Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 36

NADIA I was trying to take in all of Riley while he sang when a surge of emotions suddenly hit me and mixed with mine. My eyes started to water as it finally dawned on me that he was sharing his emotions with me. This was the first. And I hope it will be the first of many that will come after this. We never talked about walls and boundaries, but I always shared my deepest emotions with him so he could read everything about me.

But he never did it for me.

Not until today.

And I felt his pain, his sorrow, and one thing that I was never familiar with – something that was giving me butterflies in my stomach.

It let me know that I was important to him.

I slammed my face against the nook of his neck after he positioned me on his lap.

I couldn’t fight the s**s escaping my throat.

Too many emotions, too many feelings, but what stuck with me was his pain.

“I’m sorry if I disappointed you today.

I didn’t know he would show up…” “What are you talking about?

I’m not disappointed with you.

” His voice was so calm and sweet, nothing like the way he was talking at his office earlier.

“The money… You shouldn’t have given him anything…” “Hey… Look at me.

” He moved his hands to my arms and pulled me away from his neck as his eyes caught mine.

“Don’t think about the money.

We could earn it back.

What is important is that he will never come for you again.

” “Then why are you here?

What’s bothering you?

” He took a deep breath as his eyes darted to my lips, his thumb brushing against them.

“I was having a bad moment.

I feared that you would leave me.

” “Why would you think that?

Did you think I would go with Elliot?

You must be insane to think I would want that monster over you.

” He gasped for air before he answered my question.

“Everyone that was important to me left.

And I don’t think I can handle it if you’re the one leaving me.

” “Riley…” “I love you, Nadia.

I wish I could make you stay with me for a long time.

” “I can stay forever, as long as you want me to stay.

” A smile graced my lips as I cupped his cheeks, urging him to look at me.

“I’m not Andrea.

I won’t leave you.

And if she did leave, maybe it was something more, and not because of you.

” “Caspian… Caspian is her fated mate.

” My heart jumped out of my chest.

Now I finally know why she left Riley.

There was nothing shocking about it.

But I understood now why it pained Riley, I just hoped I would be enough to fill the space she left.

“There’s nothing wrong with you then.

” His brows furrowed as confusion flitted in his eyes.

“If Caspian is her mate, then she did the right thing.

I would leave everything and everyone behind for you, Riley.

Because you’re my mate and you are meant for me.

And if you were not lying, I think you were already smitten by me when you first smelt me.

It was just perfect that Andrea found her mate before I came, otherwise, maybe I wouldn’t have had a place here.

” I pressed a finger to his heart.

“So the Goddess did play fair.

But how I wish you had waited for me instead of having a chosen.

” “Nadia…” IVAN I shook my head, smiling at him.

“I didn’t mean it in a bad way.

I just want you to know my truth.

I know this mate bond is helping a lot for you to like me or love me, but I know a part of Andrea is still there.

But I will work on it…” He was holding his breath, just looking at me, and I couldn’t fathom his emotions again.

I trailed my fingers down his chest until I reached the part where his heart was.

“Slowly, I will creep into your heart until I occupy all the space in there.

” Riley grabbed the hand on his chest and brought it to his lips, peppering it with kisses.

“I think my heart is full of you already.

If you keep pushing more, it will explode.

” I giggled and pressed my lips on his cheek, trailing it up to the edge of his ear before I whispered to him, “Then it will explode and disperse throughout your whole body… And then I can finally say I own you.

All of you.

” “You do.

Own all of me.

” He raised a hand to the nape of my neck and coiled his fingers around my hair and tugged them, causing me to softly gasp as my lips parted from his ear and his mouth trailed down my neck, licking and nibbling it.

“And you, who owns you, Nadia?

” He asked in a husky, too s**y voice that was sending tingles in between my legs.

“My s**y Alpha…” But as much as I wanted him now, I’m not done with our conversation yet.

palmed his chest and pushed my body

let me get away from his hold and started attacking my neck more

I giggled as I tried to push

“Stop…” “No…” He groaned.

lips were now on the nook of my

know about your mother…”

body stiffened as his

away from him and

He was frowning.

I smiled at him as my thumbs ran over her eyebrows, trying

want to

you about mine too, if you

not much

when I was a baby, so

ask your father why

” “For another man.

with

the

“No, it

“Did you ask your father why she didn’t take you

in her way

you were judging her

” “Twenty-three years, Nadia.

side, she could have done that

But there was nothing.

“Did you try looking for

” “No.

we look for

” “No.

want to look

I didn’t even have a

his name to

would never know

have a chance to get to know

make you feel better if…” He stood up abruptly, carrying me with him

he leaned his palms on it and let out a

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

” RILEY.

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

“I just thought it would be nice to

I didn’t have a

we can get to meet her, who knows, maybe we’ll both end up having a mother…”

I said stop!

we move

she kept insisting, I would end

know I should have told

my bigger problem,

it was only the mate bond that made

thought I was the

that she, my mate, was my saving

is

just had

not feel guilty about Andrea

from Alba that Andrea and

Well, good for them.

approach my Luna,

“It’s enough for today.

back to

turned around and started walking towards

“You’re not being fair.

” “I am.

need

I do want

mate who can give you a mother-in-law because I f*g don’t have one and I don’t want to have

and I regretted it

should really learn to

palms over my face

“Nadia, I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean that.

just not

don’t want her to get

you want a mother figure, I could introduce you to my

Luna of the Green Valley

sure you will get along

was just looking at me, and I couldn’t feel any emotions

block it

she know how

her, coiling an arm around her waist before pulling her closer to

” Fine.

about her,

Or not tomorrow.

give me time to enjoy this, what we have,

Please, baby.

her head before her arms wrapped around my

адаад A Week After.

NADIA.

to stop asking him

So I did.

born stubborn, that didn’t mean I would stop seeking

he didn’t want to help

could get

the previous Beta, so his mother was the previous

have actually lived with the previous Luna

she was indeed a good friend of

waste any more time on getting

I was willing to take a risk if this meant letting him move

felt

wanted that

wanted Riley, all of him – body

‘Where are you now?

dug into

‘I’m here with Katya.

I answered his

today, and Riley was helping Gamma Sebastian with

Dominic to the other side of the territory, so they could have a father and son moment even if the Beta was

to

could imagine him pouting his lips, as he would usually

‘I don’t do girls.

I don’t do anyone except my Alpha… So stop being whiny and

supposed

.

’ ‘I miss you.

couldn’t help the smile from gracing my lips and the

could make me

thankful Katya was standing

saw each

‘That’s been f*g

I pick

’ ‘No.

I’m busy.