The Silent Alpha

***Natalia*** 

"What the f**k do you want?" I snarl, Jordan stammering on the other end.

"Luna, I-"

"I'm not your Luna!"

I hiss furiously.

"Get that through your head and stop calling me.Your Alpha and Silver Crest are not my responsibility anymore.You chose Vanessa, so ask her-"

"Would you just listen to me!" he blurts out.

I count down my breaths to control my anger before speaking.

"I told you everything," I whisper softly, pain laced with every word.

"I told you how much it hurt...How much pain I was feeling...I confided in you my worst fears and self doubts ...And you made believe that it was all in my head and I just had to try a little harder.You let me believe I was going crazy and that I was not enough."

My voice cracks a little from the memory of it all but my feelings quickly shift to complete rage.

"But I have found someone who believes I’m enough.Someone who actually listens to me and I will not let you come into my life again to ruin my happiness.I’m done listening to you," I snarl.

"I don’t trust you or anything you have to say anymore."

"But Christian is coming!" he pleads, but only I burst into laughter.

"He can come," I sigh in annoyance.

"He won’t find us."

I hang up the phone before he can say another word, turning to look at my pup as he snores lightly in his sleep.

Christian is never going to find him, I think to myself, crawling back into bed to hold Kota in my arms.He will never get him.

I find it hard to fall back asleep and just watch Kota as the sun rises, hoping Zane is safe wherever he is.

The morning is relatively mundane when Kota wakes up.

We brush our teeth, comb our hair and dress like any other day but even as we go through these motions, I feel Zane’s absence.

"Mommy, you forgot this!" Kota cries, reaching for Zane’s small bottle of cologne.He stands on the tips of his toes and leans over the sink, grunting as he tries his best to reach it.

I grab it for him and he closes his eyes and puffs out his chest for me to spray him with his father’s cologne.

"Now I’m ready," he grins, stomping away down the hall.

I follow him into the kitchen where we find Agnes already preparing breakfast.

Kota stomps his feet on the wood floor to make his presence known and Agnes looks up from the stove to greet him, forcing a smile on her face.

It appears she did not get much sleep last night either, dark circles clinging to her under eyes.Her usually glowing skin is quite pale and she looks as defeated as I feel.

"I- help - you,"

Kota signs to Agnes, Agnes’s face lighting up as she hands Kota some plates.

We set up breakfast together on the patio and as we settle down to eat, Zane’s absence becomes blatantly obvious when I have to pull out a little pen and paper to speak with Agnes.

I have been practicing ASL with the girls at the clinic but I am still not proficient in the language to carry a full conversation on my own.

Luckily for me, Rionna arrives and joins us, and she is able to translate for Kota and I.

Butterflies dance in my belly when I notice Kota mimicking Rionna and singing the words he does know as he speaks so Agnes doesn’t feel left out of the conversation.

While they are few and far and between, I am sure Agnes appreciates his efforts.

Zane has only been part of our lives for a few weeks and he’s already impacting our son in such a beautiful way.

Devina purrs happily while watching our baby trying to be like his Dad.

"Nona, how do I say Eggness with my hands?" Kota asks, opening and closing his hands.

"Her name is this," Rionna explains, spelling out the name AGNES.

Her spelling reminds me that I have never seen Agnes use a name sign before when referring to herself but Zane appears to have a name sign.

"Does Agnes have a name sign?" I ask Rionna who translates for me.

"I know Zane does.She makes the letter Z over her heart every time she addresses him." Agnes gives a response.

"Name signs are usually only given by members of the Deaf Community," Rionna explains.

"It's like an initiation of sorts and it’s a huge honor to be given one if you are not Deaf. Since Agnes does not know anyone in the community, she has never been given a name sign but she has given one to Zane."

"Can I have aname?" Kota asks, smiling his toothy grin.

"That is for Agnes to decide," Rionna explains, translating for Agnes who gives a short response.

"She says she wants to give you a good name sign so she will think about it a little longer."

"Yay!"

mouthfuls of chocolate

your mouth closed, please," I scold him gently, Kota sitting up a little straighter in his seat

finish up breakfast, Rosalie and Celina arrive along with Rio who wags

in a flash and is nearly knocked over by

ladies and gentleman,"

all doing?" she asks with a gentle look in

I shrug with a

the

are all over the place right now so you

newly shifted wolves into our packs is coming up soon and we have to start setting things up for the event.Ro and I are heading into town to get supplies

call with Jordan and it would be nice to take Kota

my body freezing at the mention of

"How do you-"

"Sorry," Celina laughs sheepishly.

loud," she says, gesturing

this Jordan guy…

I mutter under

"Past tense."

"IS," Celina corrects.

is so important and why I have yet to

get to

when

"Hmm," Celina hums.

"Were you close?"

we were," I

my best friend.Turns out, he was just

he called you?"

did he

that my ex is coming

for me for the past four years

least bit concerned?" Celina

know I’m in California, nor does he know about this Kingdom.I am not in any danger and even if by some

question them, both Celina and Rosalie

and I am not human anymore,"

life.My only concern right now Is my mate." Rosalie squeals with

makes me so happy to see you finally accept him as your

holy s**t, you have

to my neck and l stroke the groves of Zane’s mark

she's blushing!" She

have at beautiful little family and it makes

stretches on my face but

there’s no danger for you or

promise, we can

I shake my head

find me here.There’s no

hesitant but doesn’t press any further, rising from her chair

an hour at the pack house for

snacks for the trip and give him my usual

murmur as I tie

follow them to places where mommy

"Okay, mommy," he nods.

take candy from strangers,

"No."

present for when he comes

"Yeah!"

at the pack house as planned but as we walk out to the drive away,

murmur, pulling him closer

sit with you?" he

wanting to step forward to comfort

him into my arms and carrying him inside the SUV.I set him

I murmur, pushing

care of you.You don’t have to be scared," I

me name the colors of the cars that we

his own fears, and we arrive at the mall before

florist for Rosalie to finalize the design she had in mind

we go

pick a gift to present to each

weeks ago and it was up to Rosalie to make sure each gift was complete and up

is meticulous in her work, going

as

have dresses for the party?" she

shake my head, a cool smirk spreading across

presume Agnes and

it appears none of us are ready for a party, Celina drags us to a nearby boutique while Rosalie finishes up her

sure you’ve managed your own Night of Melodies before as Luna but everyone always does theirs differently," Celina

brown linen dresses for the pack run and then dress in pack colors for the party.For River Moon, that’s midnight

us to the racks at the back of the boutique with several elegant dresses and scans me up and

so you don’t look like you’re swimming in fabric."She hands me several dresses and shoves

the blue one first,"

a dark blue dress that has a high neckline and long puffy sleeves, Kota

a cape, making her look

dress," Celina