Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

A few days have gone by and I've kept myself busy with planning the ball plus training. Xander asked for some time alone, to think and clear his head...

I don't agree with the time apart but I'll give him whatever he wants. I can't force him to do anything he isn't comfortable with but I miss him so much.

"Then go see him..." My mother says walking in my room.

"Get out of my head mother." I say in annoyance and she just ignores me.

"Are you ready for your father and daughter dance?" She asks me and I nod my head yes. Hunter and I are finally in a good place so I am actually looking forward to share a dance with him.

"I just wish I could be more excited about the night. This will probably be the biggest night of my life and I won't be able to enjoy it with Xander." I say as a wave of sadness washes over me.

"Was it easy? To leave dad behind with all of us?" I ask looking straight in to my mother's eyes.

"No. It wasn't." She responds.

"My situation is different little moon. I left Christopher to go back to my true mate. You are choosing your chosen mate over your true mate." She says to me and I mentally groan.

"I know he's my true mate, I feel it. I feel the pull but I've gotten so used to fighting it that I'm willing to keep going at it if it means I get to stay with Xander." I say.

"So you're saying you would rather go through so much pain just to stay with Xander? Does he know what you are going through?" She asks and I shake my head no.

"I don't even know what I'm going through. One day my head wants to explode with constant thoughts of him, yearning for him. Some other days my heart breaks over and over again just being far from him but my love for Xander heals my aches and pains." I say and mother let's out a sigh.

"Sabrina, you are using Xander as a bandaid for your glass heart. The pieces will always remain broken and even if you put it together, you won't heal. You will never heal until you are with your true mate. It is actually unfair to Xander, as he is giving you all of him and he's really not getting much of you." Mother says to me.

"That's not true!" I shout out and my mother brushes my arm.

"Sabrina, you belong to someone else. He knows it and it's about time you accepted it. You tried it your way and even though you're the moon goddess, there are some things you just can't control." She tells me and tears prick my eyes.

"You are forcing yourself to love him Sabrina. There's nothing good about that..." Mother says to me and the tears fall down my face.

"Then what do I do?" I ask and she smiles at me.

"Give him a second chance mate. Find him a woman that deserves him and one that will make him happy." She says to me and I pull away from my mother, standing up.

"I will not be doing that." I say. This woman was clearly out of her mind!

"So you're just going to leave him? Leave him to die without an heir? Don't be selfish! Put on your big girl panties and do right by that man, he deserves that." Mother says to me.

I fall back on my chair, shame taking over me.

Thinking of

you admitted your feelings for him, to yourself. There's no need to fight them anymore Sabrina.." Mother tells me as she walks away

kid, don't force yourself to hate him. He doesn't deserve that either because he did

Aiden.

thought of him makes me giddy and I hate it!

let him die. Give him the love he deserves before someone kills him and we both know he will let them just to escape the misery of losing you...' Athena

Xander's eyes one last time and tell him how I really feel.

door was broken and I rush in to see two bodies

too strong for

wrapping her hand

on the wall and again, hitting his head on the wall as he suffocates, clawing at my hand to let

I drop

heal him immediately without thinking. Not paying attention that the stranger had long run off

say to myself but out loud.

"What's started?" He asks.

I say cupping his face with my one hand. I knew now that my mother

Adrastos might take over but he's part of the first family and goddess knows what's

before stepping back from him. I need to look at him, in all his shirtless glory

interrupts my perverted mind, snapping

know you need to go out there now but please don't die on me. Just give me one more night with you, one last night in your arms and then you can let me go. I can't force you to go against everything you believe in and being with you is putting your

walk up to him, wrapping my arms around his

as our tongues wrestle. Another knock has us

on fire. I let him go as he walks

to an end and I'm far from ready to let it

wolves who appear

need you two to protect Xander against all werewolves from the heavenly realm. If anyone tries to kill him, you do whatever it takes to save him." I order them and they walk away from me,

Aiden, who pulls my hand and drags

the fuck?" I ask in

allow any of this to go on." He

I want this? I want none of

I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to fight but I'm not strong enough to keep

his hand as

you was not the end goal. I'm working on it

again and I nod

you until I can guarantee Xander's life and find him a mate. Give me today to fix this okay?" I ask and he nods, pulling

of today's worries, the burdens ease off me

I pull away from him and the guilt takes over me for being in Xander's

get out of here." I say and he nods his head in agreement. I walk the opposite direction of him without saying goodbye, disappearing off back to the castle to find Evan,

say and he nods his head as we walk together