In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

of my head hits the

are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I

God, no! Can anything worse happen to

me again outside door and knocks

Then, the world becomes quiet.

gone, but

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances

mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me

a while to feel

importantly, I was

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

on his face, but it

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give

Is that how Frances Louis has been

of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull

turn my head away to skip the awkward

long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been

Frances Louis glances at me

he said, I guess I was

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t

and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be

the other end of the

woman I saw in the hospital?

Frances Louis and I just take what we

to him

about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

“I have something to talk to you.”