Bad Love An Alpha’s Regret

Chapter 309

My whole body goes cold as I hear Aaron’s order for the doctor.

Well, colder than I already felt, anyway.

It’s like there’s ice water in my veins instead of blood.

I wonder if that’s better or worse than the white–hot lava of rage that’d been boiling through my body since Aaron told me he was leaving and I saw that bitch, Leah, who just keeps ruining my life over and over.

Axel helps me to my feet and then leads me over to the bed.

“That won’t be necessary,” Axel says in a clipped tone, and I can practically feel him standing protectively over me. “She’s calm now. She won’t get angry like that again, will you, Emily?”

The way he says my name–almost making it sound exotic when it’s plain as Jane–makes me shiver and I quickly shake my head, avoiding the judging gazes of both Aaron and the doctor.

“She did cut her hands, though,” Axel continues, tone a little more reasonable now it seems like Aaron’s not about to sedate me into oblivion. “So maybe the Doc can take a look at that.”

The doctor looks questioningly at Aaron, waiting for permission, only moving toward me when Aaron gives a single nod.

eyes are ghillering with his wolf.

Anger is practically radiating off him.

I know he’s upset about what I did–attacking his wife and mate, the woman who is technically my Luna and the one I should look to above all other female pack members–but I think he’s also pissed at what he overheard.

About Axel being my mate and rejecting me.

I wonder what Aaron is angrier about.

The fact that someone like Axel is my mate in the first place, or that Axel rejected me out of hand without even giving us a chance to know one another?

if Aaron insists on Axel honoring the

decide if I’m intrigued or terrified by the idea.

I remember how Axel felt when he pinned me down in the hallway and clamped his teeth into the back of my neck to subdue me and

who has treated me so terribly. Someone who hasn’t bothered hiding the fact that

top of me–the

scent of him inundating my senses–all I’d wanted to do was submit.

him and let him do whatever he wanted to me.

was a weakness to want that.

want to kiss him just now.

I’ve spent enough years being

turned that want

seen myself in the mirror.

how close I was to becoming the monster on the outside that I was hiding on the inside.

I’d only been furious and hateful toward myself.

wouldn’t inspire Aaron to

hand all of my responsibilities over to Jessica when he left, because I’d demonstrated yet again how I couldn’t handle

members of the pack over the last few days, parts of me that I’d thought

brought back to life.

to

actually think I belong here among these wolves, with this

where to go and what I’m going to do, because I can’t stay here hiding what I am

control even worse than I did today, and I know I wouldn’t be

my hands and says the wounds are superficial and should heal quickly

over while Aaron and Axel

can practically feel Aaron’s judgement and

I seem

you to leave several doses of sedative with Axel,”

though I’m sure I don’t want to