Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

Standing outside of Xander's changing room. I know he is inside, as I can hear his heartbeat and I'm right outside his door, cowardly hiding my scent so he can't tell that it's me, standing out here

a stalker.

How do I even look at him? How do I face him after what I have just been told?

The door opens to reveal a shirtless Xander. He looks down at me, at my tear stained face as he gently grabs my hand.

"Sabrina? What's wrong baby?" He asks me. I throw my arms around him as I start to sob again.

Xander stays silent, holding me tightly as I broke down, my insides were at war. Even though Athena and I love Xander, it was no secret that my body called for Aiden. I fight it day in and day out, happy to do so as long as I did not have outside obstacles fighting me too.

'They aren't wrong though. You are not above Sacred law and if you don't obey it, why should they?' Athena says to me.

No, they are right. I was so mad at Percy for going against the very law I am fighting.

I admit, I've been the world's biggest hypocrite. I just love Xander and I don't really embrace change, I can't embrace it and can I be blamed though? I never get to enjoy the pleasures I'm given long enough before they are taken away from me.

I pull away from Xander and look him in the eyes.

"We need to talk and you won't like what I have to say. I don't like it but I don't know what to do and I need your calm nature and logic around this. I need alpha Xander and my mate at the same time." I say and he leads me in to his room before closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Sabrina?" He asks again.

"I just had a conversation with my mother and Josey." I say as I scratch the back of my head.

Xander looks at me, his face not revealing much.

"Xander, they won't accept us. With me going against sacred law and staying with you. I feel so defeated, so drained. I did everything they wanted me to do and now they want to take you away from me. I don't know what to do." I blurt out really fast.

"Hold on, say that again but really slowly." Xander says to me, squeezing my hand.

"They say we can't be together." I say and he doesn't seem shocked. Xander let's go of my hand and steps back from me.

"We knew this would happen Sabrina. It's actually pretty stupid to think we could get away with it." Xander says to me. He turns around, his back to me.

"Sacred law. How dare we think we are anywhere above it? I know you know I've been struggling with you being someone else's mate." Xander says to me.

"I know...." I say sadly. I've known for a long time.

we made to stay together. I know I said I'd rather die than lose you..." Xander

at him and he closes his eyes to fight back the tears that were threatening

refuse to survive losing another

to what? Kill yourself? Xander do you hear what you are saying?" I

good as dead Sabrina. Living in the heavenly realm, taking Adrastos with you, who will I

was no way of him

time and gave me hope again. You opened up feelings inside of me that I thought were long buried with the burial of my first mate. I loved again and goddess that's a great feeling but I will not be mentally strong enough to live on without you

life. Losing a mate is not easy Sabrina, especially when you feel them die and now I have to let you go. The only way that

in sobs. I didn't hear the door open and

scent pull me up and in for a hug. As soon as my head

My dear brother.

of overheard. I'm so sorry Sabrina." Cj says to me and

says walking

away from me and turns to face

At least talk about it before you both say things you can never take back. Everyone else is against your union, don't be at odds with each other." Cj says to

well Sabrina." He says before walking out

Xander and he's just standing, staring back

did this to us and now I've

love Sabrina. I don't want to love anyone else, I don't want

to be with you and chose to give you my heart. That's different. No goddess or pull forced me to be with you, I chose you and I will do it over and over again because I love you. I

You were never mine but I got the chance to

He was right.

worked. That's why I was willing to go against the very law we

this to end." I

us to think a love like ours will

and it developed quicker than we both planned. The imprinting, my love for

peace. Maybe in another lifetime, where you are not immortal and you don't have to carry

find it

and I let out a

girl's talk about up in the heavenly realm." I say and Xander

Sabrina, they are right to want to kill me. I'm standing in the way of true love. I'm just a weak earthling to them" He says and I shake

You are my first love!" I say pulling away

care what sacred law says. I'm the moon goddess for fucks sake! The daughter from the first family so why can't I change

know you can't do that. The sacred law is in place for a reason and you can't change the

the good guy. They wanted him dead but instead he

but I'm more angry at myself. How long did we actually think we would get away with this? Knowing there is no rejection in the heavenly realm... what, was he waiting for me to die so he could claim you?" Xander asks and I