Blackmailed For Love

Hi, my name is Anna.

Because my Mama thought it would be cool to name me that because her name was Elsa.

But unlike Mama, I did not have golden, sun-like hair, nor her blue eyes.

My eyes were grey, Mama said that they reflect light and change from bright to dark- I didn't know the difference though, and my hair was as black as a dark night.

Mama said that they were beautiful but sometimes I wish I had her hair.

1 Because I got my hair and eyes from my father.

And it was a subject that my mother rarely talked about or when she did, only when I would insist on it, she would get sad.

You must be wondering, how did I know so much when I was just a five year old, right? Well… I was soon to be six years old, if that helps.

But let me tell you a secret, I was really smart even when I was five.

I knew my multiplication tables up to thirty.

I could add and subtract without using the pencil and eraser.

I knew pneumonia starts with p.

And I knew my grandfather wasn't a nice man.

I knew Mama was worried about me and Gammy.

I knew Gammy was sick and it wasn't just cold.

Also my father's name was Kristian.

3 I knew it because Mama sometimes dreamed about him.

I knew it because I heard Gammy talk to Mama.

Gammy told Mama to ask for my father's help but Mama didn't want to.

I didn't know why Mama never talks about my father.

Sometimes, I felt angry that she wouldn't tell me anything about him.

Sometimes, I felt sad that she had to be the only one to take care of us.

Sometimes I wanted to ask her that she tell me everything about my father and take me to him.

Sometimes, I was afraid that if I met my father, he would take me away from Mama, just like Mama did me from him.

4 Sometimes, I just didn't want to be this smart.

Mama didn't know, because I took my time writing down my sums even though I already knew the answers.

Sometimes, I just pretended to not be interested in reading and studying.

But they were the only things that made sense, not like how Mama pretended to be happy when she was actually sad.

Right now, Mama was standing behind a tree and a tall man was standing in front of her.

I couldn't see him as he was hidden behind a tree so I walked to the edge of the park and called, "Mama!"

But she didn't hear me.

The tall man suddenly turned around and walked away.

I wondered if he was the one she wanted to be friends with.

Was he the one she went on a dinner with last night? Mama had never gone to dinner with a friend before, and it made me feel really sad for her.

I got excited yesterday when I heard that she was going to dinner and it was the reason I gave her my lucky charm.

I hope it worked.

Mama could really use a friend.

Just like I made new ones today.

I looked back to where the two girls were still playing with the flying disk.

Phoebe and Hanna were nice.

It felt nice to be out here and play with other girls of the same age.

I really enjoyed myself.

It felt normal.

first time I had seen such a beautiful park, And it was nice to pretend that everything was normal even though I knew they

would get to stay here longer than the other places but I won't complain if Mama moved us

and she had her reasons, though she never

"Anna?"

Mama and notice her blotchy cheeks

She was crying.

"I live here, Elsa.

I own this building."

anew as he walked away

near the pool and then walked up the stairs to the doors that led inside the

in a

was already standing at the edge of the park

heart felt a hundred times heavy

"Mama?"

swallowed my tears and smiled at

"Come, angel.

up to

have been here for

up and she easily wrapped her arms

are you

She asked.

"I am not, angel."

hand pressed to my cheek and she turned my face to look

cheek against mine and said, "You are

then she didn't say anything else as she

in the kitchen, making herself a herbal tea that she had always liked but

know what we

started to tell her about everything

closed the door behind me and let the tears

what I was going to

in the same building as

fûcking owned the

should've known, nothing could be ever

day in the near

In an elevator.

Outside, in the hallway.

when he dropped in unannounced just

something I wouldn't be able

me for what

out that I hid his daughter, all this time, he would loathe

I would've

was no other choice

him know what happened all those years ago and wish that he believed

I would try again, I'd ask him to trust me and

couldn't not believe

take my daughter away from me

I had one, I was choosing to tell him everything, he had to

day in one of the sundresses that filled my closet, I came out

and

windows and came to

have at ten, she said, "You know… When you were little, you could always sense when I felt upset and you'd just come to me and hug me

looked out

her father's daughter because of the way she looks and

myself, my heart

hand on my shoulder and

She has your chann.

she has

of

"Don't call me that."

I hated that endearment.

pretends to

like you, she isn't getting a chance to enjoy her

and met the blues that were just

said, "I never wanted this

She nodded.

"I know.

like I never wanted

you have a choice,

father isn't

would die before letting something happen

a tear

and pressed my lips tightly until the sob crawled back down