Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0444

‘My heart aches at the pain that’s still embedded in her voice. I get why she’s still in therapy. Ava hasn’t yet healed completely.

I look back and put myself in her shoes. I never questioned why my parents were how they were towards Ava even before she and Rowan messed up. I just went along with how things were. I didn’t ignore her, but I also never went out of my way to make her feel included.

After the mess with Rowan, I was too heartbroken and drowning in my own pain to care about how cruelly they treated her. In my head, I rationalized it by saying that she deserved it.

“I wasn’t the best older sister growing up, was I?” I ask slowly, as the weight of my mistakes continue to hit me.

“It’s okay, and it doesn’t really matter. I was also not the best little sister and I ruined everything. I love Noah, I really do . and I’d never regret him, but I do regret the night he was conceived. I never meant to cause you so much pain, Emma. Please believe that.” I blink back the tears, trying my hardest not to let them fall. She reaches out and grabs my hand before squeezing it. When 1 look up, she’s also fighting back her tears.

was puzzled. I did everything to cause

even though I hated how you treated me, I understood where you were coming from. It wasn’t intentional on my part, but fact is, I slept

towards me were valid given I loved and wanted him even knowing he I was taken. I was young and immature, but that’s not an excuse. I should have been better.

will always be my biggest regret.” I squeeze her hand. Needing an anchor to tie me to the present. To stop me from drowning in

at everything and I wonder if

much pain. Maybe everybody would have gotten their happy ending. I'm so sorry. I ruined your life and I don’t even know how to help

that she carried such a

mistakes. Calvin and Gunner? How I

want you to think it is. You have nothing to do with my choices or my mistakes.” “But my actions led you to those choices, so no matter how you look at it, it’s still my fault.”