The Silent Alpha

Chapter 58: The Black Book Part II

***Derek*** 

Vanessa looks very relaxed and at ease as she sips her coffee and scrolls through her phone nonchalantly, completely oblivious that I am watching her.I haven’t seen her this relaxed since she first arrived at Silver Crest.

Her big green eyes shaded by thick lashes and the long brown hair framing her slightly round face give her an almost angelic look as she studies her phone.

I never noticed how innocent her features make her look.

She truly is beautiful, my wolf, Casper murmurs.

Beautiful...but off limits, Isigh, preparing to ruin her day.I’ve been tracking her now for several days, Vanessa spending most of that time holed up in a motel room.

She wasn't hard to find since she used my credit cards for food and shelter, and while I could have easily cut her funds off, I did not have the heart to freeze my accounts.

Many times I wanted to storm into her room and hold her, but I knew better than to make my presence known to her so As I walk into the small diner by the lake, I notice Vanessa flinch, likely smelling my scent and feeling my presence.

When I approach her table and slide into the seat in front of her, she reluctantly sits up and takes another drink from her coffee before asking if I am here to kill her.I don’t answer her, my eyes lingering on Christian’s mark on her neck.

That should be my mark, Casper snarls, a bit of jealous rage pumping through my veins.

Noticing my stare, Vanessa brushes her hair over her shoulder to hide the mark and takes another drink.

"Do you know why I loved Christian so much?" she asks, settling into a comfortable position and when I don’t respond, she proceeds to answer her own question.

"He was the first person who ever saw me.He made me feel like I mattered and it felt good.It felt good to matter to someone.It felt good to just be enough for someone to take notice of me.I never got that growing up," she sighs through a tired smile.

"I was always just a f**k up with a pretty face.Natalia was the smart one, the successful one.The one who made our parents proud...and I was just there to make the family portraits look good." and it saddens me to think he meant more to her than she meant to him.

Where she appreciated and cherished every moment spent with him, he hardly ever thought of her and those trivial moments in class.

In all honesty, I hardly noticed her either, noting only her pretty face and nothing more.

How broken and deprived of attention must she have been to have fallen for Christian’s half-assed compliments and believed it to be love? She pauses as a waitress comes with a tray of food for her and asks if I want anything.

I shake my head and she dismisses the waitress before staring off at the shore of the lake.

"I was devastated the night Natalia called me to tell me she was getting married to the man I had fallen in love with...And I jumped at the opportunity to get back at her.To make her feel what I felt all those years.Sleeping with Christian...It was like I finally had something to offer.Something Natalia couldn’t give him," she snarls bitterly.

"Did you think Natalia was at fault for all of your misfortunes?" I ask, wanting to know how a sister could be so eager to hurt her own family.

"Did she ever make you feel inferior? Did she deserve your resentment?" silently, her shoulders shaking with every small sob.

I watch her carefully, trying to understand her skewed anger for an innocent person.

As far as I can remember, Natalia was very patient with her sister, doing her best to keep her close and safe, yet even I could tell, neither of them knew each other too well.

Many of their interactions were often a bit awkward or even forced, as if a wall were keeping them apart.

"Natalia was always the favorite," Vanessa finally whispers.

"I didn’t think she needed anything from me...She didn’t need to fight for our parents' love.It was just given to her.Everything was just handed to her, while I-" She fights back her tears and shrugs.

"I couldn’t even get a ‘good job’ or an ‘I’m proud of you’."

"You think she didn’t have any challenges?" I ask.

"You think it was easy being Luna for her?"

"I don’t-"

"Alpha Christopher despised her...Several members, myself included, did not think she could do it." I retort.

"Nothing about being Luna was easy for her."

"I thought...I just thought that-"

"You thought what? That your problems would just She nods, wiping away her tears with her sleeve.

"I’m sorry."

"Sorry for what? Natalia or yourself?" I ask, knowing her answer will determine my decision and her fate.

"I-I don’t ....I don’t-"

diner as if in search of the best answer, but only she knows how

don’t know.I’m just sorry

a fist on the

we had.I’m sorry I’m such a screw up who can’t do anything right.I’m sorry you got me for a mate.I’m sorry I

the table, shielding her face with

"I’m just sorry!"

part of me understands her guilt for I have been living with mine for

done nothing to help Natalia, but I had

after his most recent kill that I alerted the elders

sooner about his wolf going mad? Knowing Vanessa is not the only one who's made but I can’t seem to bring myself to

with whines but I do not dare act on my

am worthless..." Vanessa

happy and I am too tired to figure out why...So I ask again, are you here to kill me?" I stare

much to live for at the moment and I’m too much of a coward to do it myself, so

hand one more time? I just… I just

the only thing she has left to live for right now is the prospect

if the pup growing inside her would help her

gaze, her hands shielding her stomach protectively from my

comes to the realization that

before a look

"No..." She whimpers.

I promise.I'll give Christain his divorce.I'll step aside in peace for Natalia.I'll do anything, please just...Just let

in the room, several casting looks of concern towards us.I try to calm her down, but the

low as Vanessa cries hysterically and begs for the life of her unborn

interfere with his plans!"she whimpers, clutching her

I’m begging you!

someone may call the cops on us, I reach across the table to cup her cheeks, pulling her in for a

I pull away, I stare deep into the sea of green looking back at me with fear, my own guilt

too long, I have let Christian’s mistakes slide, carrying out his orders without question like a good Beta

her husband's betrayal and I regret not helping her then.I will not make

to terminate your pregnancy," I whisper, fresh

I swear," I add with

didn’t accept my

but I don’t pry for an

cottage about 30 miles

to be an old meeting ground but we haven’t used it in years.You can hide there while I put

"But Christian-" assure her.

other arrangements and I'll be

"But-"

just a temporary arrangement,"

hesitation in her eyes but, regardless, she

just hope I’m not

***Zane*** 

I whisper

"K-Kota and his dr-dreams."

straighter in his chair, his eyes focusing on

he says, everyone now interested in what I

through me at the thought of addressing so many high ranking wolves at

disgust fill my head, reminding as though it is full of cotton and my train of thought derails as I stare back at the room full

with me and she won't let me fall.She inhales deeply and I breathe with her, slowly letting the air out of my lungs in a

say a snarky

my eyes on Talia, who nods proudly at

doing good," she mouths, her gentle smile giving me the boost of confidence I need to face

add, Kota looking up

Ta-Talia

the small pup who suddenly becomes very shy and

murmurs gently to

you want to tell

"No!"

head Aurora accepts his answer but I can see she is already exploring his small mind, combing through his memories as well as Talia’s to piece the puzzle

had

Aurora replies on Talia’s

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