Falling For The Man I Married

Chapter 61: Broken-hearted me

I found him still sitting in the living room. I thought I would no longer see him there. He was in a daze... sitting while looking blankly at the coffee table. And he didn't even notice that I was heading for the door.

I sighed as I was about to open the door but he hadn't even moved a bit. 

Shaking my head, I went back to him. "Gabriel," I said patting him on the shoulder. 

He looked up a little surprised when he realized I was standing in front of him. 

"Love.."

I held my breath after hearing that word. "I have to go."

He stood up quickly and looked at me. "Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?"

"Yeah, don't worry about me. I'm old enough to be careless." He looked at me directly in the eye.

"We are fine, are we?"

I chuckled at him. 

-'Fucking shit! I'm hurting! I am in pain! Do you think I'm fine?'-

"Of course! What made you think we're not okay?"

He shook his head. "Nothing. Just take care." he pulled me into a tight hug, but I didn't hug him back. I just patted his shoulder and immediately pulled back. His scent and that sweet gesture make me want to cry and run away from him. 

"Call me if you need someone to drive you home."

I nodded. "I have to go," I said and walked towards the door, not bothering to look back at him. I opened the door with a loud sigh.

But the moment I took the first step out, tears started to flow down my cheeks. I covered my mouth to prevent the sobs that wanted to escape my throat and ran towards the garage. 

The guards opened the driveway when they noticed my car, and when I was already outside the gate, I screamed. I screamed until my throat hurts. I wanted to ignore the pain and tried to pretend that feeling didn't exist, but I couldn't. Because the more I tried to be okay, the more I felt I was about to break down. 

Tears were blurring my visions, but I kept driving. Sobs after sobs were escaping my throat. It hurts... It really hurts... I don't know how to stop it. I don't even know how to control it. 

-'I thought we were fine! I thought he had already stopped chasing her, but fucking shit! I was wrong!'-

I turned on the radio to distract myself and focused on my driving, but even the DJ wanted to hurt me more... 

***Looking back I could have played it differently.. learned about the man before I fell... but it took time to understand the man, now at least I know, I know him well... 

Wasn't it good..  wasn't it fine.. isn't it madness, he can't be mine. But in the end, he needs a little bit more than me, he needs his fantasies and freedom... I know him so well... 

No one in your life is with you constantly, no one is completely on your side... And though I'd move my world to be with him, still the gap between us is too wide..***

I slammed my hands on the steering wheel. 

hate you! I already know that! Why do you have to shout

the radio. But she's right! I would move my world to be with him, but still, the gap between us is too wide!

the station, and my tears broke out more with

my mind... All my friends say I'll survive, it

think time is gonna heal this broken heart... no I don't see how it can if it's broken all

heart... No, I don't see how it can while we are still

heck--- are you sure I am broken? Am I really broken?" I laughed at myself even though

I have to feel this way? Why do I have to be in pain? And why

I shook my head and dropped it onto the steering wheel. I need to compose myself because

breath and tried to calm

can do it! You

walked my way to the back office as I didn't want to confuse my employees. I know they would ask me

Tony. They both stood up and Tony greeted me. I just nodded and smiled at him

I was left alone with Noelle that has a deep frown on her

Are you okay?" she asked,

"Yup,"

door to the mini-kitchen. I took the pitcher of cold water from the fridge because I believe

said you weren't crying when

from behind. I didn't know she was

"I didn't."

give me a fucking excuse for sniffing all the black peppers in your

chuckled at her. That was my old excuse back in college. I tried to go back to the office and walked past her but I felt her hand

there anything you

and gave her a half-hearted

"Madielyn..."

"I'm okay, Noelle-----"

not okay!" I gasped when she snapped at me. "Come here!" she pulled me back to the office and pushed me to sit on

let's talk about it. Let's talk

told you,

at her and

at my hands. "Well.. she's

She frowned. "Who's pregnant?"

"Stacey."

Stacey as in... Gabriel's

I nodded. 

as her eyes widened. "---don't

again smiling at

she asked and

course, I am! Why wouldn't I be okay?" I laughed at her.

"Madi.."

See--- I'm laughing! If I'm not okay, I

until I can't stop it anymore. I laughed... then after a moment... I also found myself crying in the middle. Then the laugh died.. it was

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