The Silent Alpha

***Natalia*** 

Zane leaves to collect his things and Agnes from Nikki and Micah's place, giving me the chance to really think about what I just agreed to.I head to the bathroom to splash cool water on my face and neck, letting out a huge sigh as I wipe the sweat from my brow.

My reflection mocks my pathetic situation, laughing at me for accepting yet another wolf into my life.

‘Don't let him get too close" I remind myself.

' Every kind gesture, every kiss, every gentle caress of my face...it will all be a lie.He doesn't really love me.He doesn't care about me no matter how much he says he does"

Tears spring to my eyes as I think about all the times Christian looked me in the eyes with such false sincerity, professing his undying love for me all the while f*****g my sister behind my back.

Wiping the tears that stain my cheeks, I inspect my reflection, my eyes scrutinizing every imperfection.

Dark circles hug my eyes from my restless night.

Fearful that Zane would find me, I called out of work this morning, keeping Kota home instead of taking him to daycare.

Of course, my attempts proved futile.

The wolf found me without much effort.

‘I am not good enough to fall in love with anyways" I shrug to myself, drying off my face.

‘I couldn't even keep my husband interested in me before he looked elsewhere...Perhaps Zane will also find me inadequate as a mate and move on as well.." I nod at my reflection reassuringly.

‘Yes.Sooner or later, he'll stop liking me and I'll be free"

Having given myself the pep talk of the century, I hurry to find little Kota playing in the backyard and call him to me.He happily waddles over to me with a grin on his face.

"Where's Zane, mommy?" he asks, looking behind me into the living room.

"Can he come play with me?"

I crouch down and lift him into my arms, carrying him over to the living room and sitting him down on the sofa.I smooth down his hair and cup his chubby cheeks in my hands.

"Kota," I say, forcing a smile for him.

"What do you think about Zane staying with us … just for a little bit?"

His eyes widen with joy.

"Yeah!" He cries, jumping up on his feet and clapping his hands.

"Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!"

"You like that idea?" I ask, raising an eyebrow at him.

Kota jumps onto the couch and bursts into laughter.

"Yeah," he giggles, resting his chin in his hands.

"And what about Agnes? Can she stay here too?" I ask.

Kota bounces on his toes, shooting his fingers up in a happy I pout at him.

"I thought I made the best cookies..."

"No," he grins, shaking his head and jumping up like a rabbit.

I feign hurt at his honesty and he rushes up to kiss me square on the lips.

"But Mommy makes the best pancakes!" He chirps.

Kota suddenly stretches out his arms like a plane and flies over to his toy chest, pulling out his favorite toy train and action figures.

"What are you doing?" I ask as he makes a small pile of toys.

"To play with Zane," he shrugs as if that were the most obvious answer.

Worry fills my heart as I realize that Kota would be affected by Zane’s imminent departure.

I would need to do everything in my power to make sure Zane rejects me quickly and leaves us both in one piece.

"Remember, Kota," I sigh, crawling over to him.

"He’s only here for a little while.He won’t be here forever.Entiendes? understand ?"I ask.

He nods and continues to make a pile of toys for Zane when he arrives.

Seeing no point in explaining any further, I rush off to the guest room and ensure it’s comfortable for Agnes, changing the sheets and myself to share my space with a man.

Zane and make

belly as I stare at the Queen sized bed I

enough to fit us both but we would inevitably touch

thought of this man touching me in my pajamas

Goddess would leave me be and not punish me so! I readjust the pillows and an idea

drag on until the sun begins to set in the horizon and a small

doorbell rings, my heart sinking knowing who the visitors

and rush over to

me, Nikki and Micah waiting just behind them to be let

hoping my saliva will soothe my dry throat, stepping off

assume are their belongings while Niki and Micah carry what appear to

up to the

"You’re here!"

his bag over his shoulder and bends down flip at the sight of my son running into Zane’s arms

had already won Kota over.Would I fall so easily

to be strong for

"Sorry we’re late,"

her to town to go shopping for more clothes.They...they didn’t bring much with them to begin

lead Agnes to her room while Micah and

the room, I turn to

your room" I

left you some towels on the bed.The bathroom is down the hall to the left," I say, pointing down the hall

hate her.She was not my mate.She had not

her eyes widening as she takes

something to Zane and he smiles back at her, nodding

bouncy and comfortable it is, her hand feeling the soft fabric of the

her eyes and rushes to hug me, my body stiffening It was just a simple room with a large window looking into the garden and a comfortable

what else to do, I wrap my arms around

curiously at us, leaning his head against Zane’s

crying?"

but he remains

her cheeks flushed pink in embarrassment as

turns back to the room

to

and follows close behind me, Kota running down the

thoughts elsewhere as I feel the urge

I mutter

my room and

closet for you to hang your things," I shrug.I turn to find him staring at

to clarify the bedding arrangement, I

there," I smirk, pointing to the

at me completely dumbfounded at the change

"What?" I shrug indifferently.

share the ‘bedroom’ It did not specify that we had to

presses his lips together in what I can only assume is annoyance and nods solemnly, knowing he could not force me to

bad for making this small adjustment but it could not be

stranger no less,

entire species

the formalities are all out of the way, I will leave you to unpack," I say, stepping around

Micah in the living room, Kota inspecting the tattoos in

chirps as he hears me

his arm! Look! Look!" He cries

glance at Micah's tattoos and

cool," I say, forcing a smile for his

okay?" Nikki asks as she comes in with the

possibility that my friends were not who I

at Kota

like Zane and Agnes?" I

exchange glances before Niki sighs

we know he's your mate

lie but at the fact that I had never

aspect of my life

Niki asks, a worried look

she adds quickly, as if to clarify that they were not the monsters they truly

you or Kota."

I won't hurt

werewolf promised before they sank their teeth into your back when

I reply

shifts nervously on her feet and I ask a question that kept me up

there any packs nearby?" I ask,

Christian and the Silver Crest wolves came looking for me.I would need to leave at once if that was the

shakes his

and I are rogues just

pry, wanting to know