In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I

the floor so hard that

what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked.

me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

better not to see him, so as not to

soft under him. He

takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough

The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has been

this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward

next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come

Louis glances at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess

have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

know. Wait. I'll

of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up

talk to you.” I say quickly.