Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 36

NADIA I was trying to take in all of Riley while he sang when a surge of emotions suddenly hit me and mixed with mine. My eyes started to water as it finally dawned on me that he was sharing his emotions with me. This was the first. And I hope it will be the first of many that will come after this. We never talked about walls and boundaries, but I always shared my deepest emotions with him so he could read everything about me.

But he never did it for me.

Not until today.

And I felt his pain, his sorrow, and one thing that I was never familiar with – something that was giving me butterflies in my stomach.

It let me know that I was important to him.

I slammed my face against the nook of his neck after he positioned me on his lap.

I couldn’t fight the s**s escaping my throat.

Too many emotions, too many feelings, but what stuck with me was his pain.

“I’m sorry if I disappointed you today.

I didn’t know he would show up…” “What are you talking about?

I’m not disappointed with you.

” His voice was so calm and sweet, nothing like the way he was talking at his office earlier.

“The money… You shouldn’t have given him anything…” “Hey… Look at me.

” He moved his hands to my arms and pulled me away from his neck as his eyes caught mine.

“Don’t think about the money.

We could earn it back.

What is important is that he will never come for you again.

” “Then why are you here?

What’s bothering you?

” He took a deep breath as his eyes darted to my lips, his thumb brushing against them.

“I was having a bad moment.

I feared that you would leave me.

” “Why would you think that?

Did you think I would go with Elliot?

You must be insane to think I would want that monster over you.

” He gasped for air before he answered my question.

“Everyone that was important to me left.

And I don’t think I can handle it if you’re the one leaving me.

” “Riley…” “I love you, Nadia.

I wish I could make you stay with me for a long time.

” “I can stay forever, as long as you want me to stay.

” A smile graced my lips as I cupped his cheeks, urging him to look at me.

“I’m not Andrea.

I won’t leave you.

And if she did leave, maybe it was something more, and not because of you.

” “Caspian… Caspian is her fated mate.

” My heart jumped out of my chest.

Now I finally know why she left Riley.

There was nothing shocking about it.

But I understood now why it pained Riley, I just hoped I would be enough to fill the space she left.

“There’s nothing wrong with you then.

” His brows furrowed as confusion flitted in his eyes.

“If Caspian is her mate, then she did the right thing.

I would leave everything and everyone behind for you, Riley.

Because you’re my mate and you are meant for me.

And if you were not lying, I think you were already smitten by me when you first smelt me.

It was just perfect that Andrea found her mate before I came, otherwise, maybe I wouldn’t have had a place here.

” I pressed a finger to his heart.

“So the Goddess did play fair.

But how I wish you had waited for me instead of having a chosen.

” “Nadia…” IVAN I shook my head, smiling at him.

“I didn’t mean it in a bad way.

I just want you to know my truth.

I know this mate bond is helping a lot for you to like me or love me, but I know a part of Andrea is still there.

But I will work on it…” He was holding his breath, just looking at me, and I couldn’t fathom his emotions again.

I trailed my fingers down his chest until I reached the part where his heart was.

“Slowly, I will creep into your heart until I occupy all the space in there.

” Riley grabbed the hand on his chest and brought it to his lips, peppering it with kisses.

“I think my heart is full of you already.

If you keep pushing more, it will explode.

” I giggled and pressed my lips on his cheek, trailing it up to the edge of his ear before I whispered to him, “Then it will explode and disperse throughout your whole body… And then I can finally say I own you.

All of you.

” “You do.

Own all of me.

” He raised a hand to the nape of my neck and coiled his fingers around my hair and tugged them, causing me to softly gasp as my lips parted from his ear and his mouth trailed down my neck, licking and nibbling it.

“And you, who owns you, Nadia?

” He asked in a husky, too s**y voice that was sending tingles in between my legs.

“My s**y Alpha…” But as much as I wanted him now, I’m not done with our conversation yet.

chest and pushed

get away from

I tried to push

“Stop…” “No…” He groaned.

now on the nook of my neck, sucking and biting the mark

your mother…” And that did

stiffened as his grip on

from him and captured his

He was frowning.

him as my thumbs ran over

want to

can tell you about mine too, if

not much

was a baby, so I knew

you bother to ask

” “For another man.

she left with another man, or that

“It’s the same

“No, it is

“Did you ask your father

would probably just get in her way

“It’s so unfair that you were

” “Twenty-three years, Nadia.

side, she

But there was nothing.

try looking for

” “No.

we look

” “No.

want to

didn’t even

mother carried his name

I would

you have a chance to get to

you feel better if…” He stood up abruptly, carrying me with him before he

he reached the place, he leaned his palms

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

” RILEY.

“Enough, Nadia.

I’m done with her.

would

have a

her, who knows, maybe we’ll both end

I said stop!

move on from

was starting to get annoyed with this topic already, and if she kept insisting, I

should have told her

my bigger problem, not my f*g

thought that it was only the mate bond that made Andrea leave me, I

thought I was the victim, the one

mate, was

she is my

just had

should not feel guilty about Andrea

from Alba that Andrea and Caspian

Well, good for them.

approach my Luna, then I think I would

“It’s enough for today.

back to

turned around and

“You’re not being fair.

” “I am.

need a

“But I do

mate who can give you a mother-in-law because I f*g don’t have one

snapped at her, and I regretted it the moment

to filter

my palms over my face and let out a

“Nadia, I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean that.

not ready

want her to get in

a mother figure, I could introduce you to my

Green Valley

sure you will

looking at me, and I couldn’t feel

block it

know how

arm around her waist before

” Fine.

talk about her, but not

Or not tomorrow.

just give me time to enjoy this, what we have, and not

Please, baby.

just nodded her head before her arms wrapped around my neck, pulling me closer

адаад A Week After.

NADIA.

told me to stop asking him about

So I did.

naturally born stubborn, that didn’t mean I would stop seeking

he didn’t want to help me, that was

could get help

that Beta Dominic’s father was the previous Beta, so his mother

might have actually lived with the previous Luna

right, she was indeed a good

I didn’t waste any more time on getting the

pissed off, but I was willing to take a risk if this meant letting him move on from his bad

saying how much we loved each other, I felt there was still something in between us, a wall

wanted that invisible

wanted Riley, all of him

‘Where are you now?

words dug

‘I’m here with Katya.

I answered

sessions with Jenny today, and Riley was helping Gamma Sebastian with his Elites so

to the other side of the territory, so they could have a father

to

would usually do when he was trying to

‘I don’t do girls.

don’t do anyone except my Alpha… So stop being whiny and

supposed to

.

’ ‘I miss you.

gracing my lips and the tingles spreading across

alone could make me

was standing by the sink, her

just saw each

been f*g too long

pick you

’ ‘No.

I’m busy.