Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 36

NADIA I was trying to take in all of Riley while he sang when a surge of emotions suddenly hit me and mixed with mine. My eyes started to water as it finally dawned on me that he was sharing his emotions with me. This was the first. And I hope it will be the first of many that will come after this. We never talked about walls and boundaries, but I always shared my deepest emotions with him so he could read everything about me.

But he never did it for me.

Not until today.

And I felt his pain, his sorrow, and one thing that I was never familiar with – something that was giving me butterflies in my stomach.

It let me know that I was important to him.

I slammed my face against the nook of his neck after he positioned me on his lap.

I couldn’t fight the s**s escaping my throat.

Too many emotions, too many feelings, but what stuck with me was his pain.

“I’m sorry if I disappointed you today.

I didn’t know he would show up…” “What are you talking about?

I’m not disappointed with you.

” His voice was so calm and sweet, nothing like the way he was talking at his office earlier.

“The money… You shouldn’t have given him anything…” “Hey… Look at me.

” He moved his hands to my arms and pulled me away from his neck as his eyes caught mine.

“Don’t think about the money.

We could earn it back.

What is important is that he will never come for you again.

” “Then why are you here?

What’s bothering you?

” He took a deep breath as his eyes darted to my lips, his thumb brushing against them.

“I was having a bad moment.

I feared that you would leave me.

” “Why would you think that?

Did you think I would go with Elliot?

You must be insane to think I would want that monster over you.

” He gasped for air before he answered my question.

“Everyone that was important to me left.

And I don’t think I can handle it if you’re the one leaving me.

” “Riley…” “I love you, Nadia.

I wish I could make you stay with me for a long time.

” “I can stay forever, as long as you want me to stay.

” A smile graced my lips as I cupped his cheeks, urging him to look at me.

“I’m not Andrea.

I won’t leave you.

And if she did leave, maybe it was something more, and not because of you.

” “Caspian… Caspian is her fated mate.

” My heart jumped out of my chest.

Now I finally know why she left Riley.

There was nothing shocking about it.

But I understood now why it pained Riley, I just hoped I would be enough to fill the space she left.

“There’s nothing wrong with you then.

” His brows furrowed as confusion flitted in his eyes.

“If Caspian is her mate, then she did the right thing.

I would leave everything and everyone behind for you, Riley.

Because you’re my mate and you are meant for me.

And if you were not lying, I think you were already smitten by me when you first smelt me.

It was just perfect that Andrea found her mate before I came, otherwise, maybe I wouldn’t have had a place here.

” I pressed a finger to his heart.

“So the Goddess did play fair.

But how I wish you had waited for me instead of having a chosen.

” “Nadia…” IVAN I shook my head, smiling at him.

“I didn’t mean it in a bad way.

I just want you to know my truth.

I know this mate bond is helping a lot for you to like me or love me, but I know a part of Andrea is still there.

But I will work on it…” He was holding his breath, just looking at me, and I couldn’t fathom his emotions again.

I trailed my fingers down his chest until I reached the part where his heart was.

“Slowly, I will creep into your heart until I occupy all the space in there.

” Riley grabbed the hand on his chest and brought it to his lips, peppering it with kisses.

“I think my heart is full of you already.

If you keep pushing more, it will explode.

” I giggled and pressed my lips on his cheek, trailing it up to the edge of his ear before I whispered to him, “Then it will explode and disperse throughout your whole body… And then I can finally say I own you.

All of you.

” “You do.

Own all of me.

” He raised a hand to the nape of my neck and coiled his fingers around my hair and tugged them, causing me to softly gasp as my lips parted from his ear and his mouth trailed down my neck, licking and nibbling it.

“And you, who owns you, Nadia?

” He asked in a husky, too s**y voice that was sending tingles in between my legs.

“My s**y Alpha…” But as much as I wanted him now, I’m not done with our conversation yet.

his chest

didn’t let me get away from his hold and started attacking my neck more

I giggled as I tried to

“Stop…” “No…” He groaned.

now on the nook of my neck, sucking and biting the mark

want to know about your mother…” And

stiffened as his grip

from him and captured

He was frowning.

thumbs ran over

just want to know what

you about mine too, if you

“There’s really not much to

baby, so I knew

you bother to ask

” “For another man.

angry that she left with another man, or that she left

“It’s the

it

“Nadia, please…” “Did you ask your father why she didn’t take you

probably just get in her way with

“It’s so unfair that you were judging her without hearing her

” “Twenty-three years, Nadia.

to hear her side, she could have done that within the last

But there was nothing.

try looking

” “No.

we

” “No.

to look for

even have a

his

I would

you have a chance to get to know

stood up abruptly, carrying me with

his palms on it and

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

” RILEY.

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

thought it would be nice to

didn’t have a mother,

get to meet her, who knows, maybe we’ll both end up having

I said stop!

we move

with this topic already, and if she kept insisting, I would end up walking away from

have told her about

was my bigger problem,

big opening already, but I’m a f****r too, and the moment she thought that it was only the mate bond that made Andrea leave me, I lost the courage to tell her

thought I was the victim,

mate, was my

is my saving

just had everything

should not feel guilty about Andrea

that Andrea

Well, good for them.

as they didn’t bother to approach my Luna, then I think

“It’s enough for today.

to the

and started

“You’re not being fair.

” “I am.

need

“But I do want

go and find another mate who can give you a mother-in-law because I f*g don’t have

snapped at her, and I regretted it the moment it flew out of

to filter my

my face and let out a sigh of

“Nadia, I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean that.

just not ready

I don’t want her to get in between

mother figure, I

the Luna of the Green

sure you will get along

and I

she block

she know how

closer to her, coiling an arm around her waist

” Fine.

talk about her, but not

Or not tomorrow.

you just give me time to enjoy this, what we have, and not

Please, baby.

her

адаад A Week After.

NADIA.

me to stop asking him about his

So I did.

questioning him, but since I was naturally born stubborn, that didn’t mean I would

want to help me, that was

could get help somewhere

the previous Beta, so his mother was

actually lived with the

she was indeed

I didn’t waste any more time

off, but I was willing to take a risk if this meant

each other, I felt there was still something in between us, a wall

that invisible wall

Riley, all of him – body

‘Where are you now?

Riley’s words dug into

‘I’m here with Katya.

answered his

sessions with Jenny today, and Riley was helping Gamma Sebastian with his Elites

were baking pastries while her mate went with Beta Dominic to the other side of the territory, so they could have a father and son moment even if the Beta was actually there for work ‘You’re spending too much time

I need to

he would

‘I don’t do girls.

except my Alpha… So stop being whiny

you supposed to

.

’ ‘I miss you.

couldn’t help the smile from gracing my lips and the tingles spreading across my

could make me feel

was standing by the sink, her

each other

been f*g

I pick you

’ ‘No.

I’m busy.