The Silent Alpha

***Natalia’*** 

I can feel myself slipping away as blood pours out of my neck area and I make peace with the thought that this may be the end for me.

Zane reluctantly pulls his hands away from the wound and leans forward to kiss my forehead, his lips leaving lingering sparks on my skin and I try to savor them as he turns to leave.

"I- I'll be back," he murmurs.

This may be the last time we speak to each other, so I reach out my hand and hold onto his wrist a little longer.I want him to know how glad I am we met.

"Zane..." I croak, struggling to find my words.

"I-I love you." He does not reply but I see the anguish swimming in his eyes and it hurts.

My sweet mate is breaking inside.I just hope when this is all over, his heart is still intact.

Zane storms out of the car and Rionna kicks into action, reaching her hand over me to unbuckle my seat belt.

"Don't worry, dear.We'll get you help," she reassures me, grabbing Agnes'‘s hands and placing them over my wound.

"We just need to get you into the passenger seat," she grunts, jumping out of the car and adjusting the passenger seat so that it rests all the way back.

Dakota screaming in the background for me.

"Mommy! Mommy!" he wails, Rionna, and Agnes shifting me onto the passenger seat.

"Please help my Mommy," he sobs.

"Help her!"

I open my mouth to calm him down but only incoherent mumbles escape my lips, frustration bubbling in my chest.

Instincts take over, however, and I do my best to keep calm and slow down my breathing.If I want to survive, I need to stay calm.

Agnes tears off her shirt, ripping the fabric into strips and tying it around my shoulder and over my collar bone to stop the bleeding.

Instant pain shoots across my chest, my nails imprinting half moons into the car seat as I bite on my tongue to hold back my screams.I don’t want to scare my baby.

Rionna jumps into the driver seat, restarting the car and turning it back towards River Moon.

"Stay with us Talia.Just stay with us," she orders me as we speed down the road.

"I linked Toran and he’s getting help from the Queen.Just hang on.Don’t go.Kota and Zane still need you." I can feel myself slipping into the darkness, a coldness filling my body as more blood pools around my chest.

"Mommy!" Kota screams, my eyes struggling to stay open.

"Mommy wake up!"

But the exhaustion is only growing stronger, its claws fight to stay conscious but as we drive through what appears to be a portal, I feel myself fall into the cold pitch black, the pain subsiding and the world giving way to the abyss.I do not feel fear as I wander aimlessly for what feels like hours into the void.

The dark is quiet but in a soothing way.I must have died...I tell myself, my heart breaking a little at the thought but the memory of Kota and Zane watching the butterflies calms my fears.

Even in my absence, my son will know love.

His father will make sure of that.

Peace settles into my being and as I take a step forward, I feel the ground give way and a flutter fills my heart as I fall into the pitch black.

My arms and legs instinctively search for something to grab onto as I fall when the black nothingness suddenly fades to blue skies and fluffy clouds I can almost touch with my fingers.

Just as suddenly as the sky appears, I feel myself gently fall into a body of water, small waves washing over me until I'm fully submerged.I react instantly and swim to the water's surface, taking a huge gulp of air to fill my starving lungs.

surroundings and I find myself in the middle of a lake, a calm voice calling me

Natalia....

Natalia...

decide to follow it and swim towards the shore, my eyes

between eyes gazing intently at

and air of dominance lingers around the wolf. The wolf feels familiar and as I crawl onto the shore, it rushes to help me, its tail wagging with pup-like excitement.I

been bleeding like crazy only moments ago is long gone, flawless skin

wolf" I murmur as I get up on my feet and dust off the sand from my now bare

it replies

murmurs, turning its

should hurry.She’s waiting for

does not answer, running off

stones and branches

while of running, the dense forest gives way to a clearing

arranged around a much larger stone like chairs around a table, and the wolf takes a seat on

the wolf and lean my body against a stone, inhaling deeply to

the tree, hair black as

elegant white dress

across her perfect red lips and her dark eyes twinkle

wolf jumps off the stone and bows its head before the woman, the beautiful being

and awkwardly bow to her as I

I reply softly,

your name?" she asks, her question leaving

I answer with

afterlife...? Or wherever

woman taking a seat on a stone

are not dead," she murmurs, petting

time yet.Zane and Kota still

here?" I ask, looking around at the

to herself before

her fate, you do not seem

are so how can I ask you for anything?" I

make my own fate.Or at least

fought hard against your mate bond with Zane? You wanted to make your own fate?" I raise

are you?" I

Daughter of the Night, Selene, Diana, Coyolxauhqui, Hanwi, Huitaca, Moon Goddess,

many names that it does not matter what you call me. All that matters is that you respect me and my

I say in realization, my eyes flickering to the wolf at

assume

Moon Goddess giving

is a product of my love, my own creation, my child," the Goddess replies, stroking

soul that

with not one but two wolves," I mumble, shaking

for that, by the way.You’ve given me two head aches. " with an

I huff, measuring

match me with a man who was incapable of cherishing what we

tears spilling onto my cheeks, "I loved him! I loved him with every fiber in my being.I trusted him! I trusted you and you both failed me! You both broke me! And then you screwed me over by giving me another mate.I didn’t ask

time, the heavenly Goddess remains very quiet, gently petting Devina’s snout with so much love

very angry..." she finally

I..."

mothers cannot help a child who does not wish to be helped.I cannot tell my children how to be, I can only hope they learn from the mistakes they make along the way.It hurts to see them fight.It hurts to see my wolves in pain.It hurts to see all to be a mother sometimes.But I endure it all with the hope that one day my wolves will find peace again.I chose Christian and Jack for you because I could see he was slowly slipping away and he needed someone

is not the answer you were hoping for but

my hands over my chest

"So what now?"

a moment in silence, Devina licking her

sighs and rises to