Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 93

She deserves better.
Rowan.

My eyes snap open. Rays of light hitting me square in the face. I groan in pain. My head was

pounding as if there was someone using it as a fucking drum.

It takes a while to register that I am in my room, in Gabe’s house. It’s something we both did. He

has a room at my house, and I have one in his.

Groaning, I stand up and head to the bathroom. I turn on the shower and step under it. Using my

hands for support, I lean against the wall and try to put my jumbled thoughts in order. I don’t

remember much of last night except drinking.

Fuck! How the hell did I get here? How is it possible that I fell in love with Ava and didn’t realize it

sooner?

The moment the realization hit me, I went straight to the club. I rarely get drunk. I promised

myself not to ever get butt drunk after Noah was born. Normally, I just take a class or two, and

that’s enough. Yesterday, though, I needed it. I needed it badly.

There is no remedy for what I was feeling. No fucking cure. How do you even begin to deal with

the realization that you love the woman that you hated? The same woman you spent nine fucking

years hurting?

I sigh and get out of the bathroom. Feeling like I have aged at least thirty years. I haven’t been this

out of sorts in years.

After getting dressed, I head downstairs. I find Gabe having breakfast.

“Where is June?” I ask, referring to his housekeeper.

“She’s made us breakfast and left. She said that she wanted an early start to the market so she

could get fresh veggies.”

June had a thing against buying from grocery stores. For some reason, she believed that they

weren’t as fresh or organic as they wanted us to believe. She buys all vegetables, fruits, meat,

eggs, and milk from the local market, which is owned by a bunch of farmers.

“How are you feeling?” Gabe asks as I pour myself some coffee.

“Like I’ve been hit by a truck.”

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When I realized that I loved Ava, part of me wanted to rush back to her house and tell her immediately. I would have if my rational side hadn’t won. It was too soon to tell her. She wouldn’t

have believed me at all.

with this new awareness, I was fucking terrified. Is this how

Loving me but also knowing that I hate

“I thought you swore never to get

needed it. I needed to numb the pain. You can’t understand how difficult it was to realize that I love Ava. That all this

have lost my chance with her

up, and she frowns

to let it not affect me because I crave her. I follow her around like a damn lost puppy, begging for any scraps

only way

my hands. What she is dishing out is nothing compared to what I did to her. Yet it still fucking hurts. How the hell did she survive me for

nine fucking years?

me to be completely out of her life for good. I want to

can’t let her

happen? The last time

asks me, looking puzzled.

sure you were in love with Emma.”

that insisted that I had suppressed

remember how adamant he was about that. He wouldn’t

guess he just knows me better than I know myself.

I didn’t want

you loved Ava, but your insistence

was wrong.”

is

to

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the bitter memories. Memories where I had

broke her. My actions and words chipped at her

there was nothing

to be in your shoes” Gabe whistles and I glare at him. “But you still

it happened. When did you fall

the exact time. Maybe it

a recent thing. All I know

through my hair. I was frustrated and

you love someone!

always there. Probably came after Noah was born. I

because you held on to the memory of Emma. She

You can’t live with someone for

have

got what I needed from her while still hating her. I

were times I imagined she was Emma.” I tell him,

treated her. 1

1

Did you imagine you were fucking Emma because you

you back? Something that would guard

you and Ava because you felt that enjoying sex with her would be a betrayal to

of Emma that you held on to for

on the

I

like that. I

would I explain how the hell I was able to

was right, and I used Emma as an escape from what

of my life

with and enjoying Ava’s body? It all made sense in my head

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