In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

get a towel to wipe the body,

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

doing? Get out?!”

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked.

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my

anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

the world becomes

has gone, but the door is

Louis rushes

feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of

I feel soft under

It takes me a while to feel less

Most importantly, I was conscious

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances

his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Louis has been looking at me?

blushes. I pull over the quilt

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head

the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at

Hearing what he said, I guess I was

Damn it. I have not solved the problem,

rings, and he picks it up gently.

Wait. I'll be right there.”

on the other end of the line. He would

Who is she? Is that woman I saw

lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to

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