Blackmailed For Love

Elsa I opened the shed door and stepped inside to find him standing with his back to me.

And he wasn't wearing a shirt.

He was doing something on the small counter, so engrossed that he didn't hear me.

I closed the door, making sure not to make any noise and walked toward him.

When I was just a few feet away and I could see him in a profile, I stopped and watched what he was doing.

My heart somersaulted inside my chest and a smile broke on my lips.

His phone was propped up against the wall and a YouTube video for how to make pasta, I assumed was playing as he stirred the vegetables in a pan on the induction stove that he had brought here not two weeks ago, and the reason why he wasn't aware of me was the earphones in his ears and that his attention was focused on the video.

2 I stayed there and watched him.

The way muscles in his back shifted, how the veins in his arms were visible and how handsome he looked as he cooked.

Since the last three weeks we had spent every available moment with each other, making sure that no one was aware of our closeness.

My mother was told that I made new friends in school and I was always spending my time with them.

No one was allowed in this shed, it was exclusively Kristian's domain so no one ever ventured here and when Kristian wasn't caring for his mother or brother he would come here and wait for me.

"Fuck!"

Kristian cursed, making me blink and focus on him.

He glared at the pan as bubbles started to form in the sauce he had poured like it was its fault.

A splash of hot sauce landed on his chest and he picked up a napkin to wipe it off muttering another curse under his breath I walked to him and slipped my arms around him from behind.

He stiffened at first as if he thought I was someone else then he relaxed and I placed my cheek on his back.

"You are early."

He said and I heard him pressing on the buttons a few times and then the sizzling sound of the vegetables stopped, leaving behind a strong aroma that told me some of it had burned.

"I couldn't wait any longer."

I replied and pressed a soft kiss at his smooth back, inhaling his scent in my lungs.

He stiffened at the soft kiss and turned around.

His fingers plucked my arms from around his body and he said, "Let me grab a shirt."

I shook my head.

"No.

I like you like this."

His grey eyes stared down at me and I said, "I promise, I will behave."

He didn't believe me, it was clear the way he looked at me but he sighed and raked his fingers through his hair in agitation as he said, "I was trying to make pasta for us."

I looked behind him and replied, "I can see."

I pulled him away from the counter and pushed him on the mattress on the floor.

I said, "Why don't you sit, I'll see what I can do."

He made a face, looking adorable and said, "It's a waste.

It burned."

I stood up on my tiptoes, my hands on his arms as I kissed his lips.

Like always, his body went rigid as he let me kiss him.

It has been three weeks and he was still not letting go enough to kiss me like he really meant it.

I understood his side, but it was getting difficult for me to hold on to my own reckless affection for him.

I wanted him so much I couldn't explain it, maybe because it was my first love but also because I knew he would be my last love too.

I pulled back and his dark eyes the only confirmation that I affected him darted away from me.

He gave a nod and turned from me.

It took me ten minutes to spoon the sauce and veggies mixture from the pan before I scraped the pan off the burned part that was stuck to it.

Then I poured back the remaining sautéed vegetables and started the induction on low heat.

Pouring the already boiled pasta, I mixed it well and served it on a plate with two forks.

When I turned around I found him asleep with half his body reclining as if he was trying to stay upright.

I could've let him sleep without disturbing him as I knew he didn't always get a full night's sleep but I missed him and he had made an effort for us.

So I walked to him, placed the plate on the floor then woke him up the way I knew wouldn't make him jump like the last time I had made the mistake of callously waking him up by shaking him and ended up with his warm and strong body on top of me.

I wasn't complaining about that part but when I had met his eyes, he had looked close to murder and afterwards the guilt that had gripped him wasn't something I wanted him to suffer with.

He was already so reluctant about our relationship because of our ages.

I hated to see him like that, fighting a battle inside his mind, every moment of the day.

3 I walked around the mattress to his other side and laid down beside him, slowly I took his hand in mine and pressed my palm to his cheek.

His fingers tightened around mine and as he felt my soft touch on his cheek, his other hand touched the back of my hand and he opened his eyes.

At first they were dark and hazy as if he was trying to place my touch then they cleared into a beautiful light grey and he took my hand to press a soft kiss in the middle of my palm.

I pursed my lips and said, "You fell asleep."

He looked at me then at our joined hands, he said, "I don't know how you do it, but sometimes it feels like you're the one with all the maturity between us and I'm just a scared little boy."

I shook my head and said, "Mama said that girls are always far more intelligent than boys ever could be.

We mature early, you know."

He just smiled and I fell in love a little more.

He was right, though… With him, I did feel like I was the one he needed the most.

With the outside world, he was a force of nature.

Cold, closed off and controlling with anger that simmered like a volcano just below the surface waiting to explode, but here with me, he let me soothe his darkness, his invisible demons and he let me sometimes take care of him too.

