The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

so much

head; he just

able to

the

Malevolent

at the ceiling, and watch

dark, and the curtains are open, but I

I

casual hook-ups

is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that

and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making

it makes me a bitch, but if

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I

other

Nice work.

side, I run my

hair,

than to hurt

the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside

how can I always be so

I’m a

I’m tough

have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside my

a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling

me and creating a void so big I

into it and never

where you want

cry, both threatening to take over,

to wreak havoc and destroy

me, or even…

other than empty, angry or out of

trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen

it is momentary… deep down, I know

stare at my phone.

feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I

together again.

but I should be

mean he needed

with me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely

chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care.

with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful

mask my aura, are not enough right now.

growl as my Lycan

I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on

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eyes sting and it feels like my head will burst as I

but I can’t

my head hits