Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0488

Emma

I was back in therapy with Mia. I still can't believe that I went to Calvin's office and apologized. If I am being honest, when it comes to Calvin, I've never done anything so bold before.

*Emma?"

I stop staring at the wall and focus on Mia. My head was still in a mess, but slowly I felt like I was starting to piece things together.

"Yes?"

*You were telling me that you apologized to Calvin," she pushes her glasses up her nose.

The humidifier made soft noises as it pushed the calming scent of lavender into the surrounding air. I felt relaxed. I felt like I was floating. Maybe it was time for me to invest in aromatherapy because, so far, I liked how it made me feel.

me realize that I was wrong in how I treated Calvin and even though I had acknowledged

did you feel after

"A bit lighter."

thumb my fingers through my hair, before placing them on my lap. I stare at my nails. They were short and plain. Not my usual well done. I don't even remember the last time I went to get my nails done. That's how far I've let

know it's a big step you took, and I am proud of you," she pauses, and I know there is a 'but' coming. "But, you have to realize that apologizing may not be enough. You have to accept that Calvin may never forgive you and that's his prerogative. You can't

to forgive or leave Rowan. She chose to forgive him, but even if she hadn't, it would still have been her right. Her choice. Everyone would have had

once again, staring at my

not to forgive you? What will

for the longest time I didn't want to consider it. I didn't want to

life. I want to be a mother to him. I want to be there for him. It scares

of an answer. As I try to dig deep and come up with a

that right now. If you had asked me this question two years ago, I would have just shrugged and told you it didn't matter. That in the grander