Blackmailed For Love

Hi, my name is Anna.

Because my Mama thought it would be cool to name me that because her name was Elsa.

But unlike Mama, I did not have golden, sun-like hair, nor her blue eyes.

My eyes were grey, Mama said that they reflect light and change from bright to dark- I didn't know the difference though, and my hair was as black as a dark night.

Mama said that they were beautiful but sometimes I wish I had her hair.

1 Because I got my hair and eyes from my father.

And it was a subject that my mother rarely talked about or when she did, only when I would insist on it, she would get sad.

You must be wondering, how did I know so much when I was just a five year old, right? Well… I was soon to be six years old, if that helps.

But let me tell you a secret, I was really smart even when I was five.

I knew my multiplication tables up to thirty.

I could add and subtract without using the pencil and eraser.

I knew pneumonia starts with p.

And I knew my grandfather wasn't a nice man.

I knew Mama was worried about me and Gammy.

I knew Gammy was sick and it wasn't just cold.

Also my father's name was Kristian.

3 I knew it because Mama sometimes dreamed about him.

I knew it because I heard Gammy talk to Mama.

Gammy told Mama to ask for my father's help but Mama didn't want to.

I didn't know why Mama never talks about my father.

Sometimes, I felt angry that she wouldn't tell me anything about him.

Sometimes, I felt sad that she had to be the only one to take care of us.

Sometimes I wanted to ask her that she tell me everything about my father and take me to him.

Sometimes, I was afraid that if I met my father, he would take me away from Mama, just like Mama did me from him.

4 Sometimes, I just didn't want to be this smart.

Mama didn't know, because I took my time writing down my sums even though I already knew the answers.

Sometimes, I just pretended to not be interested in reading and studying.

But they were the only things that made sense, not like how Mama pretended to be happy when she was actually sad.

Right now, Mama was standing behind a tree and a tall man was standing in front of her.

I couldn't see him as he was hidden behind a tree so I walked to the edge of the park and called, "Mama!"

But she didn't hear me.

The tall man suddenly turned around and walked away.

I wondered if he was the one she wanted to be friends with.

Was he the one she went on a dinner with last night? Mama had never gone to dinner with a friend before, and it made me feel really sad for her.

I got excited yesterday when I heard that she was going to dinner and it was the reason I gave her my lucky charm.

I hope it worked.

Mama could really use a friend.

Just like I made new ones today.

I looked back to where the two girls were still playing with the flying disk.

Phoebe and Hanna were nice.

It felt nice to be out here and play with other girls of the same age.

I really enjoyed myself.

It felt normal.

a beautiful park, And it was nice to pretend that everything was normal even though I knew they weren't even as Mama tried her best to make it

would get to stay here longer than the other places

for us and she had her reasons, though

"Anna?"

turned around to face Mama and notice her blotchy cheeks

She was crying.

"I live here, Elsa.

I own this building."

anew as he walked away

view once again near the pool and then walked up the stairs to

lone tree standing in a storm and made my way toward

was already standing at the edge of the park behind

a hundred times heavy

"Mama?"

swallowed my tears

"Come, angel.

go up to the

been here for

and she easily wrapped her

why are you

She asked.

"I am not, angel."

small hand pressed to my cheek and she turned my face to

pressed her cheek against mine

anything else as she hugged me tight, her face pressed

making herself a herbal tea that she

you know what

daughter's excited chatter as she started to tell her about

the door behind me and let

knew what I was going

lived in the

fûcking owned the

should've known, nothing could be ever this

then one day in the near future he

In an elevator.

Outside, in the hallway.

he dropped in unannounced just to torment

then his anger would be something I wouldn't be able to

me for

I hid his daughter,

would've to tell

was no other

all those years ago and wish that he

try again, I'd ask him to

couldn't not

take my daughter away from me

no choice! And now when I had one, I was choosing to tell him everything, he had to consider

and dressing up for the day in one of the sundresses that filled my closet, I came out into the living room to find my little angel

and

Mom near the windows and came to stand beside

ten, she said, "You know… When you were little,

out of the

father's daughter because of the

my heart swelling

shoulder and said, "But she

She has your chann.

has

both of you,

"Don't call me that."

I hated that endearment.

ignored me and said, "She smiles and pretends to be the kid we want her to

getting a chance to enjoy her

her and met the blues that were just like

said, "I never

She nodded.

"I know.

never wanted all that happened

you have a choice,

isn't like

die before letting something

a tear escaping my

lips tightly until the sob