The Mystical Attraction of Alpha

Cora

“It’s all right,” Roger says, his eyes going wide as he takes in my pale face, my scared expression and realizes that he’s freaked me out for the third or fourth time today. “It’s not – it’s not bad, I was just kind of a dick – it was a misunderstanding –”

“What?” I ask, more confused now than ever.

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“Listen,” he says, leaning in towards me. “Just let me tell you, all right? II was going to tell you at some point, definitely not like this but…” he sighs, looking into my face and then down at my stomach, and then back up into my eyes. “I think that… if we’re going to start on this new part

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of our lives – this parent thing – well,” he says, giving me a charming little half–smile and a

shrug. “We should be on the same page, right?”

I nod, agreeing, but looking at him a little askance. “Did you not think that we should…go into our mating? On the same page?”

He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. “It’s a little different, Cora – because it didn’t matter – I didn’t think we could have kids

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I frown at him – not mad or angry, but confused…

“Listen, let me just tell it,” he says, leaning forward and looking at me with pleading eyes.

“Okay,” I say, quite simply, taking his hands and leaning even closer to press a kiss to his mouthr letting him know that I’m listening with an open heart.

“Okay,” Roger says again, taking a deep breath before he begins. “Do you remember… when you and Ella went into the desert with her mother, Regina?”

“Reina,” I correct softly, and he laughs.

“Right,” he says, shaking his head. “Those names are so easy to mix up. Anyway – you three were out on your girls trip, and my choice was either to hang out with those priests in the temple, or go back on to the ship all alone.”

Ismirk at him, knowing precisely which one he chose. He sees my smile and laughs a little.

“Yeah,” he says, grinning at me. “I chose solitude. Or at least…I thought I did.”

on the

replies. “I was standing at the bow looking out at the desert – honestly, a little pissed off at being left behind. Sinclair

hear this,

that I was just crazy or drunk I mean, the captain gave me a little of his whiskey when

begging him to focus, and he looks at me again and

voice faltering a little, looking down at our joined

breathless, but some part of me knowing

still a little startled by the experience. “Your mother, Cora. Except…at

face steady but honestly…some part of me is a little jealous. We all met the goddess that night in the temple with Ella – Roger met her, and me, but she had only spoken

And that she only spoke to Ella in the temple, and then went to Roger later that night for

Why does she want to talk to everyone but

with his thumb. “It’s half of why I didn’t want to

what did she do?” I ask, pushing past my jealousy and truly wanting to

Instead, it was just…a vision of sorts, more like the baptism but…not quite.” He shakes his head a little, at a loss to explain it. “But her

again, letting him know that it’s okay. That he can tell me. So Roger turns back to me and looks at me directly, not holding anything

war and politics, as my brother’s was – and you have to realize, that that was devastating to hear at the time, considering that we were in a war – and Dominic had just made me

nod, understanding, concentrating on nothing else but his

little, concentrating. “It’s hard to know how to phrase it – because it wasn’t precisely words – but that for the future of the world, I had to

and being a dad, and raising

say, blinking with surprise. And then I lean forward, finally getting it.

we could have kids, Cora…” he whispers, clutching my hands tightly. “And it fucking broke my heart to do it because

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anything to me I didn’t even care

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always Dominic who was dying to be

say again, my

– I’m thrilled that you’re pregnant, and not just because the goddess told me to be. I want –” He pauses He pauses his confused language for a moment and steadies himself, choosing his next words carefully

child, Cora” he tells me, pausing to ensure that I hear him, “and I can’t wait to

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I nod, because I do. I really get it. Honestly, I’m kind of in the same boat – I was likewise

else I wanted in

you stopped calling me,” I whisper, “because you thought…my mom

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as he again runs his hand through his hair. “I was totally freaked out I didn’t want to, but when a goddess tells you to do something you feel compelled to do it – and I thought she was telling me to run from you, when she probably was telling me to run to you to take you directly to my stupid tiny bunk