Ex-Husband's Regret
Chapter 37
Having a breakdown
The warm light on my faces wakes me up. At first I’m confused as to how I ended up in my room, but then the heavy hand around my waist brings the memories of what happened back.
I start to internally panic so much so that I’m afraid I’ll wake Ethan up. I didn’t want him up now. Not when I was having a nervous breakdown. Not while my head was a mess. As slowly as I can, I
get up and leave the bed.
He turns and murmurs something in his sleep, but he doesn’t wake up. I heave a sigh of relief even as I put some clothes on and pick up my phone from the dresser.
Tip toing to the door, I wince a little when I open it and it creeks. I look back, my heart in my
mouth. I’m immediately thankful when I see Ethan still in bed.
The sheets were down to his waist, exposing his very well defined abs and an arm was thrown
over his face. Swallowing loudly, I leave the room.
I walk down my stairs feeling like I was doing the walk of shame even though I was in my own
house. The soreness between my legs, a testament of how Ethan took his job at remedying my
pain seriously.
The moment I get the kitchen I let loose. All the panic and anxiety I tried stifling in my room
rushes through me like an Avalanche.
“Call down, people have sex all the time” I try telling myself but instead of calming down it only
increases the pace of my wildly beating heart.
I start pacing the tiled floors. Still unable to believe that I had sex with another man. I always
thought that the only man who would ever touch me or see me naked is Rowan. Here we are
though, not only did I let Ethan kiss me, but I also allowed him into my bed.
Tired of pacing, I sit on the kitchen stool. My feet tapping nervously on the floor. What am I
supposed to do now? How am I supposed to act? I didn’t know what the protocol after these type of
things happened is.
Am I supposed to make him breakfast? Would he even want breakfast? Is it something that will
happen again or is it a one nightstand?
I place a hand on my beating heart. I felt like my chest was going to explode. I’ve never done
something like this before. Even if I hadn’t been in love with Rowan, I always believed that I would
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currently not strong.
“You don’t have to love someone to have sex with them…you just have to be attracted to them” A
voice whispers.
I want to argue with it but my phone vibrating stops me. I unlock it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I read the simple message, wondering who could have sent it. That is until I lift my eyes and see it’s from Rowan. I’m shocked and then angry. 4
He has no right at all to send me that stupid message. Not when he has never wished me a happy birthday during our marriage and especially not after the disgusting things he said to me.
I stand up and go back to pacing. I mean why now? Why now when we are divorced? Why today of
all day? A few hours after I have slept with another man.
I don’t think it’s fair to compare two men sexually, but Ethan thoroughly fucked me. Simple and clear. There was passion and heat, something that lacked with Rowan Ethan took me in positions I didn’t even know were possible. I loved that but I also hated it because it proved how stale my
sex life with Rowan was.
The only time Rowan ever took me like that was the first time we had sex and it was only because he thought he was sleeping with Emma, the love of his fucking life.
I always wanted it to be like that between us. Always thought that something was missing. It wasn’t bad, but I just wanted more.
Now after my night with Ethan I realize what has been missing between Rowan and I was the passion. I also realize that it had been missing because I wasn’t who he had wanted
Rowan was holding back even when we were having sex simply because he’d wanted another
to distract myself from the turmoil of what was
birthday.
and make a mental note to reply to
just didn’t understand. Why now? What did they wish to gain
forgiveness?” the same
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a simple word yet
give it to me? How can I forgive them when they broke me? How am I supposed to let it all
I’m the only one who got punished. The only one who got blamed was me. I was the one that was called names, the one that was looked down on. The
all of it. I took the blame even though I shouldn’t have because I loved
I got angry. I can feel the angry tears trying to fall and this time I don’t want
being the bigger person. I lost
guilt broke. No one wanted to see how I was breaking or how I struggled. It was always about
about him. How come I had to break just to keep us working? How come I had to break for them to feel good about themselves? They broke me and yet no one wants to acknowledge that. No one wants to
a dam explode inside me. All the pain that I have been holding back. All the pain I’ve been pushing down I can’t contain
mouth is animalistic even to my own ears. It reverberates off the walls, echoing my torment.
fills the air Mirroring the chaos within my soul. My fragile heart
each passing moment, the anguish that had been buried deep continues to surface up. Clawing its way out
Rowan for what he put me
turn at his
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stands there shirtless He looks at me in shock. The kitchen was
barstools.
on my knees in surrender, not caring if I hurt myself
What’s physical pain compared
let him. He left me with nothing Ethan. I’m empty, so dark and cold. How do I live like that?
carrying are getting
something that wasn’t supposed to stand? That I was living in a waste land that
me. “Let it all go, let the pain go, Ava. It’s the only way” he says and I do
cry my heart out and I transfer all that pain
say a word. He doesn’t
of my past, my unhealed scars, lay scattered on the floor A physical manifestation of the emotional turmoil that had finally consumed
inner demons tear me apart as I breakdown and all the
sink against him. Completely and utterly drained. He gently picks me up bridal style and leads me up the
me
my past sins, I think I’ve already paid enough for those mistakes. It was
done hiding. It was time to come out
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warm light on my faces wakes me up. At first I’m confused as to how
my waist brings the memories
much so that I’m afraid I’ll wake Ethan up. I didn’t want him up now. Not when I was having a nervous breakdown.
up and
and murmurs something in his sleep, but he doesn’t wake up. I
I put some clothes on and pick up my phone from the
a little when I open it and it creeks.
when I see
down to his waist, exposing his
Swallowing loudly, I leave the
I was doing the walk of shame even though I was in my own. house. The soreness between
pain seriously.
kitchen I let loose. All the panic and anxiety
me like an
people have sex all the time” I try telling myself but instead of calming down
of
always thought that the only man who would
Ethan kiss me,
supposed to do now? How am I supposed to act? I didn’t know what the protocol after these type
him breakfast? Would he even want breakfast? Is it something that will happen again or
on my beating heart. I felt like my chest was going to explode. I’ve never done something like this before. Even if I hadn’t been in love with Rowan, I always
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currently not strong.
someone to have sex with them…you just have
voice whispers.
with it but my phone vibrating stops me. I unlock
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
simple message, wondering who could have sent it. That is until I lift
from Rowan. I’m
right at all to send me that stupid message. Not when he has never wished me a
after the disgusting things he said to
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