The Silent Alpha

***Natalia’*** 

I can feel myself slipping away as blood pours out of my neck area and I make peace with the thought that this may be the end for me.

Zane reluctantly pulls his hands away from the wound and leans forward to kiss my forehead, his lips leaving lingering sparks on my skin and I try to savor them as he turns to leave.

"I- I'll be back," he murmurs.

This may be the last time we speak to each other, so I reach out my hand and hold onto his wrist a little longer.I want him to know how glad I am we met.

"Zane..." I croak, struggling to find my words.

"I-I love you." He does not reply but I see the anguish swimming in his eyes and it hurts.

My sweet mate is breaking inside.I just hope when this is all over, his heart is still intact.

Zane storms out of the car and Rionna kicks into action, reaching her hand over me to unbuckle my seat belt.

"Don't worry, dear.We'll get you help," she reassures me, grabbing Agnes'‘s hands and placing them over my wound.

"We just need to get you into the passenger seat," she grunts, jumping out of the car and adjusting the passenger seat so that it rests all the way back.

Dakota screaming in the background for me.

"Mommy! Mommy!" he wails, Rionna, and Agnes shifting me onto the passenger seat.

"Please help my Mommy," he sobs.

"Help her!"

I open my mouth to calm him down but only incoherent mumbles escape my lips, frustration bubbling in my chest.

Instincts take over, however, and I do my best to keep calm and slow down my breathing.If I want to survive, I need to stay calm.

Agnes tears off her shirt, ripping the fabric into strips and tying it around my shoulder and over my collar bone to stop the bleeding.

Instant pain shoots across my chest, my nails imprinting half moons into the car seat as I bite on my tongue to hold back my screams.I don’t want to scare my baby.

Rionna jumps into the driver seat, restarting the car and turning it back towards River Moon.

"Stay with us Talia.Just stay with us," she orders me as we speed down the road.

"I linked Toran and he’s getting help from the Queen.Just hang on.Don’t go.Kota and Zane still need you." I can feel myself slipping into the darkness, a coldness filling my body as more blood pools around my chest.

"Mommy!" Kota screams, my eyes struggling to stay open.

"Mommy wake up!"

But the exhaustion is only growing stronger, its claws fight to stay conscious but as we drive through what appears to be a portal, I feel myself fall into the cold pitch black, the pain subsiding and the world giving way to the abyss.I do not feel fear as I wander aimlessly for what feels like hours into the void.

The dark is quiet but in a soothing way.I must have died...I tell myself, my heart breaking a little at the thought but the memory of Kota and Zane watching the butterflies calms my fears.

Even in my absence, my son will know love.

His father will make sure of that.

Peace settles into my being and as I take a step forward, I feel the ground give way and a flutter fills my heart as I fall into the pitch black.

My arms and legs instinctively search for something to grab onto as I fall when the black nothingness suddenly fades to blue skies and fluffy clouds I can almost touch with my fingers.

Just as suddenly as the sky appears, I feel myself gently fall into a body of water, small waves washing over me until I'm fully submerged.I react instantly and swim to the water's surface, taking a huge gulp of air to fill my starving lungs.

middle of a lake, a calm voice

Natalia....

Natalia...

wind whispers, its voice sweet and melodic.I decide to follow it and swim towards the shore,

between eyes

air of dominance lingers around the wolf. The wolf feels familiar and as I crawl onto the shore, it rushes to help me, its tail wagging

wound which had been bleeding like crazy only moments ago is long gone, flawless

I get up on my feet and dust

in shock when it replies back with

it murmurs, turning its body

should hurry.She’s waiting for

but the wolf does not answer, running off into the

small stones and branches littering the forest

forest gives way

around a much larger stone like chairs around a table,

lean my body against a

voice whispers from behind the tree, hair black as night appears

elegant white dress with blue

perfect red lips and her dark eyes twinkle like the

its head before the woman, the beautiful being stroking the wolf's fur in

stand up immediately and awkwardly

softly, the woman

your name?" she asks,

I answer with

lead me to the afterlife...? Or wherever it is I’m supposed

sheepishly, the woman taking a seat on

petting the wolf who purrs contently at

your time yet.Zane and Kota still

doing here?" I

hums to herself before

your sister.Where she sought to change her fate, you

don’t know who or what you are so how can I ask you for

my own fate.Or at

bond with Zane? You wanted to

you?" I

the Daughter of the Night, Selene, Diana, Coyolxauhqui, Hanwi, Huitaca, Moon Goddess,

names that it does not matter what you call me. All that matters is that you respect me and my

I say in realization, my eyes flickering

assume that’s your

growls at me, Moon Goddess giving the wolf a

of my wolves, is a product of my love, my own creation, my

a soul that I create.She

who paired me with not one but two wolves," I

given me two head aches. " with an

not," I huff,

that? Why did you match me with a man who was incapable

spilling onto my cheeks, "I loved him! I loved him with every fiber in my being.I trusted him! I trusted you and you both failed me! You both broke me! And then you screwed me over by giving me another mate.I didn’t ask for one! I didn’t ask for any of this, so why? Why did you do this? Why can’t you just leave me alone? Why do you insist on

snout with so much love and affection, I start to believe she may be ignoring

very angry..." she finally

I..." she

children.All of them deserve their happily ever afters and I do the best I can to make that happen for every pair I make.Of course, plans don’t always go the way you hope, at least not in a world where free will exists.For you see, as any mother, I try to teach my wolves to love and respect each other, but sometimes it is out of my control.Even the best mothers cannot help a child who does not wish to be helped.I cannot tell my children how to be, I can only hope they learn from the mistakes they make along the way.It hurts to see them fight.It hurts to see my wolves in pain.It hurts to see all to be a mother sometimes.But I endure it all with the hope that one day my wolves will find peace again.I chose Christian and Jack for you because I

not the answer you were hoping for but sometimes life is just simply out

crossing my hands over my chest as I

"So what now?"

in silence, Devina licking

pause, Moon Goddess sighs and rises to her feet giving you