In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall

hits the floor so hard

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy

me, but I don’t want

tongue is like knotted, I

God, no! Can anything worse happen to

Frances Louis calls me again outside

Then, the world

gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open

see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his

feel soft under him. He

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and

was conscious the whole time!

don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to

am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

and windows. If I had come

Frances Louis glances at

said, I guess I was poisoned

I have not solved the

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks

know. Wait. I'll

other end of the line.

she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.