Blackmailed For Love

Elsa I opened the shed door and stepped inside to find him standing with his back to me.

And he wasn't wearing a shirt.

He was doing something on the small counter, so engrossed that he didn't hear me.

I closed the door, making sure not to make any noise and walked toward him.

When I was just a few feet away and I could see him in a profile, I stopped and watched what he was doing.

My heart somersaulted inside my chest and a smile broke on my lips.

His phone was propped up against the wall and a YouTube video for how to make pasta, I assumed was playing as he stirred the vegetables in a pan on the induction stove that he had brought here not two weeks ago, and the reason why he wasn't aware of me was the earphones in his ears and that his attention was focused on the video.

2 I stayed there and watched him.

The way muscles in his back shifted, how the veins in his arms were visible and how handsome he looked as he cooked.

Since the last three weeks we had spent every available moment with each other, making sure that no one was aware of our closeness.

My mother was told that I made new friends in school and I was always spending my time with them.

No one was allowed in this shed, it was exclusively Kristian's domain so no one ever ventured here and when Kristian wasn't caring for his mother or brother he would come here and wait for me.

"Fuck!"

Kristian cursed, making me blink and focus on him.

He glared at the pan as bubbles started to form in the sauce he had poured like it was its fault.

A splash of hot sauce landed on his chest and he picked up a napkin to wipe it off muttering another curse under his breath I walked to him and slipped my arms around him from behind.

He stiffened at first as if he thought I was someone else then he relaxed and I placed my cheek on his back.

"You are early."

He said and I heard him pressing on the buttons a few times and then the sizzling sound of the vegetables stopped, leaving behind a strong aroma that told me some of it had burned.

"I couldn't wait any longer."

I replied and pressed a soft kiss at his smooth back, inhaling his scent in my lungs.

He stiffened at the soft kiss and turned around.

His fingers plucked my arms from around his body and he said, "Let me grab a shirt."

I shook my head.

"No.

I like you like this."

His grey eyes stared down at me and I said, "I promise, I will behave."

He didn't believe me, it was clear the way he looked at me but he sighed and raked his fingers through his hair in agitation as he said, "I was trying to make pasta for us."

I looked behind him and replied, "I can see."

I pulled him away from the counter and pushed him on the mattress on the floor.

I said, "Why don't you sit, I'll see what I can do."

He made a face, looking adorable and said, "It's a waste.

It burned."

I stood up on my tiptoes, my hands on his arms as I kissed his lips.

Like always, his body went rigid as he let me kiss him.

It has been three weeks and he was still not letting go enough to kiss me like he really meant it.

I understood his side, but it was getting difficult for me to hold on to my own reckless affection for him.

I wanted him so much I couldn't explain it, maybe because it was my first love but also because I knew he would be my last love too.

I pulled back and his dark eyes the only confirmation that I affected him darted away from me.

He gave a nod and turned from me.

It took me ten minutes to spoon the sauce and veggies mixture from the pan before I scraped the pan off the burned part that was stuck to it.

Then I poured back the remaining sautéed vegetables and started the induction on low heat.

Pouring the already boiled pasta, I mixed it well and served it on a plate with two forks.

When I turned around I found him asleep with half his body reclining as if he was trying to stay upright.

I could've let him sleep without disturbing him as I knew he didn't always get a full night's sleep but I missed him and he had made an effort for us.

So I walked to him, placed the plate on the floor then woke him up the way I knew wouldn't make him jump like the last time I had made the mistake of callously waking him up by shaking him and ended up with his warm and strong body on top of me.

I wasn't complaining about that part but when I had met his eyes, he had looked close to murder and afterwards the guilt that had gripped him wasn't something I wanted him to suffer with.

He was already so reluctant about our relationship because of our ages.

I hated to see him like that, fighting a battle inside his mind, every moment of the day.

3 I walked around the mattress to his other side and laid down beside him, slowly I took his hand in mine and pressed my palm to his cheek.

His fingers tightened around mine and as he felt my soft touch on his cheek, his other hand touched the back of my hand and he opened his eyes.

At first they were dark and hazy as if he was trying to place my touch then they cleared into a beautiful light grey and he took my hand to press a soft kiss in the middle of my palm.

I pursed my lips and said, "You fell asleep."

He looked at me then at our joined hands, he said, "I don't know how you do it, but sometimes it feels like you're the one with all the maturity between us and I'm just a scared little boy."

I shook my head and said, "Mama said that girls are always far more intelligent than boys ever could be.

We mature early, you know."

