The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

sting so much more

he just doesn’t

won’t be able to go back

I head to the lounge and

cradling Malevolent

at the ceiling, and watch the

are open, but I have no energy to get up

I

casual hook-ups

is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come of

and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted

the other so

Nice work.

onto my side,

my hair,

than to hurt

cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

I always be so

think I’m a fucking

I’m tough and

one sees the fucked up shit inside

I flex my fingers, trying to rid the

me and creating a void so big

and never return.

where you want to

both threatening to take over,

wreak havoc and destroy

or even…

want to feel something other than

happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong

deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I always

at my phone.

to talk to me… but does it even

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

my heart thundering, and I

together again.

I should be happy

That doesn’t mean he needed

and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and

Fuck calm down…

she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory

open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can

grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches

mask my aura,

as my Lycan tries

win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The

within me. 4

my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of

wood but

my head hits