Ex-Husband's Regret

Utterly broken
Have you ever felt like your heart has been put in a mincer? That is how I feel right now looking at them. I feel like my heart has been shredded into pieces.

If I could take the useless piece of organ and throw it away then I would. Because the pain that was tearing through me was unimaginable.

I wanted to run away. To look away, but I couldn’t. My eyes were fixed on them and no matter how I wanted to avert them it was like they were glued there. To the loving scene that was playing before me.

I watch as they separate. Rowan’s eyes soften as he stares at the love of his life. I continue to watch as he cups her face in his hands. He brings her closer to him. He doesn’t kiss her, just lays his forehead against hers.

He looks peaceful. Like he’s finally home after a long time. Like he was finally whole.

‘I’ve missed you’ I read the words forming on his lips.

I don’t want to imagine what would be happening between them right now if they had met under a different circumstance. If they had met when we were still married. Would he have cheated on me?

Part of me wants to deny that thought but I can’t be sure. After all, this was Emma we were talking about. Rowan would go to hell and back for her sake.

Unable to take it anymore. I stand up and rush outside.

The moment I get outside the tears begin to fall. It fucking hurt and I didn’t know how to numb or stop the pain. But who could I blame? I was the one at fault for falling in love with a man that didn’t belong to me.

“Please make it stop. Make the pain stop” I beg whichever higher power is there to listen to me.

There is no answer though. No reprieve.

constricting. I couldn’t get enough air into my lungs no matter what I tried.

man that doesn’t belong to you” his

little sister then you can walk your ass back to the hospital where your family is. There is

me cry. I won’t give them the

my words. The shock is etched on his face. I guess he

took him away from her but now they can

out

way ever again. After this, none of you will have to see or

His brows pinched in confusion. “What do

and forget this day ever happened. I’ll cry myself to sleep then wake up feeling refreshed

be by to help with burial preparations, that’s if she even wants my help.

Travis calling my name but I don’t bother to turn around. I just wanted to go

want to deal yet with another person that hated my guts. He was safe, so

get home in record time. Being there alone just reminded me how truly alone I am. I have no one to comfort me or look after me. No one to love

falling down my

seem to stop. If only I could go back in time and change things. Maybe right now I would be

the things about the past. Once it’s happened, you can never

in turmoil. It came as shock to everyone. He was a well known and loved man. So everyone was feeling

ignored his calls. He was probably all loved up and in Emma’s arms

thoughts, I focus on zipping my

Noah’s voice comes from