Chapter 0500
Emma
I walk into Mia's office for yet another therapy session. Just like we always do, I first take off my shoes before sitting down.
"Hi Emma," Mia asks, smiling at me. Her smile, just like always, is inviting and warm. It makes you calm and relaxed.
"Hi Mia"
"Okay, you know what we have to do first, right?"
She asks and I nod my head.
I take a deep breath before closing my eyes. I sort through my thoughts. I don't hold onto them for long or dwell on them. Instead, I let them go without trying to dive into them.
I push out the thoughts about Calvin, Gunner, my brother, mom and Ava. I clear my head until there is nothing. Until my head is empty and I am at peace.
Once that's done, I open my eyes.
"Are you ready for us to begin?" Mia, who was watching me, asks.
I nod "Yes."
told me you are ready to get your
deep breath, I fully focus on her and let her question bounce in my head as I try lock down what I am
have a branch here in the city and they were happy to have me
something I wasn't expecting. It's been two years since I had a mental breakdown because of guilt and out of nowhere, I quit my job. I never expected that they'd
them and ask for my old job back, I expected them to turn me away and tell me to fuck off. I was surprised when my senior got excited at hearing me. She immediately accepted my request,
you decided to get your
think about it. Gunner is the reason I am doing all this. He is the reason why I sought therapy to heal
"What about him?"
now, can I?" I give her a sheepish smile. "I quit my job and moved with my mum while I was basically wasting away in my bedroom.
in her note book before turning back
saying, but I am worried that you are using Gunner and Calvin as a bandaid. I am afraid that you are settling for them since you didn't end up with Rowan, given he was always your
something inside me. I feel offended and hurt that she would think this way about me and about my intentions to mend things with Calvin and Gunner. Content belong
It opens and closes, but nothing. I lack the words to express
can see that I've offended you... That was my intention. Gunner may be too young to understand everything but if that's what I am thinking, then that's what Calvin will think too. Are you sure that you haven't settled for them because the person you wanted chose
so he knows that she and Rowan are together. He knows Rowan chose Ava. What's to stop him from thinking that the reason I am now begging for forgiveness is because Rowan didn't want me? I've was hang up on him for years, what's to stop Calvin from thinking that my change of heart is
I am not doing this because I am settling but because I genuinely want forgiveness and a chance at redemption. I want to be in Gunner and Calvin's life."
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