In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the

the floor so

are you doing? Get out?!”

save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing

no! Can anything

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't

to see him, so as

me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

a while to feel

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances

little, and

He looks at me with no expression on his face,

air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and

turn my head

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at me and says

he said, I guess I was poisoned by

Damn it. I have not solved

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

Wait. I'll

think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for

something to talk to you.” I say quickly.