The Silent Alpha

*** Trigger Warning: Physical and emotional child-abuse ahead*** 

***Zanet**

 It feels strange to see the man I've feared for so long kneel before me, trembling like all the times I stood before him while I recited my poems.

But even as he bleeds, even as he sits at my mercy, I still see the look of disgust flicker in his eyes when I speak to him for the first time in almost 20 years.

"H-Hello, father," I snarl, my fists clenching at my sides as I fight to contain my anger.

How can he hate his own son so much!? Around me, the Scarlett Haven wolves gawk at me, unable to believe I just called their Alpha, ‘father’.

"You’re....You’re no son of mine,"

Sebastian pants, his brown eyes turning blue as the wolf within takes over.

"You’re nothing more than a weak, pathetic-" I swing my arm back, punching him in the jaw and nearly knocking him flat on his back before he can finish his sentence.

"E-Enough!" I growl, my father’s mouth clamping shut while his eyes widen in shock that my commands work on him.

"T-that’s enough! Y-you think y-you’re so strong and so t-tough? W-well look at y-you now, father! Wh-what good is y-your strength now?"

"How dare you speak to me that way!"

Sebastian roars.

"y-you have silenced m-me all of my life.Y-you do not get to silence m-me before my own p-pack!"

"Your pack?" He scoffs.

The Ravenstone wolves growl at his disrespect, proving that they are now loyal to me.

"My p-pack," I repeat.

"De-despite how little y-you think of me, not only did I-I find a p-pack that accepts m-me as I-I am, but I-I also managed to ou-outlive m-my replacement."

Sebastian laughs and opens his mouth to speak only to be silenced by a slap to the face as Grayson takes over.

"Did I say you could speak?"

Grayson roars, Sebastian’s eyes widening in shock at Grayson’s confidence.

A cold amused smile curls on Sebastain’s lips.

"Pack?" he laughs.

"The man who stands beside you killed your mother and your brother and yet you proudly show your loyalty to him," my father scoffs.

"H-he didn’t k-kill Jonathan-"

That's when I see it, the flicker of fear in his eyes when I mention my dead brother.He's hiding something...Lowering my walls, I allow the river of thoughts to flow between us.He can’t know about Jonathan.

There’s no possible way he would know! I hear him say to his wolf.

"W-what don’t I know?" I ask, my father stiffening with surprise that I know what he’s thinking.

"What?" he asks, bemused by my question.

"I -I said, 'W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?"

I repeat, this time taking a menacing step forward.My father tries to crawl back but winces when he tries to move his legs.

"W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?" I snarl, dread settling in the pit of my stomach.

My father stares back defiantly at me, refusing to speak so I take matters into my own hands.

Closing my eyes, I listen in to his subconscious, following the voices in his memories.

A coldness envelops me in the darkness before a bright light blinds me for a moment.

Like a movie projection, Sebastian’s memories begin to unfold on the dock in front of him for all to see.

Scarlett Haven and Ravenstone wolves alike fall silent to watch, allowing me to focus on the many rivers of thought trying to drown me.

In the first memory I find, all I see is Sebastian sitting at his desk, staring at a hairbrush in his hand.He does not use it, just carefully caresses it for a few moments before stuffing it into a drawer and returning to his work.

For a moment, he almost looks human...until he carefully hides all his pain behind a mask of stone.I dig a little deeper, unlocking another memory where my father berates Wyatt for questioning him.

"Zane will not take the title because he doesn't have what it takes to look his opponent in the eye and lead his soldiers in war," he snarls.

"He will always be weak...He’s useless...I showed mercy to him as a favor for Elenore.He was her son, but he was never mine."

Despite the venom in his voice as he says those things, I feel a smile curl on my face and a sense of relief wash over me as I realize something amazing.

His words no longer hurt me and I am now free of the chains that bound me to him.We are not family, just two strangers at war.

I continue scouring his memories, stumbling upon memory after memory of him ignoring the cruelty of his own pack against Agnes and I.I travel back many years until I find myself seeing the night of my mother’s death through his own eyes.I stand back and watch my mother leave the car to grab a snack for me, trailing behind Sebastian as they enter the King’s party.

