Ex-Husband's Regret

Shooting range
“So how’s your day sweetheart?” I ask Noal

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The phone is between my shoulder and eat I was trying to maximize by talking to him while doing some cleaning. It wasn’t an easy but at least my shoulder was doing so much better now.

“It’s awesome“” he shouts through the phone almost bursting my ent drums “We just had ice cream and now we are going to the slides, they have slides here and they lead straight to the

ocean”

His excited chanter makes me happy. His happines in my happiness The fact that he is safe and enjoying himself was enough for me.

“That’s great baby…see, I told you that you would have lots of fun”

Giving up on cleaning, I take a seat on the couch. It would be better to finish talking to him first.

“What about you mommy, how’s your weekend?”

What could I say? It was boring as hell. My eight year old son was having more fun than I was. I didn’t have anywhere to go or anyone to hang out with since I had no friends.

My colleagues used to invite me to things but they stopped after I kept turning them down Deep inside I knew they invited me as a formality, because I was there when they were inviting others. Not because they genuinely want to know me or hang out with me.

“Uh, it’s okay…just doing some cleaning” I murmur

I hear him sigh. “Mom, you need to go out and have fun like I am. Since I’m not there, I don’t want you to stay at home all alone”

Why the hell did I feel so chastised right now?

“I will, I just have to finish my chores first” I lie.

After cleaning I would probably just watch a movie and drown myself in junk food. Or I would just catch up on sleep. Both options didn’t seem that bad.

“Fine…I have to go mommy, Pa is calling for me”

“Okay my love, talk to you at night”

“Bye, and grandma says hi to you”

Noah calls mother grandma and used to call father grandpa. As for Rowan’s parents, he calls them

Pa and Ma

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“That’s good be careful on the slides” I say, completely ignoring the greetings from my supposed

mother.

He hangs up after that. Good thing he’s so excited about the slides to realize I ignored his

grandmother’s greetings. Noah is usually in tune and nothing escapes his notice. A character he got from his father, but not today. Today his mind was completely on having fun.

back to cleaning but soon I’m finished. Instead of watching a movie like I had planned, I decide to go through the biology essays of my students. So far the ones I’ve marked have done really well! I don’t mean to brag but I am a damn good teacher and it

my subject being the

My heartbeat lurches

answer unsure, part of me afraid

you

been a mistake like I had

“Not particularly, why?”

shooting range. I thought maybe

together”

the things he said were making any kind of

be

They were all advised to train in shooting and to

license just in case they ever got in

guess it did make sense. I mean having

one told me about this

fuck themselves for all I

I come pick you up?” Ethan asks interrupting

this could be fun. Not to mention that I

again.

“Sure”

I’ll be there in

to my bedroom to find something descent to wear. Seeing we

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minutes like he said and

to become an officer of the

atmosphere was comfortable and I felt at ease around him. It

around another adult for a

a cop”

a bit surprised. “That would turn most people off from being

my dad wasn’t a good man and neither was he a good father.

for selling illegal firearms I was actually relieved. Seeing those cops

thought was untouchable made me want to do

was living in

but I can tell there was something more. The way he

me know that his father wasn’t

my class. Students who had really abusive parents. I try to help

such parents. Abuse was abuse. Whether it

emotional.

made you

hold myself back but I find myself opening

surprise.

as a child. When

She cared, praised me, hugged me when I needed a hug,