The Silent Alpha

*** Trigger Warning: Physical and emotional child-abuse ahead*** 

***Zanet**

 It feels strange to see the man I've feared for so long kneel before me, trembling like all the times I stood before him while I recited my poems.

But even as he bleeds, even as he sits at my mercy, I still see the look of disgust flicker in his eyes when I speak to him for the first time in almost 20 years.

"H-Hello, father," I snarl, my fists clenching at my sides as I fight to contain my anger.

How can he hate his own son so much!? Around me, the Scarlett Haven wolves gawk at me, unable to believe I just called their Alpha, ‘father’.

"You’re....You’re no son of mine,"

Sebastian pants, his brown eyes turning blue as the wolf within takes over.

"You’re nothing more than a weak, pathetic-" I swing my arm back, punching him in the jaw and nearly knocking him flat on his back before he can finish his sentence.

"E-Enough!" I growl, my father’s mouth clamping shut while his eyes widen in shock that my commands work on him.

"T-that’s enough! Y-you think y-you’re so strong and so t-tough? W-well look at y-you now, father! Wh-what good is y-your strength now?"

"How dare you speak to me that way!"

Sebastian roars.

"y-you have silenced m-me all of my life.Y-you do not get to silence m-me before my own p-pack!"

"Your pack?" He scoffs.

The Ravenstone wolves growl at his disrespect, proving that they are now loyal to me.

"My p-pack," I repeat.

"De-despite how little y-you think of me, not only did I-I find a p-pack that accepts m-me as I-I am, but I-I also managed to ou-outlive m-my replacement."

Sebastian laughs and opens his mouth to speak only to be silenced by a slap to the face as Grayson takes over.

"Did I say you could speak?"

Grayson roars, Sebastian’s eyes widening in shock at Grayson’s confidence.

A cold amused smile curls on Sebastain’s lips.

"Pack?" he laughs.

"The man who stands beside you killed your mother and your brother and yet you proudly show your loyalty to him," my father scoffs.

"H-he didn’t k-kill Jonathan-"

That's when I see it, the flicker of fear in his eyes when I mention my dead brother.He's hiding something...Lowering my walls, I allow the river of thoughts to flow between us.He can’t know about Jonathan.

There’s no possible way he would know! I hear him say to his wolf.

"W-what don’t I know?" I ask, my father stiffening with surprise that I know what he’s thinking.

"What?" he asks, bemused by my question.

"I -I said, 'W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?"

I repeat, this time taking a menacing step forward.My father tries to crawl back but winces when he tries to move his legs.

"W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?" I snarl, dread settling in the pit of my stomach.

My father stares back defiantly at me, refusing to speak so I take matters into my own hands.

Closing my eyes, I listen in to his subconscious, following the voices in his memories.

A coldness envelops me in the darkness before a bright light blinds me for a moment.

Like a movie projection, Sebastian’s memories begin to unfold on the dock in front of him for all to see.

Scarlett Haven and Ravenstone wolves alike fall silent to watch, allowing me to focus on the many rivers of thought trying to drown me.

In the first memory I find, all I see is Sebastian sitting at his desk, staring at a hairbrush in his hand.He does not use it, just carefully caresses it for a few moments before stuffing it into a drawer and returning to his work.

For a moment, he almost looks human...until he carefully hides all his pain behind a mask of stone.I dig a little deeper, unlocking another memory where my father berates Wyatt for questioning him.

"Zane will not take the title because he doesn't have what it takes to look his opponent in the eye and lead his soldiers in war," he snarls.

"He will always be weak...He’s useless...I showed mercy to him as a favor for Elenore.He was her son, but he was never mine."

Despite the venom in his voice as he says those things, I feel a smile curl on my face and a sense of relief wash over me as I realize something amazing.

His words no longer hurt me and I am now free of the chains that bound me to him.We are not family, just two strangers at war.

