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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

kiss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me so much? I

just don’t fucking get it, honestly.

frustration, wishing I could erase the

voice startles me so much that I let go of the

holding.

living day lights out of me,”

beating heart.

thought you heard us, given

to said boys to find them munching on the cookies that I

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okay, I was just a little

slips from his face. “Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday

was a lie, but he didn’t need to know that I was thinking about

different thing.

for

fry up”

air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having all

breakfast food at once.”

happy that he is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma will see the

Noah asks.

few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go wait in the

I finish up?”

the same time, before

from me and proceeds to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry

given you more time to

that they wanted your

Calvin was a bad cook.

mine.

finished cooking and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big deal,”

get back to frying

holding up, all

feel relieved that now

like a dirty secret. After

two of us, but I

his mother had a family. Gunner deserves to

people worth knowing, but they’d

Gunner to be

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