In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and

the floor so hard that

doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although,

tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Louis calls me again outside door and

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die

Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

while to feel

Most importantly, I was

is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether

I open my eyes a little, and meet

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

The air conditioning opens, he could at

Louis has been looking at me?

face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover

still up?” I turn my head

long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved

phone rings, and he picks it

Wait. I'll be

on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to

Who is she? Is that woman I

Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s

him for Frank

to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.