In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

the

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say

Can anything worse happen

again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

I was conscious the whole

I don’t know whether Frances Louis is

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

expression on his face,

naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Frances Louis has been looking at

of this, my face suddenly blushes.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head

lock the doors and windows. If I had come

at

Hearing what he said, I guess

Damn it. I have not solved the

phone rings, and he picks it up

I know. Wait.

end of the line. He would be so

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the

my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we

to him

Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

talk to you.” I say quickly.