In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall

of my head hits the floor so hard

Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy

come in and save me, but I don’t

But my tongue is like knotted, I can

no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

has gone, but

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

I was conscious the whole

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

opens, he could

Frances Louis has been looking at

thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and

are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later,

at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned

it. I have not solved the problem,

Louis's cell phone rings, and

I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of

to him for Frank Noyes.

talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up

“I have something to talk to you.” I say