The Silent Alpha

***Natalia*** 

"What the f**k do you want?" I snarl, Jordan stammering on the other end.

"Luna, I-"

"I'm not your Luna!"

I hiss furiously.

"Get that through your head and stop calling me.Your Alpha and Silver Crest are not my responsibility anymore.You chose Vanessa, so ask her-"

"Would you just listen to me!" he blurts out.

I count down my breaths to control my anger before speaking.

"I told you everything," I whisper softly, pain laced with every word.

"I told you how much it hurt...How much pain I was feeling...I confided in you my worst fears and self doubts ...And you made believe that it was all in my head and I just had to try a little harder.You let me believe I was going crazy and that I was not enough."

My voice cracks a little from the memory of it all but my feelings quickly shift to complete rage.

"But I have found someone who believes I’m enough.Someone who actually listens to me and I will not let you come into my life again to ruin my happiness.I’m done listening to you," I snarl.

"I don’t trust you or anything you have to say anymore."

"But Christian is coming!" he pleads, but only I burst into laughter.

"He can come," I sigh in annoyance.

"He won’t find us."

I hang up the phone before he can say another word, turning to look at my pup as he snores lightly in his sleep.

Christian is never going to find him, I think to myself, crawling back into bed to hold Kota in my arms.He will never get him.

I find it hard to fall back asleep and just watch Kota as the sun rises, hoping Zane is safe wherever he is.

The morning is relatively mundane when Kota wakes up.

We brush our teeth, comb our hair and dress like any other day but even as we go through these motions, I feel Zane’s absence.

"Mommy, you forgot this!" Kota cries, reaching for Zane’s small bottle of cologne.He stands on the tips of his toes and leans over the sink, grunting as he tries his best to reach it.

I grab it for him and he closes his eyes and puffs out his chest for me to spray him with his father’s cologne.

"Now I’m ready," he grins, stomping away down the hall.

I follow him into the kitchen where we find Agnes already preparing breakfast.

Kota stomps his feet on the wood floor to make his presence known and Agnes looks up from the stove to greet him, forcing a smile on her face.

It appears she did not get much sleep last night either, dark circles clinging to her under eyes.Her usually glowing skin is quite pale and she looks as defeated as I feel.

"I- help - you,"

Kota signs to Agnes, Agnes’s face lighting up as she hands Kota some plates.

We set up breakfast together on the patio and as we settle down to eat, Zane’s absence becomes blatantly obvious when I have to pull out a little pen and paper to speak with Agnes.

I have been practicing ASL with the girls at the clinic but I am still not proficient in the language to carry a full conversation on my own.

Luckily for me, Rionna arrives and joins us, and she is able to translate for Kota and I.

Butterflies dance in my belly when I notice Kota mimicking Rionna and singing the words he does know as he speaks so Agnes doesn’t feel left out of the conversation.

While they are few and far and between, I am sure Agnes appreciates his efforts.

Zane has only been part of our lives for a few weeks and he’s already impacting our son in such a beautiful way.

Devina purrs happily while watching our baby trying to be like his Dad.

"Nona, how do I say Eggness with my hands?" Kota asks, opening and closing his hands.

"Her name is this," Rionna explains, spelling out the name AGNES.

Her spelling reminds me that I have never seen Agnes use a name sign before when referring to herself but Zane appears to have a name sign.

"Does Agnes have a name sign?" I ask Rionna who translates for me.

"I know Zane does.She makes the letter Z over her heart every time she addresses him." Agnes gives a response.

"Name signs are usually only given by members of the Deaf Community," Rionna explains.

"It's like an initiation of sorts and it’s a huge honor to be given one if you are not Deaf. Since Agnes does not know anyone in the community, she has never been given a name sign but she has given one to Zane."

"Can I have aname?" Kota asks, smiling his toothy grin.

"That is for Agnes to decide," Rionna explains, translating for Agnes who gives a short response.

"She says she wants to give you a good name sign so she will think about it a little longer."

"Yay!"

squeals between mouthfuls of chocolate

gently, Kota

Rosalie and Celina arrive along with Rio who wags his

is nearly knocked over by

morning, ladies and gentleman," Rosalie winks

all doing?" she asks with a gentle look in

I

at the table, Celina sitting beside

your minds are all over the place right now so you may have forgotten but..." Celina

into our packs is coming up soon and we have to start setting things up for the event.Ro and I are

Jordan and it would be nice to take Kota out for a little while even if it’s just

Celina asks, my body freezing at the mention of that

"How do you-"

"Sorry," Celina laughs sheepishly.

just really loud," she says, gesturing to

Jordan guy…

mutter

"Past tense."

"IS," Celina corrects.

why picking the right one is so important and why I have yet to

get to pick mine," I

when I became Luna.I just accepted

"Hmm," Celina hums.

"Were you close?"

thought we were," I

friend.Turns out, he

he called you?" Rosalie

What did he

called this morning to warn me that my ex is coming to find

for me for the past four years and he hasn’t done it

the least

not in any danger and even if by some miracle, Christian

question them, both Celina and Rosalie nodding with

Kota has Aurora’s medallion and I am not human anymore," I

my life.My only concern right now Is my mate." Rosalie squeals with

so happy to see you finally accept

s**t, you have

my neck and l stroke the groves of

she's blushing!"

and it makes me so happy to see you accept

on my face but Celina still seems concerned

no danger for you or Kota?"

I promise, we can

shake

no way Christian would find me here.There’s no need to be

press any further, rising from her chair and calling

at the

some snacks for the trip and

murmur as I tie

them to places

"Okay, mommy," he nods.

don’t take candy from

"No."

present for when he comes

"Yeah!"

we walk out to

Kota?" I murmur, pulling him closer to

can I please sit with you?" he pleads, his beautiful eyes

whines, wanting to step forward

lifting him into my arms and carrying him inside the SUV.I set him

okay," I murmur, pushing his

have to be scared,"

name the colors of the

his own fears,

Rosalie to finalize the design she

go

of the event, Aurora must hand pick a

the recipients weeks ago and it was up to Rosalie to make sure each gift was complete and up to

is meticulous in her work, going

to die of boredom," Celina mutters as Rosalie requests changes for some of

for the party?" she

head, a cool

presume Agnes and

Celina drags us to a nearby boutique while Rosalie finishes

Melodies before as Luna but

linen dresses for the pack run and then dress in pack colors for the party.For River Moon, that’s midnight blue

to the racks at the back of the boutique with several elegant

something form fitting so you don’t look like you’re swimming in fabric."She hands

blue one first," she shouts

a dark blue dress that has a high neckline and long puffy sleeves, Kota shaking his head in

dress with a cape, making her look like an elegant

your dress,"