,” Roger says again, taking a deep breath before he begins. “Do you remember… when you and Ella went into the desert with her mother, Regina?”

“Reina,” I correct softly, and he laughs.

“Right,” he says, shaking his head. “Those names are so easy to mix up. Anyway – you three were out on your girls trip, and my choice was either to hang out with those priests in the temple, or go back on to the ship all alone.”

Ismirk at him, knowing precisely which one he chose. He sees my smile and laughs a little.

“Yeah,” he says, grinning at me. “I chose solitude. Or at least…I thought I did.”

someone on the

standing at the bow looking out at the desert – honestly, a little pissed off at being left behind. Sinclair sent me to protect Ella, and there’s frankly nowhere I wanted

hear this, but

moon, it started to grow…brighter and brighter. And at first I thought that I was just crazy or drunk I mean, the captain

a little, begging him to focus, and he looks at me again

faltering a little,

ask, a little breathless, but some part of

little startled by the experience. “Your mother, Cora.

and me, but she had only spoken to Ella beyond a brief introduction

that she only spoke to Ella in the temple, and

little through my nose, disappointed. Why

forward and brushing my cheek with his thumb. “It’s half of why I didn’t want to tell

ask, pushing past my jealousy and

“She didn’t come in her bodily form,” he says, “like she did in the temple. Instead, it was just…a

he can tell me. So Roger turns back to

was – and you have to realize, that that was devastating to hear at the time, considering

understanding, concentrating on

then she said,” he twists his mouth a little, concentrating. “It’s hard to know how to phrase it – because it wasn’t precisely words – but that for the future of the world, I had to focus

and being a dad,

blinking with surprise. And then I lean forward, finally getting it. “Oh, so you stopped calling

tightly. “And it fucking broke my heart to do it because I loved you I was obsessed with you, you know that

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before she said anything to me I didn’t even care about kids

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dying to

I say again, my eyes

apologetic, “I’m fucking it all up, Cora – I’m thrilled that you’re pregnant, and not just because the goddess told me to be. I want –” He pauses He pauses his confused language for a moment and steadies himself, choosing his next words carefully to make sure that

he tells me, pausing to ensure that I hear him, “and

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nod, because I do. I really get it. Honestly, I’m kind of in the same boat – I was

nothing else I wanted in

calling me,” I whisper, “because you thought…my

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so fucking dumb, Cora,” Roger murmurs, his eyes going wide as he again runs his hand through his hair. “I was totally freaked out I didn’t want to, but when a goddess tells you to do something you feel compelled to do it – and I thought she was telling me to run from you, when she probably was telling me to run to you to take you directly to my