The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

so much more

my head; he just

able to go back to

I head to the lounge and

cradling Malevolent

staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I

I do

hook-ups aren’t

and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying

I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

to the other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I run my

my hair,

than to hurt

to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

can I always be so

I’m

I’m tough and

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to

and creating a void

it and never

state where you want to

cry, both threatening to take

to wreak havoc and

or even…

feel something other than empty, angry or

I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again.

at my

if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

mean he needed to cut

with me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and my

Fuck calm down…

can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks

phone in the process; it hits the floor, but

vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the

my aura,

Lycan tries

it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away

within me. 4

will burst as I grab onto the chest of

but I can’t hold

forward, my head