In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

a towel to wipe the

The back of my head hits the floor so

Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes

me, but I don’t

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again

the world becomes

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression

not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

I open my eyes a little,

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he

how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull

I turn my head away to skip the awkward

windows. If I had come in later, you

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait.

think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

is she? Is that woman I saw in the

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any

I come to him

he gets up and

“I have something to talk to