In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

The back of my head hits the floor so hard

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no

Can anything worse happen to

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

soft under

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and

importantly, I was

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

I open my eyes a little,

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and

“Why are you still up?” I turn my

and windows. If I had come in later,

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved the problem,

Louis's cell phone rings, and

know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

woman on the other end of the line.

Is that woman I saw in

Frances Louis and I just take what we need,

him for Frank Noyes.

talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

“I have something to talk to you.” I say