The Transfer

Ezra stared at me as I sat with my head in my hands at the dinner table. He sipped slowly on his coffee and didn't take his eyes off of me.

My mind whirled with so many different thoughts. Memories of my mother flashed through my mind like a slideshow. I felt the pain of losing her all over again.

It'd been almost ten years, and I still wasn't over it. I couldn't help but miss her. I couldn't help but be bitter about her death. Alfie was right. It shouldn't have happened. But it did.

My mind switched to my beast. She whined sadly in the back of my mind. She paced back and forward, her head down and her whines low and painful to listen to. She was upset. So damn upset.

She knew what Alfie said was true. She knew it and so did I.

Our fire was gone.

Every wolf had a fire. Whether it was hot or not was the important part. I knew what Alfie meant when he spoke about my father.

When anyone walked into a room with my father in it, they knew who was in control. Whenever I was in a room with him, I always felt the energy of his wolf. I felt his blood hum. It was like a nonstop buzz.

When I met Henry, I remembered feeling his blood hum. It was strong, almost knocked the breath out of me. His beast was the one in charge and everyone knew it. That's why he was an Alpha.

Even Lila's blood hummed. On our runs, she was always buzzing with such hot electricity that I was jealous. I wished I could hum like that. I wished I burned hot like all the other wolves.

Why was I cold? Where the hell was my damn fire? Where was my electricity and my hum?

"Ali girl, you know that Alfie is going to help you get the spark back. He's not going to stop until he turns you into a strong Alpha," Ezra told me, snapping me out my thoughts. I looked up at him.

"Alfie is going to help you the best he can until you're back to where you're supposed to be. He likes you. He thinks you have potential to be very powerful. I do too, girl. You're going to leave Takiani with more power than you've ever felt," Ezra said softly. His voice calmed me, but only a little. My beast was angry and upset.

She was angry that her and I let this happen. How could we let ourselves get to the point where we were barely an Alpha? How did no one ever see it and try to help?

My beast was upset because we lost yet another important thing to us. We had our Alpha position, and we probably didn't even have that anymore.

We were weak. We were tired and we were not a real Alpha.

"This is all so dumb," I hissed out. My wolf yelped in agreement. She hated it.

"You're strong, princess. You'll get your fire back and you'll be so strong that people will cower in your presence," Ezra assured me. I smiled warmly at him.

My hair fell in front of my face as I looked down at the table. I smelt the meat being cooked in someone else's cabin and my mouth watered. My tummy grumbled loudly and I rolled my eyes at it. I ate four sandwiches minutes before.

There was a knock at the front door. I got a strong whiff of lavender and another of vanilla. Lila and Brayleigh.

in?" Brayleigh called to me over the link. I almost sighed in relief that they were visiting. My wolf trusted them a lot already, despite only knowing them for such a short amount of time. We had a connection with

clicking of shoes on the

I felt myself calm slightly. My beast

feeling?" Brayleigh asked as she brushed her cheek against mine. I felt a short spurge of calmness yet again but it

Just a little upset. It's nothing major," I replied. I didn't know if I meant my words or not. I knew that I wasn't necessarily okay, but I also knew that I wasn't

no idea about what had happened to you..." Lila told me as she sat down. Brayleigh nodded in

her and felt her veins hum. She was so

explained to me. I nodded at her knowingly. Alfie said that he felt it when I got

wolf yipped. If my blood could definitely hum like it did on the run, then that meant there was a chance that I could get my hum back. I could still be powerful and

to me. There was a slight pull between the two of us, and I didn't know what it was. But she caressed my mind, and it

your fire," Lila assured me. Ezra and Brayleigh both nodded in

It's a special occasion. I'm thinking pancakes?" Ezra suggested to the

things better. Undoubtedly.

as I turned back around. Lila nodded eagerly in agreement. The two girls

feel how powerful they both were. Their wolves

over there," I told them honestly. Lila scoffed at

way! What about all the hot guys?" She queried. I playfully rolled my eyes at her

reserved. Most people there kept to themselves. It was always kind of quiet there. Especially after my mother's death. It tore the pack

country to other places. Some went rogue, the pressure of losing their Luna was too much. The

on edge. There wasn't room for messing around anymore. No one

weren't too effected and I had plenty of friends. Often, we'd go for a run and then make our way down to the river where we'd go swimming. But the group of us weren't allowed to leave the pack without having at

bad to happen again, but it got ridiculous. The constant watching and the wolves that would follow me around, guarding me like I was the next victim.

happened to my mother... no one was the same, and it's been almost ten years," I explained to them with a

exactly happened to your mother?" Lila asked carefully. I could feel how curious she and Brayleigh both were. I knew that my life story was nothing to be ashamed of, but it dreaded

hated people feeling sorry for

throat out," I replied bitterly. I remembered what happened that night as if it was only yesterday. It was all

was forced to watch

gently. Then,

I pitied Lila.

was I

my gut twist. It hurt to see one of our

a parent wasn't easy. It was messy. It effected everyone around you.

parents were slaughtered by cruel vampires. It's never easy, but you have to remember that they would have wanted you to go on," Ezra said as he places a stack of pancakes in front of us. He set down toppings and then plates and cutlery.

I'm here. To get better. Right?" I smiled at Ezra. He smiled and nodded back