We ate our pasta in silence, it was a little bit uncooked but nothing like we couldn't eat.

When we were finished, he said, "I wanted to make it for you."

1 I shrugged.

"You did.

I just helped."

I held out the water bottle to him after drinking some.

I offered it to him and waited for him to drink before capping it.

fingers tucked a loose curl behind my ear and he cupped my

I'm going to make it on my own and

my eyes as

and kissed my

eyes and said, "Kiss

wouldn't but then his

I slipped my arm around his neck and kissed him more

"Elsa…"

He groaned.

"Mmm…"

not wanting to listen to him as I erased the distance between

around my waist as his fingers grabbed the back of

heavily, he leaned forward and pressed

to stop before

why is that a bad

my fingers in his dark hair, clutching him just as tightly as

"Because you're underage."

like I would ever forget

me! And he always said it like it was something

at his chest as I said, "Didn't we just discuss how mature I'm

with affection and

such a pain

you as a gift

can easily turn it

"Shut up."

then laid down

heartbeat in my ear,

I couldn't wait for my eighteenth birthday, I didn't want

him so much, I can't explain it and when my sixteenth birthday comes in

my fingers caressed every inch of his smooth skin, making him go tense and still beneath me but he

my fingers trailed down his arm, a red scarred tissue had me

the scar on his elbow, about six

is this? How

off his arm and brought it back to his

"Kristian?"

"Someone broke my arm."

his face as

"Deliberately?"

dark grey eyes met mine and

in pain and I asked, "How old were

my eleventh

3 "No…."

I was horrified.

at him even now sometimes he looked so lost which made me think how

my father like her life

bears the brunt of his anger so

"Why? Who was it?"

breath and visibly let out a long exhale then smiled

to worry about me, little

longer a young boy who can't protect

"You shouldn't have to…"

left eye and said, "Your tears are too precious to cry for what happened a long

hadn't even realized I was

precious enough when it

I will cry a river

said with a

my

about what

will do

me you won't

I laughed.

can't make such a promise when I know I would break it at the first possibility

eyes and said, "Come

shook my head and

his body, even the invisible ones, but it was a line that Kristian was reluctant

how much I

walls and love him the way I want to Elsa I opened the shed door and stepped inside to find him standing with his back

wasn't wearing a

doing something on the small counter, so engrossed that

door, making sure not to make any

could see him in a profile, I stopped

somersaulted inside my chest and

playing as he stirred the vegetables in a pan on the induction stove that

I stayed there and

how the veins in his arms were visible and how handsome he

every available moment with each other, making sure that no one was aware of our

mother was told that I made new friends in school and I was always spending my

in this shed, it was exclusively Kristian's domain so no one ever ventured here and when Kristian wasn't caring for his mother or brother he

"Fuck!"

me blink and

as bubbles started to form in the sauce he had poured

up a napkin to wipe it off muttering another curse under his breath I walked to him and

stiffened at first as if he thought I was someone else then he relaxed and I placed my cheek on his

"You are early."

times and then the sizzling sound of the vegetables stopped, leaving behind a

couldn't wait

his smooth back, inhaling his scent in

stiffened at the soft kiss and turned

fingers plucked my arms from around his body and he said, "Let me

I shook my head.

"No.

like you like

eyes stared down at me and I said,

clear the way he looked at me but he sighed and raked his fingers through his hair in agitation as he said, "I was trying to make

behind him and replied,

pulled him away from the counter and pushed him on

"Why don't you sit, I'll see what I

made a face, looking adorable and said, "It's a

It burned."

my hands on his

always, his body went rigid as

three weeks and he was still not letting go enough to kiss me like he

his side, but it was getting difficult for me to hold on to my own reckless

so much I couldn't explain it, maybe because it was my first love but also because I knew he

back and his dark eyes the only confirmation that I affected him darted away

gave a nod and turned

to spoon the sauce and veggies mixture from the pan before I scraped the pan off the burned part that was

the remaining sautéed vegetables and started

already boiled pasta, I mixed it well and served it on a plate

I turned around I found him asleep with half his body reclining as if he was trying to

get a full night's sleep but I missed him and he

floor then woke him up the way I knew wouldn't make him jump like the last time I had made the mistake of callously waking him

eyes, he had looked close to murder and afterwards the guilt that had gripped him wasn't something I wanted him to

so reluctant about our

him like that, fighting a battle inside his

to his other side and laid down beside him, slowly I took his hand in

tightened around mine and as he felt my soft touch on his cheek, his other hand touched the back of my hand and he

hazy as if he was trying to place my touch then they cleared into a beautiful light grey and he took my hand to press a soft kiss in the

and said,

you do it, but sometimes it feels like you're the one with all the maturity between us and