The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 17

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

sting so

head; he just

won’t be able to go

I head to the lounge and drop

Malevolent

and watch the shadowy patterns

and the curtains are open, but

I

casual hook-ups aren’t uncommon

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come

and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not

a bitch, but if I couldn’t have

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

bet he’ll

the other so easily…

Nice work.

side, I run my

hair, breathing

than to

and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

can I always

I’m a

I’m tough

I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside my head…

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid

and creating a void so big I may

into it and

state where you want to

cry, both threatening to take

havoc and

or even… destroy

feel something other than empty, angry or

casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he

is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck

at

feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened

together again.

but I

doesn’t mean he needed to

with me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control.

around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging

blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the

my aura, are not

as my Lycan

down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees.

within me. 4

and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the

splinter the wood but

my

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