I continue scouring his memories, stumbling upon memory after memory of him ignoring the cruelty of his own pack against Agnes and I.I travel back many years until I find myself seeing the night of my mother’s death through his own eyes.I stand back and watch my mother leave the car to grab a snack for me, trailing behind Sebastian as they enter the King’s party.

Together they greet guests and slowly make their way towards the snack bar, smiling and laughing like the perfect couple.

To an outsider, they look like your average, happily married Alpha and Luna, but on the inside, I know my mother was screaming.

"’I’m leaving you," my mother murmurs as she grabs a plate of food for me.

"And I’m taking my baby with me."

why my mother never left Sebastian, believing perhaps their bond was just

come to understand the fear of someone hurting your child.I was hidden away partially for

my mother feared I would be hurt without

washes over me as I recognize my mother’s strength to choose me over her pack and

been an easy decision to walk

need and nothing more,"

any of your money to help me raise him.You never treated him like a son anyways, so

in the direction of the car, only to be pulled

the most blood curdling scream, a

screams, but Sebastian only turns the other cheek

to understand howSebastian could

scream," I mumble, fighting back the angry tears that

y-you for

I try

day he married her.I could have lived a good life with just my mom somewhere far from all the wars and abuse.I could have learned

stares back emotionlessly, not an ounce of regret for what

"She was Wyatt’s responsibility,"

retorts in

me? You stand with the man who ordered her death.You are no

surface, taking over control

the bullets

his hands

"What- No! No!"

disobey the command but failing, his fingers plunging into the wounds to push the

agony, blood pouring

"Areal Alpha doesn’t scream,"

Sebastian’s face seething with rage and

that what you always say to

response, his breaths ragged as he holds back his

snarls, taking a step back to let

get down on one knee so that our

y-you," I whisper in a

once again finding myself in the depths of

and vile, but I stumbled upon one I have no memory

this an heir?" my grandfather, Alexander, snarls

"It can’t even speak."

in the presence of the old Alpha, his face

mother snarls, pushing me behind her

teach that b***h of yours how to address an Alpha," my

want me to do

make a realization.He feared his father...just like

face but she keeps her body in

speak only if you are spoken to," Sebastian growls, turning to

for my wife's behavior." My grandfather only grunts in response, an

it never

"Yes sir,"

father.It’s rather refreshing to see Sebastian cower before another Alpha.I had been too afraid my whole life

come here," my grandfather's voice booms, my mother shaking her

said come here." My father grabs my mother’s wrist and yanks her away from me, hissing in her

I wonder to myself, watching my younger self tremble as I take timid steps towards the

grandfather snaps, younger me opening my mouth but saying

boy!" he snarls, tears

"He-hello, gran-gran-grandpa-"

face as the elder Alpha’s eyes glow turquoise, the look on his face that of utter disgust

to scream, my little hands clawing at

"Father- Sir, please,"

collapse on the floor, writhing and kicking from

Alpha Alexander to let me go and pleading with Sebastian to stop him from hurting

"I-I’ll fix him,"

says, getting on

fix him.Just let

stops screaming,

coldly at his kneeling son, disgusted

OFF YOUR KNEES, BOY!"

Alpha never kneels,

walls rattle with his booming voice, and he turns to

I see that boy," he says over his

fades away

me while little Jonathan plays with a crinkly

in the old cottage by the

himself onto his feet and crawling over to his father to

Johnny to the

my mother

strapping him into the back seat, excitement dancing in his youthful face.I had long forgotten there was once a man under all his bitter

them, it's already too late.He swerves off the road and

and the smell of

Sebastian looks around the truck, blood trickling from his nose

seat, little

wolves circle the truck, snarling and growling at

his belt, quickly discovering that it is stuck and trapping him in

shifts into

sound of his father’s voice and claws himself out of his belt, breaking a window with his elbow to crawl out of the

he presents himself before his father with his

Sebastian mumbles, earning him a

None of this mumbling s**t," his father snarls, Sebastian