The Silent Alpha

*** Trigger Warning: Physical and emotional child-abuse ahead*** 

***Zanet**

 It feels strange to see the man I've feared for so long kneel before me, trembling like all the times I stood before him while I recited my poems.

But even as he bleeds, even as he sits at my mercy, I still see the look of disgust flicker in his eyes when I speak to him for the first time in almost 20 years.

"H-Hello, father," I snarl, my fists clenching at my sides as I fight to contain my anger.

How can he hate his own son so much!? Around me, the Scarlett Haven wolves gawk at me, unable to believe I just called their Alpha, ‘father’.

"You’re....You’re no son of mine,"

Sebastian pants, his brown eyes turning blue as the wolf within takes over.

"You’re nothing more than a weak, pathetic-" I swing my arm back, punching him in the jaw and nearly knocking him flat on his back before he can finish his sentence.

"E-Enough!" I growl, my father’s mouth clamping shut while his eyes widen in shock that my commands work on him.

"T-that’s enough! Y-you think y-you’re so strong and so t-tough? W-well look at y-you now, father! Wh-what good is y-your strength now?"

"How dare you speak to me that way!"

Sebastian roars.

"y-you have silenced m-me all of my life.Y-you do not get to silence m-me before my own p-pack!"

"Your pack?" He scoffs.

The Ravenstone wolves growl at his disrespect, proving that they are now loyal to me.

"My p-pack," I repeat.

"De-despite how little y-you think of me, not only did I-I find a p-pack that accepts m-me as I-I am, but I-I also managed to ou-outlive m-my replacement."

Sebastian laughs and opens his mouth to speak only to be silenced by a slap to the face as Grayson takes over.

"Did I say you could speak?"

Grayson roars, Sebastian’s eyes widening in shock at Grayson’s confidence.

A cold amused smile curls on Sebastain’s lips.

"Pack?" he laughs.

"The man who stands beside you killed your mother and your brother and yet you proudly show your loyalty to him," my father scoffs.

"H-he didn’t k-kill Jonathan-"

That's when I see it, the flicker of fear in his eyes when I mention my dead brother.He's hiding something...Lowering my walls, I allow the river of thoughts to flow between us.He can’t know about Jonathan.

There’s no possible way he would know! I hear him say to his wolf.

"W-what don’t I know?" I ask, my father stiffening with surprise that I know what he’s thinking.

"What?" he asks, bemused by my question.

"I -I said, 'W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?"

I repeat, this time taking a menacing step forward.My father tries to crawl back but winces when he tries to move his legs.

"W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?" I snarl, dread settling in the pit of my stomach.

My father stares back defiantly at me, refusing to speak so I take matters into my own hands.

Closing my eyes, I listen in to his subconscious, following the voices in his memories.

A coldness envelops me in the darkness before a bright light blinds me for a moment.

Like a movie projection, Sebastian’s memories begin to unfold on the dock in front of him for all to see.

Scarlett Haven and Ravenstone wolves alike fall silent to watch, allowing me to focus on the many rivers of thought trying to drown me.

In the first memory I find, all I see is Sebastian sitting at his desk, staring at a hairbrush in his hand.He does not use it, just carefully caresses it for a few moments before stuffing it into a drawer and returning to his work.

For a moment, he almost looks human...until he carefully hides all his pain behind a mask of stone.I dig a little deeper, unlocking another memory where my father berates Wyatt for questioning him.

"Zane will not take the title because he doesn't have what it takes to look his opponent in the eye and lead his soldiers in war," he snarls.

"He will always be weak...He’s useless...I showed mercy to him as a favor for Elenore.He was her son, but he was never mine."

Despite the venom in his voice as he says those things, I feel a smile curl on my face and a sense of relief wash over me as I realize something amazing.

His words no longer hurt me and I am now free of the chains that bound me to him.We are not family, just two strangers at war.

