Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 105

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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

kiss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me so much? I

just don’t fucking get it, honestly.

wishing I could erase the feel of his

startles me so much that I let go of the

holding.

living day lights out of me,” I

beating heart.

thought you heard us, given Gunner and

boys to find them munching on the cookies that I

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was just a little bit lost in

“Are you still

lie, but he didn’t need to know that I was thinking about

different thing.

are you making for breakfast,

up”

fist up in the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having

breakfast food at once.”

is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma will see

done?” Noah

more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go wait in the

I finish up?”

they say at the same time, before

from me and proceeds to clean up the

we should have given you more time to yourself. It’s

they wanted

that. It’s not that Calvin was a bad cook. He just didn’t

mine.

and brought some

him as I get back

up, all things considered?” I ask

relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner.

away like a dirty secret. After my

I didn’t mind it being just the two of us, but I knew it

Gunner deserves to know

eyes, Travis and Kate weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well, so

was safe for Gunner to

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