Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

Standing outside of Xander's changing room. I know he is inside, as I can hear his heartbeat and I'm right outside his door, cowardly hiding my scent so he can't tell that it's me, standing out here

a stalker.

How do I even look at him? How do I face him after what I have just been told?

The door opens to reveal a shirtless Xander. He looks down at me, at my tear stained face as he gently grabs my hand.

"Sabrina? What's wrong baby?" He asks me. I throw my arms around him as I start to sob again.

Xander stays silent, holding me tightly as I broke down, my insides were at war. Even though Athena and I love Xander, it was no secret that my body called for Aiden. I fight it day in and day out, happy to do so as long as I did not have outside obstacles fighting me too.

'They aren't wrong though. You are not above Sacred law and if you don't obey it, why should they?' Athena says to me.

No, they are right. I was so mad at Percy for going against the very law I am fighting.

I admit, I've been the world's biggest hypocrite. I just love Xander and I don't really embrace change, I can't embrace it and can I be blamed though? I never get to enjoy the pleasures I'm given long enough before they are taken away from me.

I pull away from Xander and look him in the eyes.

"We need to talk and you won't like what I have to say. I don't like it but I don't know what to do and I need your calm nature and logic around this. I need alpha Xander and my mate at the same time." I say and he leads me in to his room before closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Sabrina?" He asks again.

"I just had a conversation with my mother and Josey." I say as I scratch the back of my head.

Xander looks at me, his face not revealing much.

"Xander, they won't accept us. With me going against sacred law and staying with you. I feel so defeated, so drained. I did everything they wanted me to do and now they want to take you away from me. I don't know what to do." I blurt out really fast.

"Hold on, say that again but really slowly." Xander says to me, squeezing my hand.

"They say we can't be together." I say and he doesn't seem shocked. Xander let's go of my hand and steps back from me.

"We knew this would happen Sabrina. It's actually pretty stupid to think we could get away with it." Xander says to me. He turns around, his back to me.

"Sacred law. How dare we think we are anywhere above it? I know you know I've been struggling with you being someone else's mate." Xander says to me.

"I know...." I say sadly. I've known for a long time.

head, I can't help but struggle with the decision we made to stay together. I know I said I'd rather die than lose you..." Xander says to me and I walk around him so I can better face

and he closes his eyes

survive it. I refuse to survive losing another mate." He says

do you hear what you are saying?" I

be as good as dead Sabrina. Living in the heavenly realm, taking Adrastos with you, who will I stay

him visiting, finding a

me hope again. You opened up feelings inside of me that I thought were long buried with the burial of my first mate. I loved again and goddess that's a great feeling but I will not be mentally strong enough to live on without

to just go on with life. Losing a mate is not easy Sabrina, especially when you feel them die and now I have to let you go. The only way that will happen is if I die, otherwise there is no way I am

in sobs. I didn't

scent pull me up and in for a hug. As soon as my head hit his chest I

My dear brother.

overheard. I'm so sorry Sabrina." Cj

forgot....er... something.." Xander says walking in on

away from me

At least talk about it before you both say things you can never take back. Everyone else is

well Sabrina." He

look at Xander and he's just standing,

this to us and now I've put your life in danger."

by my words. You are my great love Sabrina. I don't want to love anyone else, I don't want to

and I will do it over and over again because I love you.

because of you Sabrina. You could be a fire and burn me and I'd still hold on. Which is exactly what's happening with us. You were never mine but I got the chance to be with you and hold you every night in my arms. The moon goddess herself, how dare I want anything else?" Xander confesses and the tears

He was right.

and we worked. That's why I was willing to go against the very law we

same way. I don't want this

like ours will

it developed quicker than we both planned. The imprinting, my love for

in another lifetime, where you are not immortal and you don't have to carry the world on your shoulders, we will find

if I stay with you, people from the heavenly will find it disrespectful and force me in to being with Aiden by killing you. Aiden's brother told me that himself." I say and Xander raises an eyebrow

asks and I let out a

in the heavenly realm." I say and Xander

of true love. I'm just a weak earthling to them"

my first love!" I say pulling

law says. I'm the moon goddess for fucks sake! The daughter from the first

is in place for a reason and you can't change the rules to

to be the good guy. They wanted him dead but instead he

with this? Knowing there is no rejection in the heavenly realm... what, was he waiting for me to die so he