Together they greet guests and slowly make their way towards the snack bar, smiling and laughing like the perfect couple.

To an outsider, they look like your average, happily married Alpha and Luna, but on the inside, I know my mother was screaming.

"’I’m leaving you," my mother murmurs as she grabs a plate of food for me.

"And I’m taking my baby with me."

Sebastian, believing perhaps their bond was just too hard to break

of someone hurting your child.I was hidden away partially for fear of me being

mother feared I would be hurt without

washes over me as I recognize my mother’s strength to

could not have been an easy decision to

need and

worry, I don’t expect any of your money to help me raise him.You never treated him like

mother turning back in the direction of the car, only to

I hear the most blood curdling scream, a scream that both shatters my heart and fills my soul

Sebastian only turns the other cheek and runs in the opposite direction, jumping on a Ravenstone wolf and tearing out his

stop the projection, unable to understand howSebastian could abandon his

mumble, fighting back the angry tears

mind-linked y-you for help...and y-you

voice trails off as I try to contain

Sebastian only protected his mate like he promised to the day he married her.I could have lived a good life with just my mom somewhere far from all the

stares back emotionlessly, not an ounce of

"She was Wyatt’s responsibility,"

retorts in a

man who ordered her death.You are no better than me.You’re

pushes through to the surface, taking over

bullets

horror as his hands move involuntarily towards

"What- No! No!"

the command but failing, his fingers plunging into the wounds to push

strained agony,

"Areal Alpha doesn’t scream,"

sneers, Sebastian’s face seething with

Alpha never shows weakness.Isn't that what you always say

as he holds back his

taking a step back to let

again, I get down on one knee so

y-you," I whisper in a calm rage

my eyes, once again finding myself

and vile, but I stumbled upon one I have no

Alexander, snarls as

"It can’t even speak."

the presence of the old Alpha, his face contorted

me behind her to

do well to teach that b***h of yours how to address an Alpha," my

me to do it for

his hand, and I make a realization.He feared his father...just like I feared him.He hides it well behind an emotionless face, storming over to my mother

as the sting burns across her face but she keeps her

you are spoken to," Sebastian growls, turning to face

wife's behavior." My grandfather only grunts in response, an unamused look on

sure it never happens

"Yes sir,"

cower before another Alpha.I had been too afraid my whole life to notice Sebastian had his

booms, my mother shaking

me, hissing in her ear, "If you care about the boy, do not

self tremble as I take timid steps towards

grandfather snaps, younger me opening my mouth

snarls, tears springing to my

"He-hello, gran-gran-grandpa-"

elder Alpha’s eyes glow turquoise, the look

scream, my little hands clawing

"Father- Sir, please,"

I collapse on the floor, writhing and kicking from

me go and pleading with Sebastian to

"I-I’ll fix him,"

says, getting on his

Sir.I’ll fix him.Just let the

screaming,

Alpha stares coldly at his kneeling son, disgusted

OFF YOUR KNEES,

never

his booming voice, and he turns to

time I see that

away into mist, morphing into a new

rocking chair, nursing me while little Jonathan

in the old cottage by the waterfall,

quietly, Jonathan pushing himself onto his feet and crawling over to his father

Johnny to

shoulder, my mother nodding haphazardly as she caresses

truck, strapping him into the back seat, excitement dancing in his youthful face.I had long forgotten there was once a man under all his bitter hatred.I follow them

Sebastian doesn’t notice the three wolves standing in the middle of the road and by the time Sebastian sees them, it's already too late.He swerves off the road and into a ditch, the truck flipping over a few times before coming to a halt in

shattered and the smell of gasoline lingers

truck, blood trickling

seat, little cuts on his

snarling and growling at Sebastian, daring him to

against his belt, quickly discovering that it is stuck and

wolf snickers as he shifts into his human form, revealing

the sound of his father’s voice and claws himself out of his belt,

the blood from his nose, he presents himself before

Sebastian mumbles, earning him a slap from his

None of this mumbling s**t," his father snarls, Sebastian nodding and