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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

kiss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me so much? I

just don’t fucking get it, honestly.

wishing I could erase the feel of his lips

so much

holding.

you scared the living day lights out of me,”

beating heart.

thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t really get inside

find them munching on the cookies that

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okay, I was just a little

from his face. “Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday with

lie, but he didn’t need to know

different thing.

for breakfast, mom?”

fry up”

his fist up in the air. “I

breakfast food at once.”

him. So happy that he is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma will see the error of her ways and mend her fences with Gunner before

done?” Noah asks. “I’m so

I’ll be done. Why

I finish up?”

at the same time, before rushing to the other

cleaning tools from me and proceeds to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry

have given you more time to

that they

Calvin was a bad cook. He

mine.

finished cooking and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big

I get

holding up, all things considered?” I ask

He pauses. “I feel relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner. He’s

dirty secret. After my grandfather

just the two of us, but I knew it was unfair

family. Gunner deserves to

weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well,

Gunner to be around

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