Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

A few days have gone by and I've kept myself busy with planning the ball plus training. Xander asked for some time alone, to think and clear his head...

I don't agree with the time apart but I'll give him whatever he wants. I can't force him to do anything he isn't comfortable with but I miss him so much.

"Then go see him..." My mother says walking in my room.

"Get out of my head mother." I say in annoyance and she just ignores me.

"Are you ready for your father and daughter dance?" She asks me and I nod my head yes. Hunter and I are finally in a good place so I am actually looking forward to share a dance with him.

"I just wish I could be more excited about the night. This will probably be the biggest night of my life and I won't be able to enjoy it with Xander." I say as a wave of sadness washes over me.

"Was it easy? To leave dad behind with all of us?" I ask looking straight in to my mother's eyes.

"No. It wasn't." She responds.

"My situation is different little moon. I left Christopher to go back to my true mate. You are choosing your chosen mate over your true mate." She says to me and I mentally groan.

"I know he's my true mate, I feel it. I feel the pull but I've gotten so used to fighting it that I'm willing to keep going at it if it means I get to stay with Xander." I say.

"So you're saying you would rather go through so much pain just to stay with Xander? Does he know what you are going through?" She asks and I shake my head no.

"I don't even know what I'm going through. One day my head wants to explode with constant thoughts of him, yearning for him. Some other days my heart breaks over and over again just being far from him but my love for Xander heals my aches and pains." I say and mother let's out a sigh.

"Sabrina, you are using Xander as a bandaid for your glass heart. The pieces will always remain broken and even if you put it together, you won't heal. You will never heal until you are with your true mate. It is actually unfair to Xander, as he is giving you all of him and he's really not getting much of you." Mother says to me.

"That's not true!" I shout out and my mother brushes my arm.

"Sabrina, you belong to someone else. He knows it and it's about time you accepted it. You tried it your way and even though you're the moon goddess, there are some things you just can't control." She tells me and tears prick my eyes.

"You are forcing yourself to love him Sabrina. There's nothing good about that..." Mother says to me and the tears fall down my face.

"Then what do I do?" I ask and she smiles at me.

"Give him a second chance mate. Find him a woman that deserves him and one that will make him happy." She says to me and I pull away from my mother, standing up.

"I will not be doing that." I say. This woman was clearly out of her mind!

"So you're just going to leave him? Leave him to die without an heir? Don't be selfish! Put on your big girl panties and do right by that man, he deserves that." Mother says to me.

I fall back on my chair, shame taking over me.

Thinking of Aiden and his pretty

need to fight them anymore Sabrina.." Mother tells me as she walks away from me, stopping at

deserve that either because he did not

Aiden.

him makes

him the love he deserves before someone kills him and we

castle, leaving for earth. To look in to Xander's eyes one last

was broken and I

felt strangely too strong for an earthling

before wrapping her

his head on the wall and again, hitting his head on the wall as he suffocates, clawing at

drop the stranger running to

immediately without thinking. Not paying attention that the stranger had long run off without

started..." I say to myself but out loud. Xander looks at me in

"What's started?" He asks.

hand. I knew now that my

the pack with no alpha, no heir. Adrastos might take over

stepping back from him. I need to look at

knock interrupts my perverted mind, snapping

last night in your arms and then you can let me go. I can't force you to

at me with so much love my knees wanted to give out. I walk up

as our tongues wrestle. Another knock has us pulling away from

fire.

I once knew it, was coming to an end and I'm far from ready to

summon my two wolves who appear out of

you do whatever it

to Aiden, who pulls my hand and drags

fuck?" I ask

allow any of this to go

want none of this!" I scream out

and I can't seem to switch it off. I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to fight

grab his hand as a tear

Hurting you was not the

mine." He says again and

find him a mate. Give me today to fix this okay?" I ask and he nods, pulling me to him as he

the burdens ease off me in his

Sabrina but I promise we will be happy together." He says as I pull away from

he nods his head in agreement. I walk the opposite direction of him without saying goodbye, disappearing off back to the castle to find Evan, who

I say and he nods his head as we walk together to