Get Me Married

Chapter 19: the advice

I struggled to walk back to my room. My heart was too heavy and so were my legs. I kept breathing in and out because of the fear of having another panic attack. That was the last thing I wanted and it was better I got to my room soon.

“Ma’am are you alright?” Margaret came out of nowhere and ran to my aid. She placed my hands over her shoulders and held my waist, helping me with my weight.

I sniffed and tried to clean my tears but I changed my mind about it, she had seen me in my weakest time, I didn’t see why I had to hide my tears away from her.

“you should be asleep” I said to her and sniffed.

“You should be in your husband’s room” she replied and I stopped walking, my head snapped back at her immediately and she looked away.

“I’m sorry” she apologized and I started walking again. Though I knew somehow that she was right, I should have been the one in his room but I wasn’t.

Even after my conditions, he disrespected and disregarded me. He brought in another woman and she was in the room with him like it was hers from the beginning.

When I got to my room, I took a seat at the couch and Margaret brought me a glass of water which I gulped down immediately.

“Thank you” I said to her and she smiled faintly at me.

“Please be patient with him. Jordan needs you” she added and I scoffed at her ridiculous demand.

How could she have expected me to be patient with someone like that. It wasn’t so possible, I was already loosing it.

“You can go to bed now. You need your rest” I said, dismissing her.

“Goodnight ma’am” she said and turned to the door.

“Margaret” I called and she paused.

“Yes ma’am” she replied and turned to me.

“My breakfast should be brought up to my room from now on” I said and she gaped at me for a second.

“But ma’am……”

“Come on please, don’t make this harder on me” I interrupted and she sighed.

“Yes ma’am” she replied reluctantantly and walked out.

I sighed and took off my clothes, having a shower was the best thing for me at that point and that was what I planned on doing.

I went into the bathroom and decided to make use of the shower. I wrapped my hair and covered it up before walking through the glass then I turned it on.

The chilled water ran through my body and relaxed my tensed muscles.

Jordan’s words ran through my mind and tears came flooding back. I couldn’t help but feel like somehow he was right. Maybe he might not be right about everything especially about the fact that he called me a gold digger, I wasn’t after his wealth like Samantha was but he was right when he said I came for his money.

My life changed because I bared his name and the tittle of a wife, my family’s life changed because I was his wife. I would have left and found a way to run away but because I couldn’t steal my family’s happiness and peace of mind, I remained.

I had watched them struggle for so long, and my marriage to Jordan had given them a better life. If that was me coming after his money, then I was guilty as charged.

But again he was wrong when he said I wasn’t a victim. I didn’t ask to be married to him. His mother had trapped me by giving my sister a new kidney. Though I was grateful but that was a terrible way to trap me. I was trapped with her son who was madly in love with a girl who wanted nothing but his money. I was the victim because I had to be the one to hide in my room so I wouldn’t see his face. I had to hide away from my own husband because he was gradually scaring the hell out of me.

I wiped my tears and smiled at myself. I thought of the reason I was doing all what I did. It was for Ava, my mom and my dad. For them I was going to sacrifice my happiness, my peace, my joy, my life and I wasn’t going to care about what Jordan thought about me.

A week after.

I came out of the shower and saw some of my maids grinning at me.

As days went by, the maids that flocked to my room increased. They were literally fighting over who would get me breakfast and help me dress up. They would find any excuse to be in my room, knowing I was always never coming out of it.

“What is it?” I asked them. Six of them couldn’t be grinning at me for nothing.

“We wanted to show you around the house” they chorused and I pretended I was thinking about it.

“No” I simply said and walked over to where they had placed my clothes.

week. Come on, you need the air” another protested and

But that wouldn’t be today”

that” I ordered feeling really

in the house have literally turned to friends. We joked and laughed

would get a chance to show me around soon” I said and they cheered up and

“When?” Anna asked.

She was the youngest of

“But….”

you are. I get tired of coming to this room to look for any maid that

Out” she yelled at them and they all scurried away

morning ma’am” she

“Good morning…” I

about them, I can’t

love them being around” I replied and sat down on

I see” she smiled at me

I needed something or some one to prove to me that I belonged and if my husband didn’t do it. They

you coming downstairs?” she asked and I gave her a look. The look that told her ‘no, I am perfectly fine up

the door to leave while I went ahead to dress up

In the midst of my breakfast, someone knocked on my door and opened the door without waiting for me to say come in. No matter how good I

the door and Samantha walked in with

her and I loved the peace I felt all those nights that I

to be all alone in this part of the

would leave” she started and walked deeper

going perfectly well to be ruined by

ignored her. I didn’t know what hier game was but I

am talking to you dammit” she said with an edginess to her voice when she noticed I wasn’t paying any attention to her. But as I said, I was going to

ever I tell Jordan he is going to believe. It’s your loss anyway…” She paused and glared at

out of here” she barked and it

rounded up my breakfast and turned to her while seating

me?”

are intimidated and insecure” I

what you want because I want you to do what you want. But come here and vomit trash. Now….get

or I

got to me. I knew I needed help and I needed it from someone who knew Samantha too. I could tell she wasn’t going to stop, she had a lot more in her sleeves and I needed some sort

came to my mind and

speak and speak soon. I dialled

“Oh my… Genesis…”

want us to speak” I interrupted her rudely, I didn’t want to hear what

I will be free for the

coming over?” she asked and

meet at a restaurant”

“Okay…which?” she asked.

choice, I am on my way” I said

black shade. I packed my hair in a pony tail, put on some jewelries and added a lip balm to my lips. I

saw, then leaded

smiled at the way the staffs looked at me and

downstairs, I saw Samantha and gave her a smirk of my own. I felt really comfortable

smiled at all my staffs like I was some sort of

turned to

Jordan’s and as quickly I looked away like he was going to kill me if I stared

me to want to. It was a week after what happened the last time I had seen him

a movie ‘men on black’

followed behind. I stepped into the car and sat down comfortably and just as expected, we moved out in a

the restaurant mom Leona texted me. I got down and the security guard followed me. Two walked in front of me, two behind me and two each walked by my

she reserved and the guards bowed to her and gave us a little space. I took my sit and noticed she

to pour myself some wine since I already

and I thought of smiling at her but I couldn’t force

life, five years of my life. That thought can’t leave my

bad?”

with Samantha and almost broke my arms the day I