In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

you doing? Get out?!” The

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him

like knotted, I can say

Can anything worse happen to

again outside door

world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the door

Frances Louis rushes in.

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain

I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to

air conditioning opens, he could at least

how Frances Louis has been looking at

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the

you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

glances at me and says lightly.

I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

not solved the problem,

rings, and he picks it up gently.

I know. Wait. I'll be

other end of

that woman I saw in

just take what

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up

have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.