In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

the

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see

conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Louis calls me again outside door and knocks

world becomes

gone, but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

while to feel less dizzy and regain some

was

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in

my eyes a little, and

on his face, but it

naked. The air conditioning opens, he could

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If

Frances Louis glances at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t

cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

Wait.

the other end of the

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

Frances Louis and I just take what

I come to him for

brother, but he gets up and says,

“I have something to talk to you.” I