Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0488

Emma

I was back in therapy with Mia. I still can't believe that I went to Calvin's office and apologized. If I am being honest, when it comes to Calvin, I've never done anything so bold before.

*Emma?"

I stop staring at the wall and focus on Mia. My head was still in a mess, but slowly I felt like I was starting to piece things together.

"Yes?"

*You were telling me that you apologized to Calvin," she pushes her glasses up her nose.

The humidifier made soft noises as it pushed the calming scent of lavender into the surrounding air. I felt relaxed. I felt like I was floating. Maybe it was time for me to invest in aromatherapy because, so far, I liked how it made me feel.

from the hazy stupor. "You made me realize that I was wrong in how I treated Calvin and even though I had acknowledged my wrongs, I've never apologized to

how did you feel after apologizing

"A bit lighter."

lap. I stare at my nails. They were short and plain. Not my usual well done. I don't

there is a 'but' coming. "But, you have to realize that apologizing may not be enough. You have to accept that Calvin may never forgive you and that's

already understand. It's similar to Ava. She had the right to forgive or leave Rowan. She chose to forgive him, but even if she hadn't, it would still have been her right. Her choice. Everyone would have had

at my hands. "I accepted that

and Gunner decide not to forgive you? What will you do if they decide

to consider it. I didn't want to let my mind

to be a mother to him. I want to be there

head as I try to think of an answer. As I try to dig deep and come

know," I finally say. A sarcastic laugh leaves my lips as something clicks in my head. "You know it's really hypocritical of me to say that right now. If you had asked me this question two years ago, I would have just shrugged and told you it didn't matter. That in the grander scheme of things, it wouldn't have mattered to me. Now though,