Chapter 0500
Emma
I walk into Mia's office for yet another therapy session. Just like we always do, I first take off my shoes before sitting down.
"Hi Emma," Mia asks, smiling at me. Her smile, just like always, is inviting and warm. It makes you calm and relaxed.
"Hi Mia"
"Okay, you know what we have to do first, right?"
She asks and I nod my head.
I take a deep breath before closing my eyes. I sort through my thoughts. I don't hold onto them for long or dwell on them. Instead, I let them go without trying to dive into them.
I push out the thoughts about Calvin, Gunner, my brother, mom and Ava. I clear my head until there is nothing. Until my head is empty and I am at peace.
Once that's done, I open my eyes.
"Are you ready for us to begin?" Mia, who was watching me, asks.
I nod "Yes."
the last time, you told me you are ready
question bounce in my head
previous firm. They have a branch here in the city and they
been two years since I had a mental breakdown because of guilt and out of nowhere, I quit my job. I never expected that they'd take me back, given that
expected them to turn me away and tell me to fuck off. I was surprised when my senior got excited at hearing me. She immediately accepted my request, even after I told her that I wasn't coming back to
your life back?" Her question pulls me back to the
have to think about it. Gunner is the reason I am doing all this. He
"What about him?"
try to be a good mother to him when my life is a mess now, can I?" I give her a sheepish smile. "I quit my job and moved with my mum while I was basically
something in her note book before
using Gunner and Calvin as a bandaid. I am afraid that you are settling for them since you didn't end up with Rowan, given he
something inside me. I feel offended and hurt that she would think this way about me and
her. No words come out of my mouth. It opens and closes, but nothing. I lack the words to express what I
was my intention. Gunner may be too young to understand everything but if that's what I am thinking, then that's what Calvin will think too. Are you sure that
Rowan are together. He knows Rowan chose Ava. What's to stop him from thinking that the reason I am now begging for forgiveness is because Rowan didn't want me? I've was hang up on him for years, what's to stop Calvin from thinking that my change of heart
because I am settling but because I genuinely want forgiveness and a chance at
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