When There Is Nothing Left But Love

I didn’t like kids?

I thought I liked Gregory plenty.

Kids are the best! They’re all a bunch of chubby little things that are just bursting with innocence. Just looking at them makes me feel better.

Did my feelings towards children really change after I almost died?

I looked at the photo of “Scarlett” and her kids. I replied absent-mindedly, “I guess so.”

I thought that might be one of the reasons Marcus and I were separated for such a long time in the past.

I felt a rush of guilt. If I had thought things through, I never would have allowed myself to reach this age without having any kids.

I felt unsettled as if every fiber of my being was fighting against some unwelcome virus in my body. Despite all this, I felt sorry for Marcus as well.

void any longer. I turned to face Marcus. “I want

down the silverware in his hand before looking at me. He explained seriously, “I did look into psychotherapy, and I talked to some doctors. Psychotherapy is more suited to patients who have difficulty overcoming emotional

orders. After he left, Marcus continued, “Why did you suddenly think of seeing a psychiatrist? Did

moment before lowering my head in despair. “I just want to recover my old

a contemplative silence. He said, “Since you’ve made up your mind, I’ll support your decision. We can contact a psychiatrist when we get home later. I’m still going to give

I looked at him hopefully. No matter how small the opportunity, I had to try to regain

Marcus coaxed, a

by the time we finished dinner. There

plenty of rain to K City, which was

we walked to the car. Marcus focused on driving slowly in this weather. From time to time, he’d bring up

city. Marcus stepped on the brakes, but the car continued moving no matter how hard he pressed on them. In fact,

at such a high speed that the brake wouldn’t catch. The car shot past a red light like