In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

Can anything worse happen

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and

Then, the world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Louis rushes in.

boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy

was conscious the

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

a little, and meet Frances

with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has been

face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

turn my head away to skip

time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would

at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

phone rings, and he picks

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be

it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so

she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

Frances Louis and I just take what we

him for

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have

to talk to you.” I say quickly.