The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

words sting so much

shake my head; he just

be able to

I head to the

cradling Malevolent to

ceiling, and watch the

in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up and close

I

casual hook-ups

who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish,

I know I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

it makes me a bitch,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted

the other

Nice work.

onto my side, I run my

hair,

than

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside

I

People think I’m

I’m tough

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up

fingers, trying to

me and creating a void so big I may

and never return.

where you want to

both threatening to take over,

to wreak havoc and destroy

or

other than empty,

a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again

I know I’ll fuck up

at

feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me…

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

doesn’t mean he

with me… and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral.

up, I run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel

the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches of our

mask my aura, are not

Lycan tries to stop

and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at

within me. 4

it feels like my head will burst as

but

tumble forward, my head hits