In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

the body, but

the floor so hard that I black

Get out?!” The

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him

conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted,

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

me again outside

the world

gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

boiling hot. But

so

soft under

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain

was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face,

air conditioning opens, he could at least give me

Frances Louis has

my face suddenly blushes. I

up?” I turn my

wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in

Frances Louis glances at

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

I have not solved the problem, I

and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll

other end of the line. He would be so gentle to

Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we

come to him for Frank Noyes.

my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for

have something to talk