The Silent Alpha

*** Trigger Warning: Physical and emotional child-abuse ahead*** 

***Zanet**

 It feels strange to see the man I've feared for so long kneel before me, trembling like all the times I stood before him while I recited my poems.

But even as he bleeds, even as he sits at my mercy, I still see the look of disgust flicker in his eyes when I speak to him for the first time in almost 20 years.

"H-Hello, father," I snarl, my fists clenching at my sides as I fight to contain my anger.

How can he hate his own son so much!? Around me, the Scarlett Haven wolves gawk at me, unable to believe I just called their Alpha, ‘father’.

"You’re....You’re no son of mine,"

Sebastian pants, his brown eyes turning blue as the wolf within takes over.

"You’re nothing more than a weak, pathetic-" I swing my arm back, punching him in the jaw and nearly knocking him flat on his back before he can finish his sentence.

"E-Enough!" I growl, my father’s mouth clamping shut while his eyes widen in shock that my commands work on him.

"T-that’s enough! Y-you think y-you’re so strong and so t-tough? W-well look at y-you now, father! Wh-what good is y-your strength now?"

"How dare you speak to me that way!"

Sebastian roars.

"y-you have silenced m-me all of my life.Y-you do not get to silence m-me before my own p-pack!"

"Your pack?" He scoffs.

The Ravenstone wolves growl at his disrespect, proving that they are now loyal to me.

"My p-pack," I repeat.

"De-despite how little y-you think of me, not only did I-I find a p-pack that accepts m-me as I-I am, but I-I also managed to ou-outlive m-my replacement."

Sebastian laughs and opens his mouth to speak only to be silenced by a slap to the face as Grayson takes over.

"Did I say you could speak?"

Grayson roars, Sebastian’s eyes widening in shock at Grayson’s confidence.

A cold amused smile curls on Sebastain’s lips.

"Pack?" he laughs.

"The man who stands beside you killed your mother and your brother and yet you proudly show your loyalty to him," my father scoffs.

"H-he didn’t k-kill Jonathan-"

That's when I see it, the flicker of fear in his eyes when I mention my dead brother.He's hiding something...Lowering my walls, I allow the river of thoughts to flow between us.He can’t know about Jonathan.

There’s no possible way he would know! I hear him say to his wolf.

"W-what don’t I know?" I ask, my father stiffening with surprise that I know what he’s thinking.

"What?" he asks, bemused by my question.

"I -I said, 'W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?"

I repeat, this time taking a menacing step forward.My father tries to crawl back but winces when he tries to move his legs.

"W-What don’t I-I know about Jonathan?" I snarl, dread settling in the pit of my stomach.

My father stares back defiantly at me, refusing to speak so I take matters into my own hands.

Closing my eyes, I listen in to his subconscious, following the voices in his memories.

A coldness envelops me in the darkness before a bright light blinds me for a moment.

Like a movie projection, Sebastian’s memories begin to unfold on the dock in front of him for all to see.

Scarlett Haven and Ravenstone wolves alike fall silent to watch, allowing me to focus on the many rivers of thought trying to drown me.

In the first memory I find, all I see is Sebastian sitting at his desk, staring at a hairbrush in his hand.He does not use it, just carefully caresses it for a few moments before stuffing it into a drawer and returning to his work.

For a moment, he almost looks human...until he carefully hides all his pain behind a mask of stone.I dig a little deeper, unlocking another memory where my father berates Wyatt for questioning him.

"Zane will not take the title because he doesn't have what it takes to look his opponent in the eye and lead his soldiers in war," he snarls.

"He will always be weak...He’s useless...I showed mercy to him as a favor for Elenore.He was her son, but he was never mine."

Despite the venom in his voice as he says those things, I feel a smile curl on my face and a sense of relief wash over me as I realize something amazing.

His words no longer hurt me and I am now free of the chains that bound me to him.We are not family, just two strangers at war.

