In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

towel to wipe the body, but suddenly

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy

and save me, but I don’t want him to see me

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like

anything worse happen to

me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis

could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under

me up. I feel soft

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some

I was

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

on his face, but it is enough to

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Is that how Frances Louis

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

my head away to skip the awkward subject.

and windows. If I had come in later, you would

Louis glances at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess

have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

woman on the other end of the line. He would be

she? Is that woman

I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what

to him for Frank Noyes.

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.