Chapter 0514
"How did you feel seeing Gunner?" Mia asks, her eyes as always were perceptive. Staring at me like she could see straight into my soul.
Given that I've gone back to work, we've had to move things around to fit my new schedule. Most of my sessions are now scheduled between four thirty and six in the evening.
I already know the answer to that. I don't need to think about it. Thinking about that day, though, fills my eyes
with tears.
*Heart wrenching," I all but whisper the words.
It feels like it's been forced out of me. Out of the deepest parts of my soul. I try to force the sob that threatens to break free, but it's useless. I tears out of me painfully, leaving me breathless.
"How so?" Mia asks, handing me tissue paper.
I take it and wipe the tears falling down my face. It does no good because they keep flowing like a damn river. Getting angry at them for how they keep falling, I ball the tissue in frustration before chucking it in the dustbin.
*I saw it in his eyes, he hated me." I begin giving up on my battle against the tears that kept falling down my face. "There was so much anger reflected in his eyes. So much bitterness."
is still imprinted on my head and heart. They still burn me in ways
*Emma,"
my tears with the back of my
destroyed me, Mia. It destroyed me, knowing that it was my fault. That I am the one that
intensity of my emotions chocks me. Robbing me of the ability
in my dreams. When I wake up, they are there, staring accusingly at me. I see them everywhere I look. Everywhere I turn. I don't
I am worried about you.
deny it. I honestly feel disgusted with myself. How can I call myself a mother when I caused such havoc in my child's life? How can I be okay with myself when I literally brought such emotions into him? Children should remain innocent for as long as they can. They should not feel any kind of hatred, anger, or bitterness. I took Gunner's innocence when I caused him to feel such emotions. "I'm not really happy with myself," I tell her
a second chance?" She
me off guard. I've never really thought about it because it has never crossed
in my head like a broken record. It echoes inside, its haunting melody making me seek answers I never
dig deep inside me to try and find the answer to that question. Trying to find the particular words to
push me or force me to come up with the answer sooner. She
me, and I sigh. "No, I don't believe that I
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