In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he

is like knotted, I can say nothing and my

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

again outside door and

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis rushes

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression

mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put

feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

with no expression on his face, but

air conditioning opens, he could at

how Frances Louis has been looking

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover

I turn my head

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later,

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

what he said, I guess

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I

and

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take

him for Frank Noyes.

but he gets up and says,

talk to you.” I say quickly.