In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

my head hits the floor

what are you doing? Get out?!” The

come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside door

world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door

Then, Frances Louis rushes

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of

see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably

a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or

a little,

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough

opens, he could

Is that how Frances Louis has been

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward

wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would

Frances Louis glances at

said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

the other end of the line. He would be

Is that woman I saw

just take what we need, and

I come to him for Frank

about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to

talk to you.” I