Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0488

Emma

I was back in therapy with Mia. I still can't believe that I went to Calvin's office and apologized. If I am being honest, when it comes to Calvin, I've never done anything so bold before.

*Emma?"

I stop staring at the wall and focus on Mia. My head was still in a mess, but slowly I felt like I was starting to piece things together.

"Yes?"

*You were telling me that you apologized to Calvin," she pushes her glasses up her nose.

The humidifier made soft noises as it pushed the calming scent of lavender into the surrounding air. I felt relaxed. I felt like I was floating. Maybe it was time for me to invest in aromatherapy because, so far, I liked how it made me feel.

hazy stupor. "You made me realize that I was wrong in how I treated Calvin and

did you feel after apologizing

"A bit lighter."

lap. I stare at my nails. They were short and plain. Not my usual well done. I don't even remember the last time

I know there is a 'but' coming. "But, you have to realize that apologizing may not be enough. You have to accept that

forgive or leave Rowan. She chose to forgive him, but even

Mia," say once again, staring at my

Gunner decide not to forgive you? What will you do if they decide against having you back in their

didn't want to consider it. I didn't want to let my mind wander into that territory

I want to be a mother to him. I want to be there for him. It scares me that I might just have

I try to think of an answer. As I try to dig deep and

my lips as something clicks in my head. "You know it's really hypocritical of me to say that right now. If you had asked me this question two years ago, I would have just shrugged and told you it didn't matter. That in the grander scheme of things, it wouldn't have