Ex-Husband's Regret

Shooting range
“So how’s your day sweetheart?” I ask Noal

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The phone is between my shoulder and eat I was trying to maximize by talking to him while doing some cleaning. It wasn’t an easy but at least my shoulder was doing so much better now.

“It’s awesome“” he shouts through the phone almost bursting my ent drums “We just had ice cream and now we are going to the slides, they have slides here and they lead straight to the

ocean”

His excited chanter makes me happy. His happines in my happiness The fact that he is safe and enjoying himself was enough for me.

“That’s great baby…see, I told you that you would have lots of fun”

Giving up on cleaning, I take a seat on the couch. It would be better to finish talking to him first.

“What about you mommy, how’s your weekend?”

What could I say? It was boring as hell. My eight year old son was having more fun than I was. I didn’t have anywhere to go or anyone to hang out with since I had no friends.

My colleagues used to invite me to things but they stopped after I kept turning them down Deep inside I knew they invited me as a formality, because I was there when they were inviting others. Not because they genuinely want to know me or hang out with me.

“Uh, it’s okay…just doing some cleaning” I murmur

I hear him sigh. “Mom, you need to go out and have fun like I am. Since I’m not there, I don’t want you to stay at home all alone”

Why the hell did I feel so chastised right now?

“I will, I just have to finish my chores first” I lie.

After cleaning I would probably just watch a movie and drown myself in junk food. Or I would just catch up on sleep. Both options didn’t seem that bad.

“Fine…I have to go mommy, Pa is calling for me”

“Okay my love, talk to you at night”

“Bye, and grandma says hi to you”

Noah calls mother grandma and used to call father grandpa. As for Rowan’s parents, he calls them

Pa and Ma

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“That’s good be careful on the slides” I say, completely ignoring the greetings from my supposed

mother.

He hangs up after that. Good thing he’s so excited about the slides to realize I ignored his

grandmother’s greetings. Noah is usually in tune and nothing escapes his notice. A character he got from his father, but not today. Today his mind was completely on having fun.

like I had planned, I decide to go through the biology essays of my students. So far the ones I’ve marked

the best

heartbeat lurches when I see Ethan’s name flashing. This was

of me afraid that

you busy?”

guess it hadn’t been a mistake like I had

“Not particularly, why?”

the station’s shooting range. I thought

together”

of the things he said were

would I be

rest of you family is there. They were all advised to train in shooting and to get

just in case they

that was news to me but I guess it did make sense. I mean having a gun when

about

go fuck themselves for all

I come pick you up?” Ethan asks interrupting my

do. Plus this could be fun. Not to mention that I get to hang

again.

“Sure”

there

hangs up and I rush to my bedroom to find

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ten minutes like he said and we

you decide to become an officer of the

comfortable and I felt at ease around him. It was nice. I haven’t felt

another adult for a

dad was killed by a cop” he

would

know, but my dad wasn’t a good man and neither was he a

firearms I was actually

like my dad who thought was untouchable made me want to do the

I was living in a

tell there was something more. The way he talked

his father wasn’t just bad, he was a

who had really

no child needed such parents. Abuse was

emotional.

you

myself back but I find myself opening up to him, something that takes

surprise.

as

teacher. She was everything I wanted my mother to be. She cared, praised me, hugged me when I needed a hug, supported