In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down,

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I

anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and

world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked

Louis

is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what

better not to see him, so as not to die of

up. I feel soft under

a while to feel

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to

am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Louis has been looking at me?

my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would

Louis glances at

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

cell phone rings, and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle

she? Is that woman I saw in the

I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

I come to him

to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

“I have something to talk