In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

a towel to wipe the body,

back of my head hits the floor so hard

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances

save me, but I don’t want him to see

me. But my tongue is like

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world

but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis rushes

his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression

mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances

at me with no expression on his face, but it is

The air conditioning opens, he could at

Louis has been looking at

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the

you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

have not solved the problem,

cell phone rings, and

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right

a woman on the other end of the

she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private

to him for Frank Noyes.

about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

have something to talk to you.” I say