In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to wipe the

back of my head hits the

Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has

can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

Can anything worse happen

Louis calls me again

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the

Then, Frances Louis

and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances

him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his

me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

to feel less dizzy and regain

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is

I open my eyes a little,

with no expression on his face, but it is enough to

am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me

how Frances Louis has

blushes.

my head away to skip the awkward subject.

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows.

glances at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I

Damn it. I have not solved the

and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait.

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be

she? Is that woman I saw in

just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s

to him

am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

have something to talk to you.”