In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp,

anything

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

him, so as not to

Louis holds me up. I feel soft

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

looks at me with no expression on his face, but it

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Louis has been looking at

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

you lock the doors and windows. If I had

Frances Louis glances at me

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

have not solved the problem,

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up

know. Wait.

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman I saw

and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

but he gets up and says, “you sleep

something to talk to you.”