17. My Demons
SKYLA.
As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to
breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1
Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,
those small moments of reprieve they offer
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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It
has become a part of my routine… One I
always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my
messages anyway.
Still nothing.
Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the
screen.
I can still feel his touch on my body, and I
don’t know how to feel about it. In the
moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1
Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly
turn and head to the bedroom. A place that
still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t
escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…
I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I
turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.
“Meow?”
Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to
her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and
scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little
one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her
neck. She’s my forever one.
Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.
Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth
more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do
sting so much
head; he
be able to go back
head to the
Malevolent to
at the ceiling, and watch
reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are
did I do
casual hook-ups aren’t
a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come of
was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying
I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then
for his brother.
Nicely played Sky…
me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I
the other so easily…
Nice work.
my side, I run my
my hair, breathing deeply,
than to hurt
the guilt and hollowness seeping
I always be
People think I’m
because I’m tough and I’ll
everything I have… but no one sees the fucked
flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid
void so big
it and
where you want
both threatening to take
to wreak havoc and
me, or even… destroy
to feel something other
Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s
it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again.
at
feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are
couple-
His ex. Fuck!
and I wonder if
together again.
I
doesn’t mean he needed to
with me… and stop
You’re overthinking Sky, chill.
and frustration
Fuck calm down…
away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do
run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can
shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so
put on me to mask my
growl as my Lycan tries
but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting
within me. 4
my head will
splinter the wood but
forward, my
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