Blackmailed For Love

Hi, my name is Anna.

Because my Mama thought it would be cool to name me that because her name was Elsa.

But unlike Mama, I did not have golden, sun-like hair, nor her blue eyes.

My eyes were grey, Mama said that they reflect light and change from bright to dark- I didn't know the difference though, and my hair was as black as a dark night.

Mama said that they were beautiful but sometimes I wish I had her hair.

1 Because I got my hair and eyes from my father.

And it was a subject that my mother rarely talked about or when she did, only when I would insist on it, she would get sad.

You must be wondering, how did I know so much when I was just a five year old, right? Well… I was soon to be six years old, if that helps.

But let me tell you a secret, I was really smart even when I was five.

I knew my multiplication tables up to thirty.

I could add and subtract without using the pencil and eraser.

I knew pneumonia starts with p.

And I knew my grandfather wasn't a nice man.

I knew Mama was worried about me and Gammy.

I knew Gammy was sick and it wasn't just cold.

Also my father's name was Kristian.

3 I knew it because Mama sometimes dreamed about him.

I knew it because I heard Gammy talk to Mama.

Gammy told Mama to ask for my father's help but Mama didn't want to.

I didn't know why Mama never talks about my father.

Sometimes, I felt angry that she wouldn't tell me anything about him.

Sometimes, I felt sad that she had to be the only one to take care of us.

Sometimes I wanted to ask her that she tell me everything about my father and take me to him.

Sometimes, I was afraid that if I met my father, he would take me away from Mama, just like Mama did me from him.

4 Sometimes, I just didn't want to be this smart.

Mama didn't know, because I took my time writing down my sums even though I already knew the answers.

Sometimes, I just pretended to not be interested in reading and studying.

But they were the only things that made sense, not like how Mama pretended to be happy when she was actually sad.

Right now, Mama was standing behind a tree and a tall man was standing in front of her.

I couldn't see him as he was hidden behind a tree so I walked to the edge of the park and called, "Mama!"

But she didn't hear me.

The tall man suddenly turned around and walked away.

I wondered if he was the one she wanted to be friends with.

Was he the one she went on a dinner with last night? Mama had never gone to dinner with a friend before, and it made me feel really sad for her.

I got excited yesterday when I heard that she was going to dinner and it was the reason I gave her my lucky charm.

I hope it worked.

Mama could really use a friend.

Just like I made new ones today.

I looked back to where the two girls were still playing with the flying disk.

Phoebe and Hanna were nice.

It felt nice to be out here and play with other girls of the same age.

I really enjoyed myself.

It felt normal.

it was nice to pretend that everything

we would get to stay here longer than the other places but I

best for us and she had her reasons, though

"Anna?"

Mama and notice her

She was crying.

"I live here, Elsa.

I own this building."

he

and then walked up the stairs to the

feeling like a lone tree standing in a storm and

already standing at the edge of the park behind

times heavy as I walked to

"Mama?"

swallowed my tears and smiled at

"Come, angel.

go up

have been here for

picked her up and she easily wrapped her arms

are

She asked.

"I am not, angel."

to my cheek and she

cheek against mine and

anything else as she hugged me tight, her face pressed against

I found Mom in the kitchen, making herself a herbal tea that she

you know

as she started to tell her about everything she did downstairs, and made my

the door behind me and let the tears fall once

I was going to do

the same building

owned the

known, nothing could be ever this

one day in the near future he

In an elevator.

Outside, in the hallway.

dropped in unannounced just

his anger would be something I wouldn't be able to

me for what I

out that I hid his daughter,

would've to tell

was no

him know what happened all

again, I'd ask him

couldn't not

he couldn't take my daughter away from me after

no choice! And now when I had one, I was choosing to tell

came out into the living room to find my little angel stuffing her face with Oreos and watching another of the senseless cartoons

was smiling and that was

windows and came to stand

opened my mouth but before I could tell her about the appointment we have at ten, she said, "You know… When you were little, you could always

looked out

her father's daughter because of the way she looks

to myself, my heart swelling with

mother put her hand on my shoulder and said, "But she has your

She has your chann.

has your

both of you,

"Don't call me that."

I hated that endearment.

me and said, "She smiles and pretends to

she isn't getting a chance to enjoy her

her and met the

said, "I never

She nodded.

"I know.

wanted all

you have a choice,

father isn't

he would die before letting something happen to

tear escaping my

quickly wiped it away and pressed my lips tightly