The Silent Alpha

***Natalia’*** 

I can feel myself slipping away as blood pours out of my neck area and I make peace with the thought that this may be the end for me.

Zane reluctantly pulls his hands away from the wound and leans forward to kiss my forehead, his lips leaving lingering sparks on my skin and I try to savor them as he turns to leave.

"I- I'll be back," he murmurs.

This may be the last time we speak to each other, so I reach out my hand and hold onto his wrist a little longer.I want him to know how glad I am we met.

"Zane..." I croak, struggling to find my words.

"I-I love you." He does not reply but I see the anguish swimming in his eyes and it hurts.

My sweet mate is breaking inside.I just hope when this is all over, his heart is still intact.

Zane storms out of the car and Rionna kicks into action, reaching her hand over me to unbuckle my seat belt.

"Don't worry, dear.We'll get you help," she reassures me, grabbing Agnes'‘s hands and placing them over my wound.

"We just need to get you into the passenger seat," she grunts, jumping out of the car and adjusting the passenger seat so that it rests all the way back.

Dakota screaming in the background for me.

"Mommy! Mommy!" he wails, Rionna, and Agnes shifting me onto the passenger seat.

"Please help my Mommy," he sobs.

"Help her!"

I open my mouth to calm him down but only incoherent mumbles escape my lips, frustration bubbling in my chest.

Instincts take over, however, and I do my best to keep calm and slow down my breathing.If I want to survive, I need to stay calm.

Agnes tears off her shirt, ripping the fabric into strips and tying it around my shoulder and over my collar bone to stop the bleeding.

Instant pain shoots across my chest, my nails imprinting half moons into the car seat as I bite on my tongue to hold back my screams.I don’t want to scare my baby.

Rionna jumps into the driver seat, restarting the car and turning it back towards River Moon.

"Stay with us Talia.Just stay with us," she orders me as we speed down the road.

"I linked Toran and he’s getting help from the Queen.Just hang on.Don’t go.Kota and Zane still need you." I can feel myself slipping into the darkness, a coldness filling my body as more blood pools around my chest.

"Mommy!" Kota screams, my eyes struggling to stay open.

"Mommy wake up!"

But the exhaustion is only growing stronger, its claws fight to stay conscious but as we drive through what appears to be a portal, I feel myself fall into the cold pitch black, the pain subsiding and the world giving way to the abyss.I do not feel fear as I wander aimlessly for what feels like hours into the void.

The dark is quiet but in a soothing way.I must have died...I tell myself, my heart breaking a little at the thought but the memory of Kota and Zane watching the butterflies calms my fears.

Even in my absence, my son will know love.

His father will make sure of that.

Peace settles into my being and as I take a step forward, I feel the ground give way and a flutter fills my heart as I fall into the pitch black.

My arms and legs instinctively search for something to grab onto as I fall when the black nothingness suddenly fades to blue skies and fluffy clouds I can almost touch with my fingers.

Just as suddenly as the sky appears, I feel myself gently fall into a body of water, small waves washing over me until I'm fully submerged.I react instantly and swim to the water's surface, taking a huge gulp of air to fill my starving lungs.

scan my surroundings and I find myself in the middle of a lake, a calm voice calling me to the

Natalia....

Natalia...

wind whispers, its voice sweet and melodic.I decide to follow it and swim towards the shore, my eyes watching the

moves between eyes

familiar and as I crawl onto the shore, it rushes to help me, its tail wagging with pup-like excitement.I carefully inspect myself, realizing I'm wearing a simple white

which had been bleeding like crazy only moments ago is long

I get up on my feet and dust off the

when it replies back with a

turning its body

hurry.She’s waiting for

I ask, but the wolf does not answer, running

after it, avoiding small stones and branches littering the forest

dense forest gives way to a clearing with a large tree near the

stone like chairs around a table, and the wolf takes a seat

and lean my body against a stone, inhaling deeply to catch

voice whispers from behind the tree, hair

barefoot and wears a simple yet elegant

smile stretches across her perfect red lips and her dark eyes twinkle like

jumps off the stone and bows its head before the woman, the

do with myself, I stand up immediately and

softly, the woman

not going to ask how I know your name?" she asks, her question leaving

dead right?" I answer

to lead me to the afterlife...? Or wherever it is I’m supposed

taking a seat on a stone with the wolf laying at her

murmurs, petting the wolf who purrs contently

your time yet.Zane

I doing here?" I ask, looking

hums to herself before

fate, you do not seem keen to

who or what you are so how can I ask you for anything?"

I make my own fate.Or at

wanted to make your

you?" I

Moon, the Mother of the Wolves, the Daughter of the Night, Selene,

that it does not matter what you call me. All

Goddess," I say in realization, my eyes flickering to the wolf at her

I assume

Moon Goddess giving the

love, my own creation, my child,"

a soul that I

with not one but two wolves," I mumble, shaking my head at the goddess who royally

way.You’ve given me

huff, measuring my

with a man who was incapable of cherishing what we had? Why did you let

you both failed me! You both broke me! And then you screwed me over by giving me another mate.I didn’t ask for one! I didn’t ask for any of this, so why? Why did you do this? Why can’t you just leave me alone? Why do you insist on touching every aspect of my

long time, the heavenly Goddess remains very quiet, gently petting Devina’s snout with so much love and affection, I start to believe she

very angry..." she

I..." she

their happily ever afters and I do the best I can to make that happen for every pair I make.Of course, plans don’t always go the way you hope, at least not in a world where free will exists.For you see, as any mother, I try to teach my wolves to love and respect each other, but sometimes it is out of my control.Even the best mothers cannot help a child who does not wish to be helped.I cannot tell my children how to be, I can only hope they learn from the mistakes they make along the way.It hurts to see them fight.It hurts to see my wolves in pain.It hurts to see all to be a mother sometimes.But I endure it all with the hope that one day my wolves will find peace again.I chose Christian and Jack for you because I could see he was slowly slipping away and he needed someone to ground him, someone to neutralize his temper.You were that

you were hoping for

crossing my hands

"So what now?"

thinks for a moment in silence, Devina licking

Goddess sighs and rises to her feet giving you a choice, my