Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

AFTER THREE MONTHS.

RILEY.

I grunted loudly as the rays of the sun beamed on my face, waking me up from my sleep. I threw my forearm over my face and covered my eyes before squinting them to look at the intruder who was fucking up my sleep.

“What the fuck! Close them and get the fuck away from here!” I growled at my Beta as he continued to draw all the curtains open all over my room.

“You need to wake up and get your shit together. You have a visiting Alpha waiting for you downstairs.” Beta Dominic responded calmly, drawing the final curtain before moving to stand at the foot of my bed.

“You can do that! Now fuck off and let me sleep!” I grunted one more time before turning my body around under the blanket and pressing the pillow, on the top of my head, to block off the sunlight.

“I’ve been doing this for the last three months, and this is not right anymore! You need to do your fucking part or you will lose your people! I have allowed three family transfers in the last three months and you’re going to lose more!” His voice was raised, but it didn’t rattle me.

“Let them go! If they don’t want to be in my pack, then they can all fuck off!”

I felt the pillow on my face being lifted up before it flew halfway across the room.

What in the world did my fucking Beta not understand about the term fuck off?

“Fuck you, Riley! Soon I’m going to take over this pack and kick you out of here! Three months! Three fucking months! Andrea is having the time of her life already, and you’re still stuck up here in the gutter! Move the fuck on!

“Who says this is about Andrea? Go away!” I grunted. He was fucking annoying me now.

“That’s the problem! You refused to say anything! You’re not talking! You’re just sulking and doing your own thing! I’m your fucking Beta, but you’ve excluded me from your life! I felt like I was just a fucking puppet running this whole pack because my fucking Alpha is worse than dead!”

I let out an annoyed sigh before turning around, placing my forearm over my forehead as I stared at the ceiling.

“What do you want? A salary raise? Do it yourself. You have access…”

“Fuck you, Riley! I have never felt more insulted than I feel right now. I don’t need your money! I need my Alpha back!”

I shoved the blanket away and got up from laying down. I only had my boxers on, but I didn’t give a fuck. My Beta had seen me naked too, as did the other wolves in my pack. Being naked was nothing unusual when you’re a shifter.

I went to the window and leaned my palm against the window sill, my eyes scanning the ground below. Nothing unusual, just a fucking ordinary day.

“Who’s the visiting Alpha?” I asked in a calm tone.

“Alpha Jacob.”

A growl rumbled in my chest before I turned around, my eyes dilating into black as I glared at my Beta.

“Who the fuck allowed him to enter into my territory? Did you? I’m going to rip your fucking head off!”

“I did. And before you start throwing a tantrum, go fix yourself and face him. We’re fucking lucky this Alpha didn’t give us shit like all the other Alphas when you suddenly decided to cut off ties with every pack around outside of the treaty agreement dates!”

My eyes squinted, but I tried to control myself.

My Beta’s jaw was twitching, and his hands were already coiled into fists. He was controlling his outburst.

Maybe I would push him a little more and maybe he would throw that fucking punch I’ve been wanting to have to numb me from all the pain I feel inside.

Three months.

been fucking three months since she left me and the pain still feels like it was

had done. Not

I still couldn’t forget

asleep with her in my arms, hopeful for a better tomorrow, but she was gone when I opened my eyes. I tried to scent her so I could follow her trace, but the rain made it harder for me. I didn’t have anything. No clues,

or been intimate with anyone for the previous three months. It was the

if she came back. Two full moons, I went around and scouted for her. But Hunter couldn’t find

more than my own for the first month, hoping to

just on her. I gave up on life, and on being

alone. I was just waiting for someone to challenge me to take

let him win, but he took it as a joke and moved on. I didn’t know how to tell him I didn’t want this anymore. I

felt fucking useless. Unworthy to be loved. Unworthy to be an

this my karma for pushing myself into Andrea? Was this the price I had to pay for taking someone else’s mate, that my own mate would

back and it snapped me out of my thoughts. My

go to your office. Don’t make me put clothes on you, or I swear to the Goddess I will cut off your

the clothes that he threw

I just

indeed acting like a fucking

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some decent clothes. I’ve been lounging in sweatpants on most days and I rarely stepped down from my room unless it was necessary or whenever

my Gamma were around me, but I was okay with that. I was tired of putting on a brave face when I just wanted to shut down

I didn’t think I could avoid Alpha Jacob. This male doesn’t take no for an answer. I was pretty sure

saw both my Beta and Gamma stand up

at them before darting my eyes to the cocky bastard sitting comfortably on the couch in my office with

I told him sarcastically as I strode inside my office towards my office chair, my eyes flying to the clock overhead. It was

I can perfectly function as an Alpha even with alcohol in my system. You, on the other hand…” He chuckled before placing

raised as I waited for him to continue, but he just kept smirking, which irked

tone, and both my Beta and Gamma

do you want? I don’t want to renew any alliances with your pack.” I told him straight to the point, leaning my back against my

your pack? You’re just going to

Cocky bastard.

with his answer, but I tried to control the growl from coming out. “So

check

if it matters

you looked worse than dead but seeing you now, he was right. I feel fucking bad for your Beta

here. You’re not my fucking father to

going on? Is

keep thinking this is

“Then who? Or what?”

believe it’s not

in your head, then I’ll

me and pushed me down to my seat. I didn’t have any energy to fight him, so I just leaned my elbows on my desk and

out. No judgment, I

the facade that you’re the nice Alpha here. We both know you’re a

can understand

tilted it in his direction. He was standing beside my

gaze found his eyes. I was looking for any hint of mockery or pity in them but

sigh before leaning my back against my seat. I closed my eyes as I