In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to get a towel to wipe the body,

of my head hits the floor

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

me, but I don’t want him to see me naked.

is like

God, no! Can anything worse happen

again outside door and knocks

Then, the world becomes

he has gone, but the

Frances Louis rushes in.

my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under

I feel soft under him. He probably put me to

me a while to feel less dizzy

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at

Louis has been looking at me?

suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip

doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

I guess I was

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a

Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in

him for Frank Noyes.

brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.