Bad Love An Alpha’s Regret

Chapter 85

“No. That’s not possible.”

He quirks his head. “Stop me if I’m wrong, but I’m pretty sure your former husband would have s*x with you.”

Yes. All the time.

Sometimes multiple times. Daily.

I gulp.

My hands instinctively go to my stomach.

Adam’s gaze goes to the cooler across the room where he’s storing my chemotherapy then back to me.

“I, uh, can’t take the drugs to ki ll the ca ncer without k illing my baby.”

He frowns. His eyes are so kind. But the pity I see there… it ki lls

“This particular ca ncer…no.”

tug out my hair tie and

his

say I put off treatments. If I can carry the baby to five or six

that long… the ca ncer will have spread completely. You’d be down to days left on your life, and even if we started chemo, it’d be too

pu ke

unnerved him. “I’ll confer with Dr. Henley. We

across the table and still his hand. “Hey. We both knew this was a longshot. Can we transfer the embryo? Maybe find a surrogate?”

accept that I’m going to di e, but I can’t bury the compulsion to

fetus

or something, it’s actually easier because once the embryo is implanted, it either takes or it doesn’t. You already have a successful pregnancy. Attempting a uterine procedure can complicate or terminate that. There isn’t enough science. Even at four or five months, we can do more with a premature delivery. The first trimester is a time when most pregnancies either

to the nth degree.

time?” I ask

But if you delay your treatments that

There won’t be any

started aggressive chemo and radiation immediately. And that was before the

to abort. We can start treatments. There is still a

“No,” I whisper.

“Please.”

ask more questions, but Adam looks positively frazzled, and I’m not even sure

we keep this

for the first time, I wonder what my life would be like if I’d grown up