I continue scouring his memories, stumbling upon memory after memory of him ignoring the cruelty of his own pack against Agnes and I.I travel back many years until I find myself seeing the night of my mother’s death through his own eyes.I stand back and watch my mother leave the car to grab a snack for me, trailing behind Sebastian as they enter the King’s party.

Together they greet guests and slowly make their way towards the snack bar, smiling and laughing like the perfect couple.

To an outsider, they look like your average, happily married Alpha and Luna, but on the inside, I know my mother was screaming.

"’I’m leaving you," my mother murmurs as she grabs a plate of food for me.

"And I’m taking my baby with me."

have wondered why my mother never left Sebastian, believing perhaps their bond was just

I’ve come to understand the fear of someone hurting your child.I was

would be

I recognize my mother’s strength to choose me over her

not have been an easy decision

I need and nothing more," she adds

I don’t expect any of your money to help me raise him.You never treated him like a son anyways,

he walks away, my mother turning back in the direction of the car, only to be pulled into a conversation with a pack

the most

Sebastian only turns the other cheek

the projection, unable to understand howSebastian could abandon his mate when

mumble, fighting back the angry tears that so

mind-linked y-you for help...and y-you

voice trails off as I try

a good life with just my mom

not an ounce of regret for what he

"She was Wyatt’s responsibility,"

in a low

stand with the man who ordered her death.You are no better than me.You’re just

surface, taking over control as I

bullets in

horror as his hands move involuntarily towards his bleeding

"What- No! No!"

command but failing, his fingers plunging into the wounds

he growls with strained agony, blood pouring from the open

"Areal Alpha doesn’t scream,"

face seething with

what

breaths ragged as he holds back his

taking a step back to

get down on

nothing like y-you," I whisper

I close my eyes, once again finding

and vile, but I stumbled upon one I have no

Alexander, snarls as he looks down

"It can’t even speak."

the presence of the old Alpha, his face contorted in disgust

me behind her to shield me from my

to teach that b***h of yours

you want me to

in Sebastian’s eyes and a twitch in his hand, and I make a realization.He feared his father...just like I

as the sting burns across her face

speak only if you are spoken to,"

My grandfather only grunts in response, an

it never

"Yes sir,"

Alpha.I had been too

my grandfather's voice booms, my mother shaking her head at

wrist and yanks her away from me,

tremble as

my grandfather snaps, younger me

‘speak’ boy!" he snarls,

"He-hello, gran-gran-grandpa-"

Sebastian’s face as the elder Alpha’s eyes glow turquoise, the look on his face that of

begins to scream, my little hands clawing at my arms and

"Father- Sir, please,"

on the floor, writhing and kicking from the agony burning across

Alexander to let me go and pleading with Sebastian to

"I-I’ll fix him,"

says, getting

Sir.I’ll fix him.Just let the

suddenly stops screaming, passed out from

Alpha stares coldly at his kneeling son, disgusted

KNEES, BOY!"

never

walls rattle with his booming voice, and he turns to

that boy," he

be fixed." The memory fades away into mist,

mother sits in her rocking chair, nursing me while little Jonathan plays with a crinkly foil blanket

around, I realize we are in the old cottage

feet and crawling over to his

Johnny to

his shoulder, my mother nodding haphazardly as she caresses

excitement dancing in his youthful face.I had long forgotten there was once a man under all his bitter hatred.I follow them on their drive, watching my older brother play with a rattle in his hand while Sebastian glances

notice the three wolves standing in the middle of the road and by the time Sebastian sees them, it's already too late.He swerves off the road and into a ditch, the truck flipping over a few

and the smell of gasoline lingers in the

Sebastian looks around the truck, blood trickling from

the back seat, little cuts on his

truck, snarling and growling at Sebastian, daring him

quickly discovering that it is stuck and

silver wolf snickers as he shifts into his human form, revealing himself

himself out of his belt, breaking a window with his

nose, he presents himself before his

earning him a slap from his

s**t," his father snarls, Sebastian nodding and standing