In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

the

Get out?!”

in and save me, but I don’t want him

my tongue is like

Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis rushes in.

is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die

Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

while to feel less

importantly, I was conscious the whole

is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

with no expression on his face, but it is enough

The air conditioning opens, he could at

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been

glances at me and

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait.

is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be

woman I saw in the hospital?

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

to him

gets up and says, “you sleep first. I

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.