The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

so

my head; he just

able to go back to

to the lounge and drop

sofa, cradling Malevolent

ceiling, and watch the shadowy

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to

I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

teacher at the school? Usually, I

refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to prove

makes me a bitch, but if

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

bet he’ll

other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I run my

my hair,

more than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness

how can I always be so

People think I’m a

because I’m tough

have… but no one sees the fucked up

deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid

a void so big

and never return.

where you

threatening to

to wreak havoc and destroy

or even… destroy

something other than empty, angry or out of

the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so

is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll

at my

sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened

together again.

thought hurts, but I should

mean he needed to

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and

Fuck calm down…

but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks

the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the

one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful

me to mask my aura, are not enough

growl as my Lycan tries to stop me

gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire,

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and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest

the wood but I can’t hold

my