Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

Standing outside of Xander's changing room. I know he is inside, as I can hear his heartbeat and I'm right outside his door, cowardly hiding my scent so he can't tell that it's me, standing out here

a stalker.

How do I even look at him? How do I face him after what I have just been told?

The door opens to reveal a shirtless Xander. He looks down at me, at my tear stained face as he gently grabs my hand.

"Sabrina? What's wrong baby?" He asks me. I throw my arms around him as I start to sob again.

Xander stays silent, holding me tightly as I broke down, my insides were at war. Even though Athena and I love Xander, it was no secret that my body called for Aiden. I fight it day in and day out, happy to do so as long as I did not have outside obstacles fighting me too.

'They aren't wrong though. You are not above Sacred law and if you don't obey it, why should they?' Athena says to me.

No, they are right. I was so mad at Percy for going against the very law I am fighting.

I admit, I've been the world's biggest hypocrite. I just love Xander and I don't really embrace change, I can't embrace it and can I be blamed though? I never get to enjoy the pleasures I'm given long enough before they are taken away from me.

I pull away from Xander and look him in the eyes.

"We need to talk and you won't like what I have to say. I don't like it but I don't know what to do and I need your calm nature and logic around this. I need alpha Xander and my mate at the same time." I say and he leads me in to his room before closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Sabrina?" He asks again.

"I just had a conversation with my mother and Josey." I say as I scratch the back of my head.

Xander looks at me, his face not revealing much.

"Xander, they won't accept us. With me going against sacred law and staying with you. I feel so defeated, so drained. I did everything they wanted me to do and now they want to take you away from me. I don't know what to do." I blurt out really fast.

"Hold on, say that again but really slowly." Xander says to me, squeezing my hand.

"They say we can't be together." I say and he doesn't seem shocked. Xander let's go of my hand and steps back from me.

"We knew this would happen Sabrina. It's actually pretty stupid to think we could get away with it." Xander says to me. He turns around, his back to me.

"Sacred law. How dare we think we are anywhere above it? I know you know I've been struggling with you being someone else's mate." Xander says to me.

"I know...." I say sadly. I've known for a long time.

my upbringing, the law engrained in my head, I can't help but struggle with the decision we made to stay together. I know I said I'd rather die than lose you..."

it!" I scream at him and he closes his eyes to fight back the tears that

I refuse to

you hear what you are saying?"

Living in the heavenly realm, taking Adrastos with you, who will I stay with?" He asks. I don't respond because he

was no way of him visiting, finding a

feelings inside of me that I thought were long buried with the burial of my first mate. I loved again and goddess that's a great feeling but I will not be mentally strong enough to live on without you or our son. How will my wolf survive it? The loss of the

go. The only way that will happen is if I die, otherwise there is no way I am letting you go just like that." Xander says

fall to my knees and break out in sobs. I didn't hear the

even smell a familiar scent pull me up and in for a hug. As soon

My dear brother.

overheard. I'm so sorry Sabrina." Cj says to me and

says walking in on Cj and

me

say things you can never take back. Everyone else is against your union, don't be at odds with

you as well Sabrina." He

he's just

us and now I've put

great love Sabrina. I don't want to love anyone else, I don't want to be

to be with you and chose to give you my heart. That's different. No goddess or pull forced me to be with you, I chose you and I will do it over and over

never mine but I got the chance to be with you and hold you every night

He was right.

love was definitely unique, different and we worked. That's why I was

don't want this to end." I say and he

silly of us to think a love like ours will last forever."

Sabrina, you know that and it developed quicker than we both planned. The imprinting, my love for Adrastos who happens to be someone

to carry the world on your shoulders, we will find a way to each other." He says and I remain

will find it disrespectful and force me in to being with Aiden by killing you. Aiden's brother told me that himself." I say and Xander raises an eyebrow at

asks and I

about up in the heavenly realm." I say

in the way of true love. I'm just a weak earthling to them" He says and

my first love!" I

and I don't care what sacred law says. I'm the moon goddess for fucks sake! The daughter from the first family

can't do that. The sacred law is in place for a reason and you can't

guy. They wanted him dead but instead he was

to be angry Sabrina, I want to be but I'm more angry at myself. How long did we actually think we would get away with this? Knowing there is no rejection in the heavenly realm... what, was he