Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 36

NADIA I was trying to take in all of Riley while he sang when a surge of emotions suddenly hit me and mixed with mine. My eyes started to water as it finally dawned on me that he was sharing his emotions with me. This was the first. And I hope it will be the first of many that will come after this. We never talked about walls and boundaries, but I always shared my deepest emotions with him so he could read everything about me.

But he never did it for me.

Not until today.

And I felt his pain, his sorrow, and one thing that I was never familiar with – something that was giving me butterflies in my stomach.

It let me know that I was important to him.

I slammed my face against the nook of his neck after he positioned me on his lap.

I couldn’t fight the s**s escaping my throat.

Too many emotions, too many feelings, but what stuck with me was his pain.

“I’m sorry if I disappointed you today.

I didn’t know he would show up…” “What are you talking about?

I’m not disappointed with you.

” His voice was so calm and sweet, nothing like the way he was talking at his office earlier.

“The money… You shouldn’t have given him anything…” “Hey… Look at me.

” He moved his hands to my arms and pulled me away from his neck as his eyes caught mine.

“Don’t think about the money.

We could earn it back.

What is important is that he will never come for you again.

” “Then why are you here?

What’s bothering you?

” He took a deep breath as his eyes darted to my lips, his thumb brushing against them.

“I was having a bad moment.

I feared that you would leave me.

” “Why would you think that?

Did you think I would go with Elliot?

You must be insane to think I would want that monster over you.

” He gasped for air before he answered my question.

“Everyone that was important to me left.

And I don’t think I can handle it if you’re the one leaving me.

” “Riley…” “I love you, Nadia.

I wish I could make you stay with me for a long time.

” “I can stay forever, as long as you want me to stay.

” A smile graced my lips as I cupped his cheeks, urging him to look at me.

“I’m not Andrea.

I won’t leave you.

And if she did leave, maybe it was something more, and not because of you.

” “Caspian… Caspian is her fated mate.

” My heart jumped out of my chest.

Now I finally know why she left Riley.

There was nothing shocking about it.

But I understood now why it pained Riley, I just hoped I would be enough to fill the space she left.

“There’s nothing wrong with you then.

” His brows furrowed as confusion flitted in his eyes.

“If Caspian is her mate, then she did the right thing.

I would leave everything and everyone behind for you, Riley.

Because you’re my mate and you are meant for me.

And if you were not lying, I think you were already smitten by me when you first smelt me.

It was just perfect that Andrea found her mate before I came, otherwise, maybe I wouldn’t have had a place here.

” I pressed a finger to his heart.

“So the Goddess did play fair.

But how I wish you had waited for me instead of having a chosen.

” “Nadia…” IVAN I shook my head, smiling at him.

“I didn’t mean it in a bad way.

I just want you to know my truth.

I know this mate bond is helping a lot for you to like me or love me, but I know a part of Andrea is still there.

But I will work on it…” He was holding his breath, just looking at me, and I couldn’t fathom his emotions again.

I trailed my fingers down his chest until I reached the part where his heart was.

“Slowly, I will creep into your heart until I occupy all the space in there.

” Riley grabbed the hand on his chest and brought it to his lips, peppering it with kisses.

“I think my heart is full of you already.

If you keep pushing more, it will explode.

” I giggled and pressed my lips on his cheek, trailing it up to the edge of his ear before I whispered to him, “Then it will explode and disperse throughout your whole body… And then I can finally say I own you.

All of you.

” “You do.

Own all of me.

” He raised a hand to the nape of my neck and coiled his fingers around my hair and tugged them, causing me to softly gasp as my lips parted from his ear and his mouth trailed down my neck, licking and nibbling it.

“And you, who owns you, Nadia?

” He asked in a husky, too s**y voice that was sending tingles in between my legs.

“My s**y Alpha…” But as much as I wanted him now, I’m not done with our conversation yet.

chest and pushed my body

from his

as I tried

“Stop…” “No…” He groaned.

now on the nook of my neck, sucking and biting the mark he

want to know about your

as his grip

him and captured his

He was frowning.

him as my thumbs ran

want to know

about

really not

left when I was a baby, so

to ask your father

” “For another man.

angry that she left with another man, or that she left

“It’s the

“No, it

you ask your father why

“I would probably just get in her way with

unfair that you were judging her without hearing her

” “Twenty-three years, Nadia.

to hear her side, she could have

But there was nothing.

you try looking

” “No.

we look

” “No.

“I want to look

even have a

carried his name to

I would never know

a chance to get to

me with him

he reached the place, he leaned his palms on it and let out

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

” RILEY.

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

would be nice

I didn’t have a mother, and you

her, who knows, maybe we’ll both

I said stop!

we move on from

I was starting to get annoyed with this topic already, and if she kept insisting, I would end up walking away from

know I should have told her about

was my bigger problem, not

thought that it was only the mate bond that made Andrea leave me, I lost the courage to

thought I was the victim,

mate, was

is my saving

had

I should not feel

Andrea and Caspian were thriving

Well, good for them.

didn’t bother to approach my Luna,

“It’s enough for today.

back to the pack

and started walking towards

“You’re not being fair.

” “I am.

don’t need

“But I do want

and find another mate who can give you a mother-in-law because I f*g don’t have

regretted it

to

face and let out a sigh of

“Nadia, I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean that.

just not ready for

don’t want her to

want a mother figure, I could introduce you to my

of the Green

you will get along

and I couldn’t feel any emotions coming

she block it

know how

stepped in closer to her, coiling an arm

” Fine.

talk about her,

Or not tomorrow.

we have, and not be bothered

Please, baby.

before her arms wrapped around

адаад A Week After.

NADIA.

stop asking him about

So I did.

stopped questioning him, but since I was naturally born stubborn,

didn’t want to help me, that was

could get help

the previous Beta, so his mother was

she might have actually lived with the previous Luna of

right, she was indeed a good friend of

I didn’t waste any more time on getting the

would be pissed off, but I was willing to take a risk if

loved each other, I felt there was still something in between us,

that invisible wall

wanted Riley, all of him –

‘Where are you now?

Riley’s words dug

‘I’m here with Katya.

answered

didn’t have any training sessions with Jenny today, and Riley was helping Gamma Sebastian with his Elites so I decided to spend my mornings with Beta

and I were baking pastries while her mate went with Beta Dominic to the other side of the territory, so they could have a father and son moment even if the Beta was actually there for work ‘You’re spending too much

need to get

could imagine him pouting his lips, as he would usually do when he was trying to get

‘I don’t do girls.

except my Alpha… So stop being whiny

you supposed to

.

’ ‘I miss you.

smile from gracing my lips and the

words alone could make me

standing by the

just saw each other three

f*g too long

I pick you up

’ ‘No.

I’m busy.