The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

sting so much more

head; he just

won’t be able to go back to

the lounge and

sofa, cradling Malevolent to

and watch the

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy

did I

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

a teacher at the school?

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to

know it makes me a bitch, but if I

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

other so

Nice work.

my side, I

my hair, breathing

more than to hurt

scream, and cry, the guilt

I always be so

think I’m a

I’m tough and I’ll

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked

breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling eating

void so big

it and

you want to

threatening to take

wreak havoc and

or even…

want to feel something other than empty, angry or out

a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so many

momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I always

at my phone.

refusing to talk to me…

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I wonder if

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

doesn’t mean he

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I

up, I run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel

and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches

to mask my aura, are not

growl as my Lycan tries to stop me

but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as

within me. 4

it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest

the wood but I

forward, my