The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 17

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

words sting so

he just doesn’t know

I won’t be able to go

to the

Malevolent to

watch the shadowy

curtains are open, but I have no

did I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

the school? Usually, I am not

I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

out, I bet he’ll

other so

Nice work.

side, I run

my hair,

than to

want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness

can I always

I’m a

I’m tough

have… but no one sees the fucked up shit

breath, I flex my fingers, trying

creating a void so big I may

into it and

where you want to

threatening

wreak havoc and destroy

or even…

want to feel something other

let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with

deep down, I know I’ll fuck

stare at my

he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened

together again.

thought hurts, but I

mean he needed to cut

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

feel my anger and frustration rising, and my

Fuck calm down…

My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if

drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing

aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of

on me to mask my aura, are not

as my Lycan tries to

gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it

within me. 4

feels like my head will burst as I

wood but I can’t

my

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