Bad Love An Alpha’s Regret

Chapter 309

My whole body goes cold as I hear Aaron’s order for the doctor.

Well, colder than I already felt, anyway.

It’s like there’s ice water in my veins instead of blood.

I wonder if that’s better or worse than the white–hot lava of rage that’d been boiling through my body since Aaron told me he was leaving and I saw that bitch, Leah, who just keeps ruining my life over and over.

Axel helps me to my feet and then leads me over to the bed.

“That won’t be necessary,” Axel says in a clipped tone, and I can practically feel him standing protectively over me. “She’s calm now. She won’t get angry like that again, will you, Emily?”

The way he says my name–almost making it sound exotic when it’s plain as Jane–makes me shiver and I quickly shake my head, avoiding the judging gazes of both Aaron and the doctor.

“She did cut her hands, though,” Axel continues, tone a little more reasonable now it seems like Aaron’s not about to sedate me into oblivion. “So maybe the Doc can take a look at that.”

The doctor looks questioningly at Aaron, waiting for permission, only moving toward me when Aaron gives a single nod.

eyes are ghillering with his wolf.

Anger is practically radiating off him.

I know he’s upset about what I did–attacking his wife and mate, the woman who is technically my Luna and the one I should look to above all other female pack members–but I think he’s also pissed at what he overheard.

About Axel being my mate and rejecting me.

I wonder what Aaron is angrier about.

The fact that someone like Axel is my mate in the first place, or that Axel rejected me out of hand without even giving us a chance to know one another?

on Axel honoring the mating bond after

can’t decide if I’m intrigued or terrified by

I remember how Axel felt when he pinned me down in the hallway and clamped his teeth into the back of my neck

could want someone who has treated me so terribly. Someone who hasn’t bothered hiding

on top of

of him

and let him do whatever he wanted

was a weakness to want that.

a weakness to want to

I’ve spent enough years being weak

turned that want into more anger.

myself in the

becoming the monster on the outside

furious and hateful toward myself.

this, I knew, wouldn’t inspire Aaron

all of my responsibilities over to Jessica when he left, because I’d demonstrated

I’d slowly but surely felt more comfortable with members of the pack

being brought back to

it’s dangerous to

these

have to work out where to go and what I’m going to do, because I can’t stay here hiding what I am for the rest of my life.

day soon, I might lose control even worse than I did today, and I know I wouldn’t be able to live with

hands and says the wounds are superficial and should heal quickly enough on their

checks me over while Aaron and Axel stand

Aaron’s judgement and disappointment settling on my

the doctor finishes, he turns to Aaron and tells him I seem fine now, as though I’m not

of sedative with Axel,”

though I’m sure I don’t want to hear