The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 17

17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

sting so

my head; he just doesn’t know

I won’t be able to go back to

I head to the lounge and drop

Malevolent to

watch the

dark, and the curtains are open,

I

hook-ups

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will

was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I

I know it makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that

other

Nice work.

onto my side,

my hair,

more than

to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness

I always be so

think I’m a

tough and I’ll jump

have… but no one sees the fucked

flex my fingers, trying to rid

me and creating a void so

into it and

you want

cry, both threatening

havoc

me, or even… destroy

want to feel something other

to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he

down, I know I’ll fuck up again.

at my

him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something

together again.

I should be happy

doesn’t mean he needed to

with me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration

Fuck calm down…

but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty

dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to

one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra

on me to mask my aura, are

Lycan tries to stop

I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my

within me. 4

will

but I can’t

my

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