Ex-Husband's Regret

Shoot out
Nothing about the day spelled disaster. The sun was shining and everything seemed to be well in place as I drove down the familiar streets.

The chapel was fully packed when we arrived. Almost everyone had come to pay their last respects.

I surveyed the place and was satisfied to see everything was in place. None of the others had been much help when it came to the burial preparation. I was the one that was left to shoulder the weight of everything.

I didn’t complain though. I took it as a chance for me to reciprocate what he’d done for me. After all, he had fed me, clothed me and put a room over my head.

The service was about to begin and most people were already seated. I decided to sit on the opposite side. It didn’t feel right sitting with the rest. It especially didn’t feel right sitting next to Emma.

“Mom, why are we sitting here…shouldn’t we sit next to grandma?” Noah asks, pointing at where the others were.

Of course we were getting weird looks but I didn’t care. After all, it wasn’t a secret that I wasn’t wholly accepted by the family after everything that happened.

“Most people are already seated. I don’t want us to cause a fracas” I lie.

He looks like he doesn’t believe me but choses to let it go. The father arrives and the sermon begins just as I feel someone sit next to me.

I tense. I would know his presence and cologne anywhere. I don’t know what he was doing seated here. He should be with his precious Emma. In fact I would prefer if he were there.

Damn I sound bitter. Which I was. Bitter, angry and hurt.

“Dad” Noah whisper yells, which causes a few people to turn and look at us.

I glower at them making them turn back around.

“Can I sit between the two of you?” Noah whispers to me.

I breathe a sigh of relief. Thank goodness for small miracles. I wouldn’t have to be near his suffocating presence.

The moment we do, I feel the tension

this world one day, the question is how will you leave it? Will you have made a difference? Changed it and touched the lives of those that you met along the way? Or will you

around me even care? Whom am I kidding? They wouldn’t. They would probably hold a celebratory feast. The only one who will be affected by my death will

don’t have any friends mostly because I hold myself back. Living under the perfect shadow that was Emma nailed in the fact that I can never be good enough for anyone. I wasn’t as beautiful as she was. S**y as she was. Smart as she

all about Emma. Her pain is bigger than mine. Her happiness is a priority over mine. She always comes first in everyone’s mind while

me

realize that the service was over and everyone was

his deep voice always makes me

him let alone look at him but I’ll have to because for the next ten years we’ll be

but I just can’t look at him. Not when the memory of him staring lovingly at Emma is still fresh

on Noah,

outside we’re bombarded by a crowd of people wanting to give us their condolences. I

father yet

show your face” Emma’s bitter voice

Her face was blotchy and her eyes were red and puffy,

want to

we just bury

that I’m the only one that can

that I am here to stay. You also took my family from me all those years ago but no more. I plan to take everything back, including the man that was meant to be mine”

doesn’t say anything. I’m left shocked

doesn’t have to take anything back because none of them were mine to begin with. The family

down the pain that wanted to drown me, I lead Noah to the place that would be

Travis. They’re huddled together. Looking at them and me you would think

to dust…” the preacher says as they lower father’s body to the

for father to come back to her. Emma and Travis both have silent tears running down their faces as they hold