In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

the

Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

to come in and save me, but I don’t want him

hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no

no! Can anything worse happen

me again outside door

world becomes quiet.

gone, but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis rushes

eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But

to see him, so as not to

soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

know whether

eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

The air conditioning opens, he

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt

you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

Louis glances at me and says lightly.

guess

Damn it. I have not solved the

cell phone rings, and he picks it

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be

a woman on the other end of the

Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

I just take what we need, and neither of us has

I come to him for

to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.