In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has

everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

gone, but the door

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under

me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Frances Louis has been looking at me?

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

my head away to

so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at me and says

he said, I guess I

it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a

Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say

I come to him for

to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep

to talk to