Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 36

NADIA I was trying to take in all of Riley while he sang when a surge of emotions suddenly hit me and mixed with mine. My eyes started to water as it finally dawned on me that he was sharing his emotions with me. This was the first. And I hope it will be the first of many that will come after this. We never talked about walls and boundaries, but I always shared my deepest emotions with him so he could read everything about me.

But he never did it for me.

Not until today.

And I felt his pain, his sorrow, and one thing that I was never familiar with – something that was giving me butterflies in my stomach.

It let me know that I was important to him.

I slammed my face against the nook of his neck after he positioned me on his lap.

I couldn’t fight the s**s escaping my throat.

Too many emotions, too many feelings, but what stuck with me was his pain.

“I’m sorry if I disappointed you today.

I didn’t know he would show up…” “What are you talking about?

I’m not disappointed with you.

” His voice was so calm and sweet, nothing like the way he was talking at his office earlier.

“The money… You shouldn’t have given him anything…” “Hey… Look at me.

” He moved his hands to my arms and pulled me away from his neck as his eyes caught mine.

“Don’t think about the money.

We could earn it back.

What is important is that he will never come for you again.

” “Then why are you here?

What’s bothering you?

” He took a deep breath as his eyes darted to my lips, his thumb brushing against them.

“I was having a bad moment.

I feared that you would leave me.

” “Why would you think that?

Did you think I would go with Elliot?

You must be insane to think I would want that monster over you.

” He gasped for air before he answered my question.

“Everyone that was important to me left.

And I don’t think I can handle it if you’re the one leaving me.

” “Riley…” “I love you, Nadia.

I wish I could make you stay with me for a long time.

” “I can stay forever, as long as you want me to stay.

” A smile graced my lips as I cupped his cheeks, urging him to look at me.

“I’m not Andrea.

I won’t leave you.

And if she did leave, maybe it was something more, and not because of you.

” “Caspian… Caspian is her fated mate.

” My heart jumped out of my chest.

Now I finally know why she left Riley.

There was nothing shocking about it.

But I understood now why it pained Riley, I just hoped I would be enough to fill the space she left.

“There’s nothing wrong with you then.

” His brows furrowed as confusion flitted in his eyes.

“If Caspian is her mate, then she did the right thing.

I would leave everything and everyone behind for you, Riley.

Because you’re my mate and you are meant for me.

And if you were not lying, I think you were already smitten by me when you first smelt me.

It was just perfect that Andrea found her mate before I came, otherwise, maybe I wouldn’t have had a place here.

” I pressed a finger to his heart.

“So the Goddess did play fair.

But how I wish you had waited for me instead of having a chosen.

” “Nadia…” IVAN I shook my head, smiling at him.

“I didn’t mean it in a bad way.

I just want you to know my truth.

I know this mate bond is helping a lot for you to like me or love me, but I know a part of Andrea is still there.

But I will work on it…” He was holding his breath, just looking at me, and I couldn’t fathom his emotions again.

I trailed my fingers down his chest until I reached the part where his heart was.

“Slowly, I will creep into your heart until I occupy all the space in there.

” Riley grabbed the hand on his chest and brought it to his lips, peppering it with kisses.

“I think my heart is full of you already.

If you keep pushing more, it will explode.

” I giggled and pressed my lips on his cheek, trailing it up to the edge of his ear before I whispered to him, “Then it will explode and disperse throughout your whole body… And then I can finally say I own you.

All of you.

” “You do.

Own all of me.

” He raised a hand to the nape of my neck and coiled his fingers around my hair and tugged them, causing me to softly gasp as my lips parted from his ear and his mouth trailed down my neck, licking and nibbling it.

“And you, who owns you, Nadia?

” He asked in a husky, too s**y voice that was sending tingles in between my legs.

“My s**y Alpha…” But as much as I wanted him now, I’m not done with our conversation yet.

his chest and pushed my

grunted but didn’t let me get away from his hold and started attacking my

giggled as I tried to push

“Stop…” “No…” He groaned.

the nook of my neck, sucking and biting the mark he

to know about your mother…” And that

stiffened as his grip on

from him and captured his

He was frowning.

my thumbs ran over her eyebrows, trying

to

about mine too, if you

not

left when I was a baby,

“Did you bother to ask your father

” “For another man.

that she left with another man, or

the same

“No, it is

please…” “Did you ask your father why she didn’t take

“I would probably just get in her way with her lover,

unfair that you were judging

” “Twenty-three years, Nadia.

she could have done

But there was nothing.

try looking for

” “No.

“Can we look

” “No.

“I want to

even

mother carried his name to

I would

you have a chance to get

will make you feel better if…” He stood up abruptly, carrying me with him before he placed me on

he reached the place, he leaned his palms on it

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

” RILEY.

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

“I just thought it would

have a mother, and you

we can get to meet her, who knows, maybe

I said stop!

we move on from

was starting to get annoyed with this topic already, and if she kept insisting, I would end up

should have

was my bigger problem,

moment she thought that it was only the mate bond that made Andrea leave me, I lost the courage

was the victim,

mate, was my

is

she just had

should not feel guilty

Andrea and Caspian

Well, good for them.

approach my Luna, then I think I would be

“It’s enough for today.

go back to the pack

around and started walking

“You’re not being fair.

” “I am.

need

“But I do want

find another mate who can give you a mother-in-law because I f*g don’t have one and I don’t

snapped at her, and I regretted it the moment it flew out

really learn to filter

my face and

“Nadia, I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean that.

not ready for

don’t want her to get in

you want a mother figure, I

of the Green

will

and I couldn’t feel

she block it

she know how

to her, coiling an arm around

” Fine.

about

Or not tomorrow.

to enjoy this, what we have, and

Please, baby.

didn’t say anything and just nodded her head before her arms wrapped around my

адаад A Week After.

NADIA.

me to stop asking

So I did.

born stubborn, that didn’t mean I would

didn’t want to

get help somewhere

found out that Beta Dominic’s father was the previous Beta, so his mother was the previous

actually lived

I was right, she was indeed a good

more time on getting the details that

be pissed off, but I was willing to take a risk if this meant letting

other, I felt there was

I wanted that

Riley, all of him – body and

‘Where are you now?

Riley’s words dug into

‘I’m here with Katya.

I answered

Riley was helping Gamma Sebastian with his Elites so I decided to

baking pastries while her mate went with Beta Dominic to the other side of the territory, so they

need to get

as he would usually do

‘I don’t do girls.

anyone except my

supposed

.

’ ‘I miss you.

I couldn’t help the smile from gracing my lips and

could make me feel

thankful Katya was standing by the sink, her back

saw each other three hours

‘That’s been f*g

pick you up

’ ‘No.

I’m busy.