In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

back of my head hits the

Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

and save me, but I don’t want him to see me

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Louis rushes in.

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

feel less dizzy and

importantly, I was conscious the

I don’t know whether

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Frances Louis has been

thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt

up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come

at

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved the problem,

cell phone rings, and

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be

is she? Is that woman I saw

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need,

I come to him for Frank

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you

have something to talk to you.” I