In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly

The back of my head hits the

Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

in and save me, but I don’t want him

am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I

God, no! Can anything worse happen

Frances Louis calls me again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is

Then, Frances Louis

boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I

mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of

Louis holds me up. I feel soft

It takes me a while to feel less

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

face,

conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my

I turn my head away to

lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

Frances Louis glances at me and says

I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

is a woman on the other end of

Is that woman I saw in

just take what we need, and neither of

I come to him for

brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.