The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

words sting so much

shake my head; he just doesn’t know

able to go back to

head to the lounge and drop

Malevolent to my chest.

ceiling, and watch the shadowy

curtains are open, but I

I do

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

other so easily…

Nice work.

my side, I

hair,

than to

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside

can I always

I’m a

I’m tough and I’ll

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid

creating a void so big I may

into it and

where you want

both threatening

to wreak havoc

or even…

want to feel something other than empty, angry or

stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave

know I’ll

stare at

one refusing to talk to me… but

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

thought hurts, but I should

doesn’t mean he needed to cut

with me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I

to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor,

eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two

put on me to mask my aura, are not

as my Lycan tries to

it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The

within me. 4

it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of

the wood but I can’t

my