He just smiled and I fell in love a little more.

He was right, though… With him, I did feel like I was the one he needed the most.

With the outside world, he was a force of nature.

Cold, closed off and controlling with anger that simmered like a volcano just below the surface waiting to explode, but here with me, he let me soothe his darkness, his invisible demons and he let me sometimes take care of him too.

We ate our pasta in silence, it was a little bit uncooked but nothing like we couldn't eat.

When we were finished, he said, "I wanted to make it for you."

1 I shrugged.

"You did.

I just helped."

I held out the water bottle to him after drinking some.

I offered it to him and waited for him to drink before capping it.

fingers tucked a loose curl behind my

going to make it on my own

closed my eyes as I

softly and kissed

opened my eyes and said,

he wouldn't but then his lips brushed mine in a soft

pull away as I slipped my

"Elsa…"

He groaned.

"Mmm…"

him as I erased the distance between us and climbed

grabbed the back of my neck and he pulled me

heavily, he leaned forward and pressed his forehead against

girl, you have to stop before

that

in his dark hair, clutching him just as tightly as he was

"Because you're underage."

reminded me like I would ever forget

let me! And he always said it like it was something he

chest as I said, "Didn't we just discuss how

and he

such a pain in

know if he sent you as a gift or another

it around, and it won't be

"Shut up."

then laid down with me

of him, hearing his heartbeat in my ear, I smiled to

I couldn't wait for my eighteenth birthday,

and when my sixteenth birthday comes in a month or so,

of his smooth skin, making him go tense

arm,

the scar on his

"What is this? How did

his arm

"Kristian?"

"Someone broke my arm."

at his face as I asked in

"Deliberately?"

met mine

pain and

my

3 "No…."

I was horrified.

a boy who was just eleven and looking at him even now sometimes he looked so lost which made me think how he used to

my father like her life depends on it

brunt of his anger so it wouldn't reach

"Why? Who was it?"

and visibly let out a long

have to worry about

no longer a young boy who can't protect

"You shouldn't have to…"

eye and said, "Your tears are too

hadn't even realized I was

enough when it comes to

will cry a river if

said with a

smiled and lightly rubbed my bottom lip with his

what about

do

me you

I laughed.

a promise when I know I would break it at

closed his eyes and said,

I shook

even the invisible ones, but

how much I

I will break his walls and love him the way I want to Elsa I opened the shed door and stepped inside to find him standing with his back to

he wasn't

something on the small counter, so engrossed that he didn't

sure not to make any noise and

feet away and I could see him in a

my chest and a smile

pan on the induction stove that he had brought here not two weeks ago, and the reason why he wasn't aware of me was the earphones in his ears and that his attention was

stayed there

veins in his arms were visible and how handsome he looked as

available moment with each other, making sure that no one was aware of

in school and I was always spending my

it was exclusively Kristian's domain so no one ever ventured here and when Kristian wasn't caring for

"Fuck!"

me blink and

to form in the sauce he

splash of hot sauce landed on his chest and he picked up a napkin to wipe it off muttering another curse under his breath I walked to him and

someone else then he relaxed and I

"You are early."

said and I heard him pressing on the buttons a few times and then the sizzling sound of the vegetables stopped, leaving behind a strong aroma that told me some

wait any

soft kiss at his smooth back, inhaling his scent in

stiffened at the soft kiss and

around his body and he said, "Let me grab a

I shook my head.

"No.

you

at me and I said,

was clear the way he looked at me but he sighed and raked his

and replied, "I can

from the counter and

you sit, I'll see

face, looking adorable and said, "It's

It burned."

up on my tiptoes, my hands on his arms as I

his body went rigid as he

still not letting go

his side, but it was getting difficult for me to hold on to my

because it was my first love but also because I knew he would be my last

and his dark eyes the only confirmation that I affected

nod and

to spoon the sauce and veggies mixture from the pan before I scraped the pan off

sautéed vegetables

it well

I found him asleep with half his body reclining as if he

he didn't always get a full night's sleep but I missed him and he had made

way I knew wouldn't make him jump like the last time I had made the mistake of callously

he had looked close to murder and afterwards the guilt that had gripped him wasn't something I wanted him

was already so reluctant about

that, fighting a battle inside his mind, every

laid down beside him, slowly I took his

cheek, his other hand

place my touch then they cleared into a beautiful light grey and he took my hand to press a soft kiss in the middle

pursed my lips and

you do it, but sometimes it feels like you're the one with all the maturity between us and I'm just