In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see

But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp,

God, no! Can anything worse

Frances Louis calls me again outside

world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but

Louis rushes in.

my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't

so as not to die of embarrassment under

I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

while to feel less dizzy

I was conscious the whole time!

I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

open my eyes a little,

face, but it is enough to embarrass

am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over

are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come

Frances Louis glances at me and says

said, I guess I

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

cell phone rings, and he picks it up

know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

other end of the line. He would be so gentle

Who is she? Is that woman

Frances Louis and I just take what

to him for

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

talk to you.” I say