In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see

I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say

Can anything worse happen to

Louis calls me again outside door and

world becomes

but the door is

Then, Frances Louis rushes

and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

I feel soft under him. He probably put me

feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

was conscious

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances

expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

conditioning opens, he could at least give me

that how Frances Louis has been looking

blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover

still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward

doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess I was

not solved the problem, I can’t die!

and he picks it up

Wait. I'll

think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so

that woman I saw in the hospital?

isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

him for Frank Noyes.

my brother, but he gets up

to talk to you.” I say quickly.