In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I

The back of my head hits the floor

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis

save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is

anything worse happen

Frances Louis calls me again outside door

Then, the world becomes

I think he has gone, but the door

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably

while to feel

I was conscious the whole time!

know whether Frances Louis is

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

on his face, but it is enough to embarrass

The air conditioning opens, he could

Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover

my head away to skip the awkward subject.

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows.

at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

Wait. I'll

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have

“I have something to talk