Blackmailed For Love

Hi, my name is Anna.

Because my Mama thought it would be cool to name me that because her name was Elsa.

But unlike Mama, I did not have golden, sun-like hair, nor her blue eyes.

My eyes were grey, Mama said that they reflect light and change from bright to dark- I didn't know the difference though, and my hair was as black as a dark night.

Mama said that they were beautiful but sometimes I wish I had her hair.

1 Because I got my hair and eyes from my father.

And it was a subject that my mother rarely talked about or when she did, only when I would insist on it, she would get sad.

You must be wondering, how did I know so much when I was just a five year old, right? Well… I was soon to be six years old, if that helps.

But let me tell you a secret, I was really smart even when I was five.

I knew my multiplication tables up to thirty.

I could add and subtract without using the pencil and eraser.

I knew pneumonia starts with p.

And I knew my grandfather wasn't a nice man.

I knew Mama was worried about me and Gammy.

I knew Gammy was sick and it wasn't just cold.

Also my father's name was Kristian.

3 I knew it because Mama sometimes dreamed about him.

I knew it because I heard Gammy talk to Mama.

Gammy told Mama to ask for my father's help but Mama didn't want to.

I didn't know why Mama never talks about my father.

Sometimes, I felt angry that she wouldn't tell me anything about him.

Sometimes, I felt sad that she had to be the only one to take care of us.

Sometimes I wanted to ask her that she tell me everything about my father and take me to him.

Sometimes, I was afraid that if I met my father, he would take me away from Mama, just like Mama did me from him.

4 Sometimes, I just didn't want to be this smart.

Mama didn't know, because I took my time writing down my sums even though I already knew the answers.

Sometimes, I just pretended to not be interested in reading and studying.

But they were the only things that made sense, not like how Mama pretended to be happy when she was actually sad.

Right now, Mama was standing behind a tree and a tall man was standing in front of her.

I couldn't see him as he was hidden behind a tree so I walked to the edge of the park and called, "Mama!"

But she didn't hear me.

The tall man suddenly turned around and walked away.

I wondered if he was the one she wanted to be friends with.

Was he the one she went on a dinner with last night? Mama had never gone to dinner with a friend before, and it made me feel really sad for her.

I got excited yesterday when I heard that she was going to dinner and it was the reason I gave her my lucky charm.

I hope it worked.

Mama could really use a friend.

Just like I made new ones today.

I looked back to where the two girls were still playing with the flying disk.

Phoebe and Hanna were nice.

It felt nice to be out here and play with other girls of the same age.

I really enjoyed myself.

It felt normal.

was nice to pretend that everything was normal

to stay here longer than the other places but I won't complain

she had her reasons, though she never

"Anna?"

Mama and notice her

She was crying.

"I live here, Elsa.

I own this building."

stood there shocked and scared anew as he

again near the pool and then walked up the stairs

lone tree standing in a storm and

standing at the edge of the park behind

times

"Mama?"

tears and smiled at

"Come, angel.

go up to the

for a

and she easily wrapped her arms around

why are

She asked.

"I am not, angel."

pressed to my cheek and she turned my face to look

cheek against mine and said, "You are lying,

didn't say anything else as she hugged

reached the apartment I found Mom in the kitchen, making herself a herbal tea that she had always liked but now

know

tell her about everything she did downstairs, and made

and let the

was going to do

in the same

owned

could be ever

one day in the near future he would

In an elevator.

Outside, in the hallway.

when he dropped in unannounced just to torment

be something I wouldn't be able to

hated me for what I

that I hid his

would've to tell

no other

let him know what happened all those years ago and wish that

and decided that I would try again, I'd ask him

couldn't not

my daughter away from me

choice! And now when I had one, I was choosing to tell him everything, he had to consider it

having a shower and dressing up for the day in one of the sundresses that filled my closet, I came out into the living room to find my little

was smiling and

near the windows and came

"You know… When you were little, you

looked out

is her father's daughter because of the way she

myself, my

my shoulder and said,

She has your chann.

she has your

of

"Don't call me that."

I hated that endearment.

and said, "She smiles and pretends to be

a chance to enjoy her childhood,

her and met the

"I never

She nodded.

"I know.

never wanted all that happened

have a choice,

father isn't

would die before letting something happen to his own flesh and

nodded, a tear

quickly wiped it away and pressed my lips tightly until the sob crawled back