The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

words sting so much

shake my head; he

able to go back to

the lounge

cradling Malevolent to my chest.

the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns

the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get

I

casual hook-ups aren’t

with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school?

I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was

it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

other

Nice work.

my side,

hair,

more than to

want to scream, and cry, the

how can I always be

think I’m a fucking

because I’m tough and I’ll

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside

my fingers, trying

creating a void so big

and

you

threatening

wreak havoc and destroy

or even…

just want to feel something other than empty, angry or

thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm…

is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I

stare at my

sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened

together again.

but I

he

me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever

Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care.

vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two

me to mask my

my Lycan

me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away

within me. 4

will burst as I

the wood but

forward, my head hits