The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 96

12. Father to Daughter

I don’t like that look.

It’s a look I’ve seen in the mirror so many fucking times…

He looks away, as if not wanting me to know what he’s feeling.

A tense silence falls between us, and I hate where we’ve come to. I close my eyes, trying to calm down. Now I fucking feel guilty for saying that.

“Well… I’m sorry, that you felt like that… I…” He pauses as if trying to recollect his thoughts.

“Dad…” I exhale, opening my eyes and looking at him. “You don’t need to be sorry. You’re not responsible for the way I feel.”

“I kinda am when I’m your father. You being a Lycan is my fucking fault. I know how it feels to be isolated, wondering why the fuck I’m even alive when I don’t fit in anywhere… it wasn’t exactly the entire truth but it’s how I felt.” He says, his voice is quiet, and even though he’s trying to hide them, there are so many emotions in them.

I don’t know if I can do this. I feel too damn emotional, and he only makes it worse when he cups my face and looks into my eyes with eyes filled with emotions. I thought he wanted to hide.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen him this vulnerable since Kataleya was taken and he broke down… he didn’t know I saw him, but I did. That image of my father, the all-powerful king sitting there with his head in his hands, always remained…

I’m about to turn away, but he doesn’t let me, pressing his lips against my forehead before looking into my eyes.

“I know how it feels trying to fight the darkness that’s constantly trying to consume you. I’ve done things that I regret. I’ve killed people and hurt people, some that still carry those scars until this day. The guilt of it all won’t ever go away, but I’m trying every fucking day. I’m trying to be better.

Your mother is my tether. She pulled me from the darkness that was drowning me…” He stops, his eyes glinting and he closes his eyes.

“I see myself in you. The poisons, I’ve done the same. I’ve drunk bottles of wolfsbane to cope. At the age of thirteen, when I shifted, I killed my parents in rage. The scars on Maria’s back. I did that to her… I used to beat Raf to within an inch of his life just because I was fucking pissed off. I’ve done far worse…”

My heart thuds. Sure I knew Endora faked her own death, but we were also told it was at the cost of her mate… Dad did that? Everything he said from Uncle Rafael to the wolfsbane… it hits home.

“Did you really… kill them?”

a victim of hers and I was the

his own father. Just the thought sends fear rushing through

me often enough that I’ll hurt someone I love to the point

my unspoken thought, and I look

had his brother who always supported

wraps his arms around me tightly, hear his racing heart as he holds

not, you have found your tether, your light. You found the calm to your storm, just as Kiara is mine. You found yours sooner. I can’t imagine a life without her and I know even when I lose my shit, when

Royce for me.” I

so vulnerable. I hide behind my attitude, and this is too fucking much, but

can’t cope with his loss? What if… what if you were gone

scared, because we tell ourselves we have to always be fucking strong.” I finish and I’m glad he’s hugging me because

a child and I’d fall asleep on his lap… I remember the way I used to try to pinch his nipples when I could see the outlines of the little barbells and cackle when I succeeded. The way I used

myself in you Sky, but like they say, when two people are so fucking alike… it’s hard, right? Not to clash?” His voice sounds

you to that. I never meant to make you feel fucking suffocated. We only wanted to talk to us, but we weren’t always like this Sky… you started closing yourself off and shutting

You didn’t.

unable to stop the soft sobs that escape my own lips as tears spill from my

I still became one. I was trying to deal with it my way. Fuck, I’m not crying for sympathy. I just hate this!” I say, trying to wipe my eyes. He loosens his hold on me

There I said it.

as he

a time I wished I never had daughters because I feared the day, I’d have to give you to some fucker, but I wouldn’t exchange any of

I know this is also hard

amazing than this.” I say

hot gene. I guess that’s you.” He winks at me, and I can’t

my point! Ah, you’re good at this,”

You know that shit

“I know…” I say,

being king gets in the fucking way of being a great father. I’m not Elijah and I’m not Rayhan or Leo, but I never fucking wanted you to feel like you can’t talk about shit to me. I would fucking kill for the four of you. Yeah, you fuckers do grate on my fucking nerves, but at the end

nod, he smirks, looking away, and I

me.” He says and I can’t help but chuckle as I pounce on him just as

say, squeezing his neck.