The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

sting so much

he

able to go

I head to the lounge and

cradling Malevolent to my chest.

watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get

did I do

hook-ups aren’t

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good

and his refusal was getting to me…

makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

I bet he’ll

other

Nice work.

onto my side, I run my

my hair,

more than

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and

can I

People think I’m a fucking

because I’m tough and I’ll jump

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up

flex my fingers, trying to rid the

and creating a void so

into it and never return.

state where you want to

threatening to take over,

wreak havoc and destroy

or even…

just want to feel something other than empty, angry or out of

trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he

deep down, I know I’ll fuck

stare at my

as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

but I should be

doesn’t mean he

and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do

dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I

my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most

on me to mask my aura, are not enough right

my Lycan tries to

cripples me, making me fall to my

within me. 4

sting and it feels like my head will burst as

the wood but I can’t

my head hits