In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but

of my head hits the floor so hard

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside

the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but

Frances Louis rushes in.

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put

a while to feel less dizzy and

was conscious the whole time!

know whether Frances Louis is in

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's

no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

that how Frances Louis has been looking

of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the

my head

so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at me and says

what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

I have not solved the problem, I

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it

I know. Wait. I'll

other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

just take what we need,

I come to him for Frank

he gets up and says, “you sleep first.

talk to you.” I say quickly.