The Silent Alpha

Chapter 58: The Black Book Part II

***Derek*** 

Vanessa looks very relaxed and at ease as she sips her coffee and scrolls through her phone nonchalantly, completely oblivious that I am watching her.I haven’t seen her this relaxed since she first arrived at Silver Crest.

Her big green eyes shaded by thick lashes and the long brown hair framing her slightly round face give her an almost angelic look as she studies her phone.

I never noticed how innocent her features make her look.

She truly is beautiful, my wolf, Casper murmurs.

Beautiful...but off limits, Isigh, preparing to ruin her day.I’ve been tracking her now for several days, Vanessa spending most of that time holed up in a motel room.

She wasn't hard to find since she used my credit cards for food and shelter, and while I could have easily cut her funds off, I did not have the heart to freeze my accounts.

Many times I wanted to storm into her room and hold her, but I knew better than to make my presence known to her so As I walk into the small diner by the lake, I notice Vanessa flinch, likely smelling my scent and feeling my presence.

When I approach her table and slide into the seat in front of her, she reluctantly sits up and takes another drink from her coffee before asking if I am here to kill her.I don’t answer her, my eyes lingering on Christian’s mark on her neck.

That should be my mark, Casper snarls, a bit of jealous rage pumping through my veins.

Noticing my stare, Vanessa brushes her hair over her shoulder to hide the mark and takes another drink.

"Do you know why I loved Christian so much?" she asks, settling into a comfortable position and when I don’t respond, she proceeds to answer her own question.

"He was the first person who ever saw me.He made me feel like I mattered and it felt good.It felt good to matter to someone.It felt good to just be enough for someone to take notice of me.I never got that growing up," she sighs through a tired smile.

"I was always just a f**k up with a pretty face.Natalia was the smart one, the successful one.The one who made our parents proud...and I was just there to make the family portraits look good." and it saddens me to think he meant more to her than she meant to him.

Where she appreciated and cherished every moment spent with him, he hardly ever thought of her and those trivial moments in class.

In all honesty, I hardly noticed her either, noting only her pretty face and nothing more.

How broken and deprived of attention must she have been to have fallen for Christian’s half-assed compliments and believed it to be love? She pauses as a waitress comes with a tray of food for her and asks if I want anything.

I shake my head and she dismisses the waitress before staring off at the shore of the lake.

"I was devastated the night Natalia called me to tell me she was getting married to the man I had fallen in love with...And I jumped at the opportunity to get back at her.To make her feel what I felt all those years.Sleeping with Christian...It was like I finally had something to offer.Something Natalia couldn’t give him," she snarls bitterly.

"Did you think Natalia was at fault for all of your misfortunes?" I ask, wanting to know how a sister could be so eager to hurt her own family.

"Did she ever make you feel inferior? Did she deserve your resentment?" silently, her shoulders shaking with every small sob.

I watch her carefully, trying to understand her skewed anger for an innocent person.

As far as I can remember, Natalia was very patient with her sister, doing her best to keep her close and safe, yet even I could tell, neither of them knew each other too well.

Many of their interactions were often a bit awkward or even forced, as if a wall were keeping them apart.

"Natalia was always the favorite," Vanessa finally whispers.

"I didn’t think she needed anything from me...She didn’t need to fight for our parents' love.It was just given to her.Everything was just handed to her, while I-" She fights back her tears and shrugs.

"I couldn’t even get a ‘good job’ or an ‘I’m proud of you’."

"You think she didn’t have any challenges?" I ask.

"You think it was easy being Luna for her?"

"I don’t-"

"Alpha Christopher despised her...Several members, myself included, did not think she could do it." I retort.

"Nothing about being Luna was easy for her."

"I thought...I just thought that-"

"You thought what? That your problems would just She nods, wiping away her tears with her sleeve.

"I’m sorry."

"Sorry for what? Natalia or yourself?" I ask, knowing her answer will determine my decision and her fate.

"I-I don’t ....I don’t-"

the diner as if in search of the best answer, but only she

just sorry for

a

screw up who can’t do anything right.I’m sorry you got me for a

the table, shielding her face with her arms as

"I’m just sorry!"

her guilt for I have been

help Natalia, but I had also allowed Christian to spiral in

that I alerted the elders and called for his

I have saved had I only spoken up sooner about his wolf going mad? Knowing Vanessa is not the only one who's made but I can’t

I do not dare

worthless..."

what I did.I am not meant to be happy and I am too tired to figure out why...So I ask again, are you here to kill me?" I stare

of a coward to do it myself, so if you are, can I ask for a favor?" She asks in a small whisper, clasping her hands

more time? I

and something inside me shatters knowing that the only thing she has left to live for right now is the prospect of feeling my touch

belly, wondering if the

her hands shielding her

the realization that she is pregnant, her

lips before a look of absolute terror

"No..." She whimpers.

for good, I promise.I'll

towards us.I

I hiss, keeping my voice low as Vanessa cries hysterically and begs for the life

swear it’s not Christian’s.It won’t interfere with his plans!"she whimpers,

begging you! Not

on us, I reach across the table to cup her cheeks, pulling her

into my kiss, allowing herself to just be mine for just.When I pull away, I stare deep into the sea of green looking back at me

too long, I have let Christian’s mistakes slide, carrying out his orders without question like a good Beta and keeping

betrayal and I regret not helping her then.I will not make the same mistake

has ordered me to terminate your pregnancy," I whisper, fresh tears spilling

I swear," I add with confidence, gently caressing her cheeks and enjoying

didn’t accept my rejection," I

can sense it’s a lie but I don’t

30 miles from Silver

an old meeting ground but we haven’t used it in years.You can hide there while I

"But Christian-" assure her.

arrangements and I'll be close enough

"But-"

temporary arrangement," I

hesitation in her eyes but,

just hope I’m not making a

***Zane*** 

I whisper to

"K-Kota and his dr-dreams."

up straighter in

now interested in what I have to

of fear ripples through me at the thought of addressing so

disappointment and disgust fill my head, reminding as though it is full of cotton and my train of thought derails as I stare back at the room

to remind me that she’s with me and she won't let me fall.She inhales deeply

thoughts for a moment, expecting Grayson to say a snarky comment, but he says nothing,

my

doing good," she mouths, her gentle smile giving me the boost of confidence

the atta-ta-tack," I add, Kota looking

saw Ta-Talia get

the small pup who suddenly becomes very shy and hides his face behind his stuffed

Aurora murmurs gently to

you want to tell us

"No!"

Aurora accepts his answer but I can see she is already exploring his small mind, combing through his memories

had those

Aurora replies on Talia’s

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