I Will Never Be Yours

Chapter 139

Selena POV:

Closing the door I walk over to the bed and start to take my clothes on, pulling the shirt over my head before grabbing my pants and trying to get them to be comfortable over my stomach but they feel too tight.

I have to place them under my growing belly, I will have to buy myself new ones.

Taking the towel, I walk over to the bathroom and hang it up before getting back to the bed and starting up my computer, there are some emails I have to go over when there is a knock on the door.

Seeing the door slightly open I hear Emma’s voice.

“Can I come in?” she asks and wait for me to answer, when did she ever wait for me to invite her in? She always just walks right inside!

“Yes, you can come in!” I say when she pushes the door open and walks inside. Looking at her she gets right over to the bed and takes a seat on the other side.

“What are you doing?” she asks when I’m in the middle of answering a mail.

“I’m working!” I say and continue to look at the screen, she moves closer to the middle of the bed and looks at the laptop.

“Have you gone back to your work?” she says and I have to stop answering the email, can’t focus on both things.

“I quit my job and started my own business, have started to take only a few clients until I have it all up and running properly. Couldn’t go back there after everything that happened, only need to go there one day and get my belongings!” I tell her and try to get back to my response on the mail.

mine and

I

better than anything else, and

you are coming back to the pack as the alpha?” she

myself and my children for the threat that is out there and make sure to be prepared. Once it’s over

idea how happy you are making me!” she

this?” she asks after a little while.

he spoke to me in all these weeks!” I say and lift my head to get back to what I was

I believe he attends to do it” she says when I look

happened, I don’t want to rely on anyone else, I need to have full control of everything that’s going on around me and I will not run a pack with the good grace of someone else!” I say to her and mean every word.

me that I have to have control over every little thing and a

to move on with the pack, without Jacob as the gamma I have to choose someone else and I’m not sure what to

your fault!” she says and I sigh. I have come to terms with what happened, every fault on the way that lead to this disaster I

go

fact that they went against my orders lies on them. I have hoped for another outcome but we have to move forward from this!” I state and she falls silent for a long moment and I know she has something else

I say and turn to look

using your gift as a shield to your feelings, I don’t want you

become stronger by pulling strength from someone else’s energy, in that state I easily get engulfed in that feeling and I can’t get enough!” I say and see she is thinking

it took over and shielded me from breaking into pieces. For the first time I can block every attempt Michael does to try and take strength from me, I can pull on his without letting it consume me! I’m afraid if I put it down I won’t be able to put it up again, I didn’t do this on purpose and I have no idea how to do it!” I tell her all

I can protect my babies but what happens if I let it down and I can’t pull it up when I need it? For them, I have to keep going this way until we are safe!” I say

not careful you will be cut off from your feelings completely and nothing good will come out of it! I can’t let it happen” she says and I have heard it several times from Michael these weeks, I feel like I have it under control and I’m not worried