Found by the Lycan King

Chapter 135

Zenovia

Pushing the hair away, he continued when I stepped back.

“So…it took me a while, but I realized I was not going to die no matter how much I fought and pushed myself. But those around me were dying…at an alarming rate. I had to change that. I could not save all of them but a few whom I could, I tried my best to care for them. Slowly, I found the survivors and gathered them to form a pack. I devoted my life to their betterment while silently hoping every day that I would not open my eyes the next morning. But guess what?”

He asked, smiling like a madman.

My heart broke to see him like this and I went towards him, trying to calm him down, but he stepped away again.

“I…I never fucking died. Aisy died, but I am still alive. And… I would not have wanted to live…until I found you.

Callahan said, the last four words leaving his mouth in a pained whisper. I felt as if somebody was squeezing my heart in a deathly grip and I could not breathe anymore.

This. This was his way of telling me that I mattered to him. That he found the will to live…because of me. He had never been good with words, but his admission told me I was not just a random girl crushing on him.

It told me that he felt something as well. And the burden of so many deaths, along with the guilt of staying alive with those memories, made him think he was unworthy of love.

I could not bear to see him so vulnerable.

“I would never let you die, Cal.” I began sobbing bitterly, and ran towards him, my hands holding him tightly. This time, he did not step away or push me back.

And I held onto him like he was the last breath of air I needed to survive.

fear of losing him made my heartbeat race, and I gripped his shirt tightly, coiling my

his chest and I let the steady rhythm of his heartbeat calm my nerves. I could not bear the thought of not hearing his heart

changed me.” He said, and I chuckled despite the tears streaming down my face

my heart to not let anybody come near me.

He pushed the hair sticking to my temples

me all this?” I asked between sobs. I had been begging him to tell me everything from day one, yet he took so much time. I plotted running away from him, hated him and bickered so much with him, called

felt horribly guilty for everything I had done or said to him. He had just admitted

how much he wanted me, and loved me with the same ferocious intensity I

end. The pain of losing Aisy still haunts me to this day. And I did not allow myself to fall for anyone. I was afraid I would lose you, too. So it was better

through the tears. “We both saw how good that plan turned out, right?”

first signs of relief cross his features.

own daughter, Zee. I cannot bear

and I saw the way he gasped. This was my Callahan. The

was only putting up a show of being cold and unreachable, but I could not have ever imagined the truth to be so intense….so jarring.

and pain that seldom goes away. I had lost my mother, so I knew

live, Zee.

attacked you, too. That is why I was not letting you become my anchor. I feel…I feel I will not be able to do justice

could not hold back any longer. The fact that he had been living with so much burden and did not have anybody to

his fault that Aislynn died, and he has been living with a tremendous amount of guilt all his

why he would laugh cruelly when Drusilla or anybody else h cruelly when Drusilla or anybody else spoke about

all men believed in God. But he had been created by and left to

life and worshiped her, thought of her as my own mother. There were countless nights I would keep staring outside the window, looking at