The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 96

12. Father to Daughter

I don’t like that look.

It’s a look I’ve seen in the mirror so many fucking times…

He looks away, as if not wanting me to know what he’s feeling.

A tense silence falls between us, and I hate where we’ve come to. I close my eyes, trying to calm down. Now I fucking feel guilty for saying that.

“Well… I’m sorry, that you felt like that… I…” He pauses as if trying to recollect his thoughts.

“Dad…” I exhale, opening my eyes and looking at him. “You don’t need to be sorry. You’re not responsible for the way I feel.”

“I kinda am when I’m your father. You being a Lycan is my fucking fault. I know how it feels to be isolated, wondering why the fuck I’m even alive when I don’t fit in anywhere… it wasn’t exactly the entire truth but it’s how I felt.” He says, his voice is quiet, and even though he’s trying to hide them, there are so many emotions in them.

I don’t know if I can do this. I feel too damn emotional, and he only makes it worse when he cups my face and looks into my eyes with eyes filled with emotions. I thought he wanted to hide.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen him this vulnerable since Kataleya was taken and he broke down… he didn’t know I saw him, but I did. That image of my father, the all-powerful king sitting there with his head in his hands, always remained…

I’m about to turn away, but he doesn’t let me, pressing his lips against my forehead before looking into my eyes.

“I know how it feels trying to fight the darkness that’s constantly trying to consume you. I’ve done things that I regret. I’ve killed people and hurt people, some that still carry those scars until this day. The guilt of it all won’t ever go away, but I’m trying every fucking day. I’m trying to be better.

Your mother is my tether. She pulled me from the darkness that was drowning me…” He stops, his eyes glinting and he closes his eyes.

“I see myself in you. The poisons, I’ve done the same. I’ve drunk bottles of wolfsbane to cope. At the age of thirteen, when I shifted, I killed my parents in rage. The scars on Maria’s back. I did that to her… I used to beat Raf to within an inch of his life just because I was fucking pissed off. I’ve done far worse…”

My heart thuds. Sure I knew Endora faked her own death, but we were also told it was at the cost of her mate… Dad did that? Everything he said from Uncle Rafael to the wolfsbane… it hits home.

“Did you really… kill them?”

hers and I was the one who

the thought sends fear

enough that I’ll hurt someone I love to the point that nothing can be

answers my unspoken thought,

knowing he had his brother who always

around me tightly, hear his racing heart as he holds me

hate it or not, you have found your tether, your light. You found the calm to your storm, just as Kiara is mine. You found yours sooner. I can’t imagine a life without her and I know even when I lose my shit, when I upset her and test her limits. Even then, just a

Royce for me.” I

vulnerable. I hide behind my attitude, and this is too fucking much, but he’s

and you weren’t answering your phone. A thousand thoughts were going through my mind. What if you can’t cope with his loss? What if… what if you were gone too? Why did he have to mark you so soon and so much fucking more and so I

because we tell ourselves we

fall asleep on his lap… I remember the way I used to try to pinch his nipples when I could see the outlines of the little barbells and cackle when I succeeded. The way I used to play with his necklaces and

they say, when two people are so

I never meant to make you feel fucking suffocated. We only wanted to talk to us,

You didn’t.

that escape my own lips as tears spill from my

and trauma. I had to do better… I didn’t want to be a burden but, in the end, I still became one. I was trying to deal with it my way. Fuck, I’m not crying for sympathy. I just hate this!” I say, trying to wipe my

There I said it.

as he wipes my tears away, only for

fucking disappointment. People can fucking judge or say shit, but you are my daughter and in fact, you dealt with shit better than I did. Trust me when I say that… there was a time I wished I never had daughters because I feared the day, I’d have to give you to some fucker, but I wouldn’t exchange any of you.” He says as I dare to look into

too, and I know this is also hard for

much more amazing than this.” I say weakly, pointing my thumb at

hot gene. I

my point! Ah, you’re good at this,”

know that shit won’t go past me. Yeah, I drop stuff

“I know…” I say,

me being king gets in the fucking way of being a great father. I’m not Elijah and I’m not Rayhan or Leo, but I never fucking wanted you to feel like you can’t talk about shit to me. I would fucking kill for the four of you. Yeah, you fuckers do grate on my fucking nerves, but at the end of the day, you’re

nod, he smirks, looking away, and I swear he brushed his

I can’t help but chuckle as I pounce on him just

Bear!” I say, squeezing his neck. He chuckles as he hugs