In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although,

But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp,

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

me again outside door

the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

a little, and

with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has

thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt

you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

at

I guess I was poisoned by carbon

it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

other end of the line. He would be so

woman I saw in

just take what we need, and neither of us

I come to him for

about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.