The Temptation of Sin And The Lycan Princess

Chapter 96

12. Father to Daughter

I don’t like that look.

It’s a look I’ve seen in the mirror so many fucking times…

He looks away, as if not wanting me to know what he’s feeling.

A tense silence falls between us, and I hate where we’ve come to. I close my eyes, trying to calm down. Now I fucking feel guilty for saying that.

“Well… I’m sorry, that you felt like that… I…” He pauses as if trying to recollect his thoughts.

“Dad…” I exhale, opening my eyes and looking at him. “You don’t need to be sorry. You’re not responsible for the way I feel.”

“I kinda am when I’m your father. You being a Lycan is my fucking fault. I know how it feels to be isolated, wondering why the fuck I’m even alive when I don’t fit in anywhere… it wasn’t exactly the entire truth but it’s how I felt.” He says, his voice is quiet, and even though he’s trying to hide them, there are so many emotions in them.

I don’t know if I can do this. I feel too damn emotional, and he only makes it worse when he cups my face and looks into my eyes with eyes filled with emotions. I thought he wanted to hide.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen him this vulnerable since Kataleya was taken and he broke down… he didn’t know I saw him, but I did. That image of my father, the all-powerful king sitting there with his head in his hands, always remained…

I’m about to turn away, but he doesn’t let me, pressing his lips against my forehead before looking into my eyes.

“I know how it feels trying to fight the darkness that’s constantly trying to consume you. I’ve done things that I regret. I’ve killed people and hurt people, some that still carry those scars until this day. The guilt of it all won’t ever go away, but I’m trying every fucking day. I’m trying to be better.

Your mother is my tether. She pulled me from the darkness that was drowning me…” He stops, his eyes glinting and he closes his eyes.

“I see myself in you. The poisons, I’ve done the same. I’ve drunk bottles of wolfsbane to cope. At the age of thirteen, when I shifted, I killed my parents in rage. The scars on Maria’s back. I did that to her… I used to beat Raf to within an inch of his life just because I was fucking pissed off. I’ve done far worse…”

My heart thuds. Sure I knew Endora faked her own death, but we were also told it was at the cost of her mate… Dad did that? Everything he said from Uncle Rafael to the wolfsbane… it hits home.

“Did you really… kill them?”

assure you… my father was a victim of hers and I was the one who ended his life… instead of saving him from her spells and control, I ended his life.” He

the

often enough that I’ll hurt someone I love to

He answers my unspoken thought, and I look up

brother who always supported him there for

arms around me tightly, hear his racing heart

Kiara is mine. You found yours sooner. I can’t imagine a life without her and I know even when I lose my shit, when I upset her and test her limits. Even then, just a touch from her and I have

Royce for me.”

attitude, and this is

possible death… and you weren’t answering your phone. A thousand thoughts were going through my mind. What if you can’t cope with his loss? What if… what if you were gone too? Why did he have to mark you so soon and so much fucking

way to express your feelings without showing the world that you’re scared, because we tell ourselves we have to always be fucking strong.” I finish and I’m glad he’s hugging me because I’m

used to try to pinch his nipples when I could see the outlines of the little

are so fucking alike… it’s hard, right?

to make you feel fucking suffocated. We only wanted to talk to us, but we weren’t always like this Sky…

You didn’t.

tears spill from my eyes, and when the first few fall, it opens the

didn’t. Kat was going through so much, her nightmares and trauma. I had to do better… I didn’t want to be a burden but, in the end, I still became one. I was trying to deal with it my way. Fuck, I’m not crying for sympathy. I just hate this!” I say, trying to wipe my eyes. He loosens his hold on me and I look up at him

There I said it.

head, his eyes glinting with sadness as he wipes my tears away, only

me when I say that… there was a time I wished I never had daughters because I feared the day, I’d have to give you to some fucker,

I know this is also hard

that much more amazing than

the hot gene. I guess that’s you.”

my point! Ah, you’re good at this,” I say, slapping

“Then give me a chance, talk to me. You know that shit won’t go past me. Yeah, I drop stuff when I

“I know…” I say,

of being a great father. I’m not Elijah and I’m not Rayhan or Leo, but I never fucking wanted you to feel like you can’t talk about shit to me. I would fucking kill for the four of you. Yeah, you fuckers do grate on my fucking nerves, but at the end of

looking away, and I swear he

fucking part where you hug me.” He says and I can’t help but chuckle as I pounce on him just as

you, Grumpy Bear!” I say, squeezing