Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

Standing outside of Xander's changing room. I know he is inside, as I can hear his heartbeat and I'm right outside his door, cowardly hiding my scent so he can't tell that it's me, standing out here

a stalker.

How do I even look at him? How do I face him after what I have just been told?

The door opens to reveal a shirtless Xander. He looks down at me, at my tear stained face as he gently grabs my hand.

"Sabrina? What's wrong baby?" He asks me. I throw my arms around him as I start to sob again.

Xander stays silent, holding me tightly as I broke down, my insides were at war. Even though Athena and I love Xander, it was no secret that my body called for Aiden. I fight it day in and day out, happy to do so as long as I did not have outside obstacles fighting me too.

'They aren't wrong though. You are not above Sacred law and if you don't obey it, why should they?' Athena says to me.

No, they are right. I was so mad at Percy for going against the very law I am fighting.

I admit, I've been the world's biggest hypocrite. I just love Xander and I don't really embrace change, I can't embrace it and can I be blamed though? I never get to enjoy the pleasures I'm given long enough before they are taken away from me.

I pull away from Xander and look him in the eyes.

"We need to talk and you won't like what I have to say. I don't like it but I don't know what to do and I need your calm nature and logic around this. I need alpha Xander and my mate at the same time." I say and he leads me in to his room before closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Sabrina?" He asks again.

"I just had a conversation with my mother and Josey." I say as I scratch the back of my head.

Xander looks at me, his face not revealing much.

"Xander, they won't accept us. With me going against sacred law and staying with you. I feel so defeated, so drained. I did everything they wanted me to do and now they want to take you away from me. I don't know what to do." I blurt out really fast.

"Hold on, say that again but really slowly." Xander says to me, squeezing my hand.

"They say we can't be together." I say and he doesn't seem shocked. Xander let's go of my hand and steps back from me.

"We knew this would happen Sabrina. It's actually pretty stupid to think we could get away with it." Xander says to me. He turns around, his back to me.

"Sacred law. How dare we think we are anywhere above it? I know you know I've been struggling with you being someone else's mate." Xander says to me.

"I know...." I say sadly. I've known for a long time.

we made to stay together. I

at him and he closes his eyes to fight back

not survive it. I refuse to survive losing another mate." He says

Xander do you hear what

taking Adrastos with

way of him visiting,

the burial of my first mate. I loved again and goddess that's a great feeling but I will not be mentally strong enough to live on without you or our son. How

let you go. The only way that will happen is if I die, otherwise there is no way I am letting you go just like that."

my knees and break out in sobs. I didn't hear

scent pull me up and in for a hug. As soon as my head hit his chest I knew who it

My dear brother.

so sorry Sabrina." Cj says to me and I continue

something.." Xander says walking in on

me and turns to face

both say things you can never take back. Everyone

to you as well Sabrina." He says before walking out and closing the

just standing, staring back at

sorry. I did this to us and

don't want to love anyone else, I don't want to be with anyone else." He

will do it over and over again because I love you. I want to be selfish with

hold on. Which is exactly what's happening with us. You were never mine but I got the chance to be with you and hold you every night in my arms. The moon

He was right.

was

want this to end."

us to think a love like ours will

was love at first sight Sabrina, you know that and it developed quicker than we both planned. The

lifetime, where you are not immortal and you don't have to carry the world on your shoulders, we will find a way

Now I'm told if I stay with you, people from the heavenly will find it disrespectful and force

I let out a

the girl's talk about up in the heavenly realm." I

true love. I'm just a weak earthling

You are my first love!" I say pulling away

and I don't care what sacred law says. I'm the moon goddess for fucks sake! The daughter from the first family

is in place for a reason and you can't change the rules to have your way."

guy.

to be angry Sabrina, I want to be but I'm more angry at myself. How long did we actually think we would get away with this? Knowing there is no rejection in the heavenly realm... what, was he waiting for me to die so he could claim you?" Xander asks