In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

The back of my head hits the

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The

but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Louis calls me again

the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door

Frances Louis

and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I

better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to

while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

I was conscious

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in

eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

still naked. The air conditioning opens,

Frances Louis has been looking at

blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to

and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess I

I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

rings, and he picks

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so

Who is she? Is that woman

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

I come to him for Frank

to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

“I have something to talk to you.” I