In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the

my head hits the floor

Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have

God, no! Can anything

me again outside

world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the door

Frances Louis

boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what

see him, so as not to die

I feel soft under him. He

a while to feel less dizzy and regain

importantly, I was conscious the whole

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

eyes a little,

no expression on his face, but it is enough to

air conditioning opens, he

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

at me

he said, I guess I was poisoned by

have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll

end of

that woman I

I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first.

“I have something to talk