I Will Never Be Yours

Chapter 139

Selena POV:

Closing the door I walk over to the bed and start to take my clothes on, pulling the shirt over my head before grabbing my pants and trying to get them to be comfortable over my stomach but they feel too tight.

I have to place them under my growing belly, I will have to buy myself new ones.

Taking the towel, I walk over to the bathroom and hang it up before getting back to the bed and starting up my computer, there are some emails I have to go over when there is a knock on the door.

Seeing the door slightly open I hear Emma’s voice.

“Can I come in?” she asks and wait for me to answer, when did she ever wait for me to invite her in? She always just walks right inside!

“Yes, you can come in!” I say when she pushes the door open and walks inside. Looking at her she gets right over to the bed and takes a seat on the other side.

“What are you doing?” she asks when I’m in the middle of answering a mail.

“I’m working!” I say and continue to look at the screen, she moves closer to the middle of the bed and looks at the laptop.

“Have you gone back to your work?” she says and I have to stop answering the email, can’t focus on both things.

“I quit my job and started my own business, have started to take only a few clients until I have it all up and running properly. Couldn’t go back there after everything that happened, only need to go there one day and get my belongings!” I tell her and try to get back to my response on the mail.

hand on mine and

done what?” she says and I

be able and provide for me and the children beside the pack, this job I know better than anything else, and why not work for myself instead!” I say when she turns her

alpha?” she says and I can

being an Alpha, he took over the lead as of now and I believe it’s for the best at the moment. I have to focus on myself and my children for the threat that is out there and make sure to be prepared. Once it’s over I will come back

happy you are making me!” she says to my shoulder, leaning my head at hers I have missed her these weeks.

she asks after

in all these weeks!” I say and lift my head to get back to what I

said he would provide the pack with everything we need! I believe he attends to do it” she says when I look up from the screen.

I don’t want to rely on anyone else, I need to have full control of everything that’s going on around me and I will not run a pack with the good grace of someone else!” I say to her and mean every word.

have to have control over every little thing and

all figured out and a plan for how to move on with the pack, without Jacob as the gamma I have to choose someone else and I’m not sure what to do with Jessie. All that has to wait until the threat is gone and I need to focus on my training for now, the pack is in

that lead to this disaster I have had a long time to think over, I know where I failed and I also

a lesson I could have lived without having to go

happened and what I need to change, but the fact that they went against my orders lies on them. I have hoped for another outcome but we have to move forward from this!” I state and she falls silent for a

is it?” I say and turn

are worried about you! Michael called and told me you are using your gift as a shield to your feelings, I

if I’m angry it tries to become stronger by pulling strength from someone else’s energy, in that state I easily get engulfed in that feeling and I can’t get enough!” I

time I can block every attempt Michael does to try and take strength from me, I can pull on his without letting it consume me! I’m afraid if I put it down I won’t be able to put it up again, I didn’t do this on purpose and I have no idea how to do it!” I tell her all that happened, it helped me when I was devastated and I’m grateful for it I don’t know

and I can’t pull it up when I need it? For them, I have to keep going this way until we are safe!”

good will come out of it! I can’t let it happen” she says