Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

AFTER THREE MONTHS.

RILEY.

I grunted loudly as the rays of the sun beamed on my face, waking me up from my sleep. I threw my forearm over my face and covered my eyes before squinting them to look at the intruder who was fucking up my sleep.

“What the fuck! Close them and get the fuck away from here!” I growled at my Beta as he continued to draw all the curtains open all over my room.

“You need to wake up and get your shit together. You have a visiting Alpha waiting for you downstairs.” Beta Dominic responded calmly, drawing the final curtain before moving to stand at the foot of my bed.

“You can do that! Now fuck off and let me sleep!” I grunted one more time before turning my body around under the blanket and pressing the pillow, on the top of my head, to block off the sunlight.

“I’ve been doing this for the last three months, and this is not right anymore! You need to do your fucking part or you will lose your people! I have allowed three family transfers in the last three months and you’re going to lose more!” His voice was raised, but it didn’t rattle me.

“Let them go! If they don’t want to be in my pack, then they can all fuck off!”

I felt the pillow on my face being lifted up before it flew halfway across the room.

What in the world did my fucking Beta not understand about the term fuck off?

“Fuck you, Riley! Soon I’m going to take over this pack and kick you out of here! Three months! Three fucking months! Andrea is having the time of her life already, and you’re still stuck up here in the gutter! Move the fuck on!

“Who says this is about Andrea? Go away!” I grunted. He was fucking annoying me now.

“That’s the problem! You refused to say anything! You’re not talking! You’re just sulking and doing your own thing! I’m your fucking Beta, but you’ve excluded me from your life! I felt like I was just a fucking puppet running this whole pack because my fucking Alpha is worse than dead!”

I let out an annoyed sigh before turning around, placing my forearm over my forehead as I stared at the ceiling.

“What do you want? A salary raise? Do it yourself. You have access…”

“Fuck you, Riley! I have never felt more insulted than I feel right now. I don’t need your money! I need my Alpha back!”

I shoved the blanket away and got up from laying down. I only had my boxers on, but I didn’t give a fuck. My Beta had seen me naked too, as did the other wolves in my pack. Being naked was nothing unusual when you’re a shifter.

I went to the window and leaned my palm against the window sill, my eyes scanning the ground below. Nothing unusual, just a fucking ordinary day.

“Who’s the visiting Alpha?” I asked in a calm tone.

“Alpha Jacob.”

A growl rumbled in my chest before I turned around, my eyes dilating into black as I glared at my Beta.

“Who the fuck allowed him to enter into my territory? Did you? I’m going to rip your fucking head off!”

“I did. And before you start throwing a tantrum, go fix yourself and face him. We’re fucking lucky this Alpha didn’t give us shit like all the other Alphas when you suddenly decided to cut off ties with every pack around outside of the treaty agreement dates!”

My eyes squinted, but I tried to control myself.

My Beta’s jaw was twitching, and his hands were already coiled into fists. He was controlling his outburst.

Maybe I would push him a little more and maybe he would throw that fucking punch I’ve been wanting to have to numb me from all the pain I feel inside.

Three months.

she left me and the pain still feels like

She broke me like no one else had done. Not even my mother or Andrea broke me this

I still couldn’t

I opened my eyes. I tried to scent her so I could follow her trace, but the rain made it harder for me. I didn’t have anything.

kissed or been intimate with anyone for the previous three months. It was the only thing that was giving me a glimmer of hope. But every day, the

came back. Two full

first month, hoping to

up. Not just on her. I gave up on

pack now stands alone. I was

let him win, but he took it as a joke and moved on. I didn’t know how to tell him I didn’t

Unworthy to be loved. Unworthy

myself into Andrea? Was this the price I had to pay for taking someone else’s mate, that my own mate would refuse

and it snapped me out of my thoughts. My

the Goddess I will cut off your balls and throw them to the rogues. I’m not your

as I picked up the clothes that he threw on me

been under the shower. I just wanted to stay there, but Dominic’s constant knocking was

acting like a

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decent clothes. I’ve been lounging in sweatpants on most days and I rarely stepped down from my room unless it was necessary or whenever I needed my wolf out, but I stayed away

that. I was tired of putting on a brave face when I

male doesn’t take no for an answer. I was pretty sure he would storm off into my room if I didn’t

saw both my Beta and Gamma stand up from their seats and acknowledge my

comfortably on the couch in my office

I told him sarcastically as I strode inside my office towards my office chair, my eyes flying to the clock overhead. It was almost

I can perfectly function as an Alpha even with alcohol in my system. You, on the other hand…” He chuckled before

I waited for him to continue, but he just kept

and both my Beta and Gamma left

want to renew any alliances with your pack.” I told him straight to the point, leaning my back against my chair before closing my eyes. I should be sleeping instead of looking at his

wanted an alliance with your pack? You’re just going

Cocky bastard.

I tried to control the growl from coming out. “So why the

to check how you’ve been

if it matters to

but seeing you now, he was right. I feel fucking bad for

not my fucking father

Is this still about

Why does everybody keep thinking this

“Then who? Or what?”

don’t believe it’s not Andrea,

you fucking explain what’s going on in your head, then I’ll figure it out if it’s about her

pushed me down to my seat. I didn’t have any energy to

out.

So stop the facade that you’re the nice Alpha here. We both know you’re a

so are you. So, no one can

He was standing beside my desk, looking

in them but didn’t find

let out a deep sigh before leaning my back against my