I Will Never Be Yours

Chapter 139

Selena POV:

Closing the door I walk over to the bed and start to take my clothes on, pulling the shirt over my head before grabbing my pants and trying to get them to be comfortable over my stomach but they feel too tight.

I have to place them under my growing belly, I will have to buy myself new ones.

Taking the towel, I walk over to the bathroom and hang it up before getting back to the bed and starting up my computer, there are some emails I have to go over when there is a knock on the door.

Seeing the door slightly open I hear Emma’s voice.

“Can I come in?” she asks and wait for me to answer, when did she ever wait for me to invite her in? She always just walks right inside!

“Yes, you can come in!” I say when she pushes the door open and walks inside. Looking at her she gets right over to the bed and takes a seat on the other side.

“What are you doing?” she asks when I’m in the middle of answering a mail.

“I’m working!” I say and continue to look at the screen, she moves closer to the middle of the bed and looks at the laptop.

“Have you gone back to your work?” she says and I have to stop answering the email, can’t focus on both things.

“I quit my job and started my own business, have started to take only a few clients until I have it all up and running properly. Couldn’t go back there after everything that happened, only need to go there one day and get my belongings!” I tell her and try to get back to my response on the mail.

her hand on mine

done what?” she says and I turn my head

I know better than anything else, and why not work for myself instead!” I say when she turns her

telling me you are coming back to the pack as the alpha?” she says and I can see a glimmer of hope in

take the pack from me or stripped me from being an Alpha, he took over the lead as of now and I believe it’s for the best at the moment. I have to focus on myself and my children for the threat that is out there and make sure to be prepared. Once it’s over I will come back and need to have the finance in order!” I tell her when she gives me

happy you are making me!” she says to my shoulder, leaning my head at hers I have missed her these

know about this?” she asks after a little

time he spoke to me in all these weeks!” I say and lift

pack with everything we need! I believe he attends to do it” she says when I

else, I need to have full control of everything that’s going on around me and I will not run a pack with the good grace of someone else!” I say to her and mean

has thought me that I have to have control over every little thing and a plan for

I’m not sure what to do

with what happened, every fault on the way that lead to this disaster I have had a long time to think over, I know where I failed and I also know what needs to

lived without having to go through but I believe it

for another outcome

is it?” I say and turn to look

gift as a shield to your feelings, I don’t want you this off and get trapped this way!” she says and I can hear how worried

my feelings, if I’m angry it tries to become stronger by pulling strength from someone else’s energy, in that state I easily get engulfed in that feeling and I can’t get enough!” I say

into pieces. For the first time I can block every attempt Michael does to try and take strength from me, I can pull on his without letting it consume me! I’m afraid if I put it down I won’t be able to put it up again, I didn’t do this on purpose and I have no idea how to do it!” I tell her all that happened, it helped me when I was devastated and I’m grateful for it I don’t know how I would have

I can protect my babies but what happens if I let it down and I can’t pull it up when I need it? For them, I have to keep going this way until we

come out of it! I can’t let it happen” she says and