In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

head hits the floor so hard

are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

to see him, so as not to

up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me

me a while to feel less dizzy

was conscious the whole time!

I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Frances Louis has been looking at me?

my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the

still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I was poisoned by

Damn it. I have not solved the problem,

and he picks it

I know. Wait. I'll be

is a woman on the other end of

woman I saw in the hospital?

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private

to him for Frank Noyes.

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have

talk to you.” I say quickly.