The Transfer

Ezra stared at me as I sat with my head in my hands at the dinner table. He sipped slowly on his coffee and didn't take his eyes off of me.

My mind whirled with so many different thoughts. Memories of my mother flashed through my mind like a slideshow. I felt the pain of losing her all over again.

It'd been almost ten years, and I still wasn't over it. I couldn't help but miss her. I couldn't help but be bitter about her death. Alfie was right. It shouldn't have happened. But it did.

My mind switched to my beast. She whined sadly in the back of my mind. She paced back and forward, her head down and her whines low and painful to listen to. She was upset. So damn upset.

She knew what Alfie said was true. She knew it and so did I.

Our fire was gone.

Every wolf had a fire. Whether it was hot or not was the important part. I knew what Alfie meant when he spoke about my father.

When anyone walked into a room with my father in it, they knew who was in control. Whenever I was in a room with him, I always felt the energy of his wolf. I felt his blood hum. It was like a nonstop buzz.

When I met Henry, I remembered feeling his blood hum. It was strong, almost knocked the breath out of me. His beast was the one in charge and everyone knew it. That's why he was an Alpha.

Even Lila's blood hummed. On our runs, she was always buzzing with such hot electricity that I was jealous. I wished I could hum like that. I wished I burned hot like all the other wolves.

Why was I cold? Where the hell was my damn fire? Where was my electricity and my hum?

"Ali girl, you know that Alfie is going to help you get the spark back. He's not going to stop until he turns you into a strong Alpha," Ezra told me, snapping me out my thoughts. I looked up at him.

"Alfie is going to help you the best he can until you're back to where you're supposed to be. He likes you. He thinks you have potential to be very powerful. I do too, girl. You're going to leave Takiani with more power than you've ever felt," Ezra said softly. His voice calmed me, but only a little. My beast was angry and upset.

She was angry that her and I let this happen. How could we let ourselves get to the point where we were barely an Alpha? How did no one ever see it and try to help?

My beast was upset because we lost yet another important thing to us. We had our Alpha position, and we probably didn't even have that anymore.

We were weak. We were tired and we were not a real Alpha.

"This is all so dumb," I hissed out. My wolf yelped in agreement. She hated it.

"You're strong, princess. You'll get your fire back and you'll be so strong that people will cower in your presence," Ezra assured me. I smiled warmly at him.

My hair fell in front of my face as I looked down at the table. I smelt the meat being cooked in someone else's cabin and my mouth watered. My tummy grumbled loudly and I rolled my eyes at it. I ate four sandwiches minutes before.

There was a knock at the front door. I got a strong whiff of lavender and another of vanilla. Lila and Brayleigh.

us. Can we come in?" Brayleigh called to me over the link. I almost sighed in relief that they were visiting. My wolf trusted them a

on the floor. I

myself calm slightly. My beast purred, happy that the females were there to help.

Brayleigh asked as she brushed her cheek against mine. I

It's nothing major," I replied. I didn't know if I meant my words or not. I knew that I wasn't necessarily

we met you. We knew something was wrong. But we had no idea about what had happened to you..." Lila told me as she sat down. Brayleigh

felt the power roll off her and felt her veins

of you," Brayleigh explained to me. I nodded at her knowingly. Alfie said that he felt it when

did on the run, then that meant there was a chance that I could get my hum back. I could still be

the two of us, and I didn't know what it was. But she caressed my

Ali. We won't let you leave without your fire," Lila assured me. Ezra and Brayleigh both nodded in agreement. I smiled at the three of them

dinner. It's a special occasion. I'm thinking pancakes?" Ezra suggested to the three of us, with a

always made things better. Undoubtedly.

Terialta," Brayleigh requested as I turned back around. Lila nodded eagerly in agreement. The two girls sat

I could feel how powerful they both were. Their wolves were both destined to be great.

kind of boring over

guys?" She queried. I playfully rolled my eyes at her and shrugged.

was different to Takiani. People were more secluded and reserved. Most people there kept to themselves. It was always kind

rogue, the pressure of losing their

was always on edge. There wasn't room for messing around anymore. No one wanted a repeat of what happened.

too effected and I had plenty of friends. Often, we'd go for a run and then make our way down to the river

the wolves that would follow me

tense there. After what happened to my mother... no one was the same, and it's been almost ten years," I explained to them with a shrug. Lila and Brayleigh

she and Brayleigh both were. I knew that my life story was nothing to be ashamed of, but

hated people feeling sorry for

mauled her. Tore her throat out," I replied bitterly. I remembered what happened that night as if it was only yesterday.

I was forced to watch it happen.

apologised gently. Then, I felt the pity that I dreaded. But it was different.

I pitied Lila.

Both? Only one of mine was killed. What the hell was I so bitter about? I still

to see one of our friends upset. It hurt to know that she had once suffered the same pain I had

It was messy. It effected everyone around

slaughtered by cruel vampires. It's never easy, but you have to remember that they would have wanted you to go on," Ezra said as he places a stack of pancakes in front of us. He set down toppings and then plates and cutlery. We all thanked

know. That's why I'm here. To get better. Right?" I smiled at Ezra. He smiled and nodded back at me before taking a seat at the