The Silent Alpha

Chapter 58: The Black Book Part II

***Derek*** 

Vanessa looks very relaxed and at ease as she sips her coffee and scrolls through her phone nonchalantly, completely oblivious that I am watching her.I haven’t seen her this relaxed since she first arrived at Silver Crest.

Her big green eyes shaded by thick lashes and the long brown hair framing her slightly round face give her an almost angelic look as she studies her phone.

I never noticed how innocent her features make her look.

She truly is beautiful, my wolf, Casper murmurs.

Beautiful...but off limits, Isigh, preparing to ruin her day.I’ve been tracking her now for several days, Vanessa spending most of that time holed up in a motel room.

She wasn't hard to find since she used my credit cards for food and shelter, and while I could have easily cut her funds off, I did not have the heart to freeze my accounts.

Many times I wanted to storm into her room and hold her, but I knew better than to make my presence known to her so As I walk into the small diner by the lake, I notice Vanessa flinch, likely smelling my scent and feeling my presence.

When I approach her table and slide into the seat in front of her, she reluctantly sits up and takes another drink from her coffee before asking if I am here to kill her.I don’t answer her, my eyes lingering on Christian’s mark on her neck.

That should be my mark, Casper snarls, a bit of jealous rage pumping through my veins.

Noticing my stare, Vanessa brushes her hair over her shoulder to hide the mark and takes another drink.

"Do you know why I loved Christian so much?" she asks, settling into a comfortable position and when I don’t respond, she proceeds to answer her own question.

"He was the first person who ever saw me.He made me feel like I mattered and it felt good.It felt good to matter to someone.It felt good to just be enough for someone to take notice of me.I never got that growing up," she sighs through a tired smile.

"I was always just a f**k up with a pretty face.Natalia was the smart one, the successful one.The one who made our parents proud...and I was just there to make the family portraits look good." and it saddens me to think he meant more to her than she meant to him.

Where she appreciated and cherished every moment spent with him, he hardly ever thought of her and those trivial moments in class.

In all honesty, I hardly noticed her either, noting only her pretty face and nothing more.

How broken and deprived of attention must she have been to have fallen for Christian’s half-assed compliments and believed it to be love? She pauses as a waitress comes with a tray of food for her and asks if I want anything.

I shake my head and she dismisses the waitress before staring off at the shore of the lake.

"I was devastated the night Natalia called me to tell me she was getting married to the man I had fallen in love with...And I jumped at the opportunity to get back at her.To make her feel what I felt all those years.Sleeping with Christian...It was like I finally had something to offer.Something Natalia couldn’t give him," she snarls bitterly.

"Did you think Natalia was at fault for all of your misfortunes?" I ask, wanting to know how a sister could be so eager to hurt her own family.

"Did she ever make you feel inferior? Did she deserve your resentment?" silently, her shoulders shaking with every small sob.

I watch her carefully, trying to understand her skewed anger for an innocent person.

As far as I can remember, Natalia was very patient with her sister, doing her best to keep her close and safe, yet even I could tell, neither of them knew each other too well.

Many of their interactions were often a bit awkward or even forced, as if a wall were keeping them apart.

"Natalia was always the favorite," Vanessa finally whispers.

"I didn’t think she needed anything from me...She didn’t need to fight for our parents' love.It was just given to her.Everything was just handed to her, while I-" She fights back her tears and shrugs.

"I couldn’t even get a ‘good job’ or an ‘I’m proud of you’."

"You think she didn’t have any challenges?" I ask.

"You think it was easy being Luna for her?"

"I don’t-"

"Alpha Christopher despised her...Several members, myself included, did not think she could do it." I retort.

"Nothing about being Luna was easy for her."

"I thought...I just thought that-"

"You thought what? That your problems would just She nods, wiping away her tears with her sleeve.

"I’m sorry."

"Sorry for what? Natalia or yourself?" I ask, knowing her answer will determine my decision and her fate.

"I-I don’t ....I don’t-"

around the diner as if in search of the best answer, but only she knows

know.I’m just sorry

snaps, slamming a fist

sorry I hurt her.I’m sorry I destroyed what little we had.I’m sorry I’m such a screw up who can’t do anything

the table, shielding

"I’m just sorry!"

her guilt for I

and done nothing to help Natalia,

only after his most recent kill that I alerted the elders and called

up sooner about his wolf going mad? Knowing Vanessa is not

I do not

am worthless..."

did.I am not meant to be happy and I am too tired to figure out why...So I

to live for at the moment and I’m too much of a coward to do it myself,

I just… I just want to feel the

that the only thing

wondering if the pup growing inside

my gaze, her hands shielding her stomach

comes to the realization that

before a look of absolute terror washes over her

"No..." She whimpers.

I won’t come back to Silver Crest! I'll leave for good, I promise.I'll give Christain his divorce.I'll step aside in peace

concern towards us.I try to calm her down, but the more I attempt to do so, the more

I hiss, keeping my voice low as Vanessa cries hysterically and begs for the life of her

not Christian’s.It won’t interfere with his plans!"she whimpers,

I’m begging you! Not

us, I reach across the table

tingle with sparks as Vanessa’s body relaxes and she melts into my kiss, allowing herself to just be mine for just.When I pull away, I stare deep into the sea

carrying out his orders

betrayal and I regret not helping her then.I will not make the same mistake

to terminate your pregnancy," I

with confidence, gently caressing her cheeks and enjoying the sparks

didn’t accept my rejection,"

and I can sense it’s a lie but I don’t pry for

about 30 miles from Silver Crest," I explain

be an old meeting ground but we haven’t

"But Christian-" assure her.

be safe there until we can figure out other arrangements and

"But-"

a temporary

her eyes

hope I’m not

***Zane*** 

I whisper to

"K-Kota and his dr-dreams."

until now, sits up straighter in his chair, his eyes focusing on the child curled up in my

he says, everyone now interested

me at the thought of addressing so many high ranking wolves at

reminding as though it is full of cotton and my train of thought derails as I

fingers to remind me that she’s with me and she won't let me fall.She

dry lips and gather my thoughts for a moment, expecting Grayson to say a snarky comment, but he says nothing, wagging his

dr-dream...i-it came tr-true," I mutter, keeping my eyes on Talia, who nods proudly at

me the boost of confidence I need to

I add,

Ta-Talia

at the small pup who suddenly becomes very shy and hides his face

gently to

tell

"No!"

but I can see she is already exploring his

long has he had those dreams?" Toran

long," Aurora replies on Talia’s

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