I continue scouring his memories, stumbling upon memory after memory of him ignoring the cruelty of his own pack against Agnes and I.I travel back many years until I find myself seeing the night of my mother’s death through his own eyes.I stand back and watch my mother leave the car to grab a snack for me, trailing behind Sebastian as they enter the King’s party.

Together they greet guests and slowly make their way towards the snack bar, smiling and laughing like the perfect couple.

To an outsider, they look like your average, happily married Alpha and Luna, but on the inside, I know my mother was screaming.

"’I’m leaving you," my mother murmurs as she grabs a plate of food for me.

"And I’m taking my baby with me."

have wondered why my mother never left Sebastian, believing perhaps their bond was just too

come to understand the fear of someone hurting

I would be hurt without Scarlett Haven’s

my mother’s strength to choose

have been an easy decision

need and nothing more,"

any of your money to help me raise him.You never treated him like a son anyways, so

in Sebastian’s brown eyes and he walks away, my mother turning back in the direction of the

hear the most blood curdling scream, a scream that both shatters

only turns the other cheek and runs in the opposite direction, jumping on

understand howSebastian could abandon

her scream," I mumble, fighting back the angry tears that so desperately want to escape

y-you for help...and

I try to contain

have lived a

an ounce of regret for what he did to my

"She was Wyatt’s responsibility,"

retorts in

You stand with the man who ordered

surface, taking over control as

bullets in

Sebastian watching in horror as his hands

"What- No! No!"

command but failing,

he growls with strained agony, blood pouring from the open

"Areal Alpha doesn’t scream,"

sneers, Sebastian’s face seething

shows weakness.Isn't that what you

in response, his breaths ragged as he holds back his screams the further he

step

man again, I get down on one knee

whisper in

eyes, once again

and vile, but I stumbled upon one

call this an heir?" my grandfather, Alexander, snarls as he looks down

"It can’t even speak."

presence of the old Alpha,

me behind her to

well to teach that b***h of yours

me to

Sebastian’s eyes and a twitch in his hand, and I make a realization.He feared his father...just like I feared him.He hides it well behind an emotionless face, storming over to my mother and slapping her

face but she keeps her body

are spoken to,"

wife's behavior." My grandfather only grunts in response, an unamused look

it

"Yes sir,"

to see Sebastian cower before another Alpha.I had been too afraid my whole life to notice

my grandfather's voice booms, my

here." My father grabs my mother’s wrist and yanks her away from me, hissing in her ear, "If

as I take timid steps towards the Alpha towering over

my grandfather snaps, younger me opening my mouth

snarls, tears springing to

"He-hello, gran-gran-grandpa-"

drains from Sebastian’s face as the elder Alpha’s eyes glow turquoise,

suddenly begins to scream, my little hands clawing at my

"Father- Sir, please,"

the floor, writhing and kicking from

Alpha Alexander to let me go and pleading with Sebastian to stop him

"I-I’ll fix him,"

getting on

promise, Sir.I’ll fix him.Just let the

self suddenly stops screaming, passed out from all

Alpha stares coldly at his kneeling son,

YOUR KNEES, BOY!" my

never kneels,

with his booming voice, and he turns

I see that boy," he

fades away into mist, morphing into a

while little Jonathan plays with a crinkly foil blanket on the

I realize we are in the old cottage by the

in quietly, Jonathan pushing himself onto his feet and crawling over

taking Johnny to

mother nodding haphazardly

into the back seat, excitement dancing in his youthful face.I had long forgotten there was once a man under all his bitter hatred.I follow them on their drive, watching my older brother play with a

too late.He swerves off the road and into a ditch, the truck flipping over a

is completely shattered and the smell

truck, blood trickling from

seat, little

wolves circle the truck, snarling and growling at Sebastian, daring him to step

that it is stuck and

Sebastian," the silver wolf snickers as he shifts into his human form,

panics at the sound of his father’s voice and claws himself out of his belt, breaking a window with his elbow to

he presents himself before his father

mumbles, earning him

this mumbling s**t," his father snarls, Sebastian nodding and standing up