In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall

hits the floor so hard that I

Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances

me, but I don’t want him to

am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can

Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis

so as

Louis holds me up. I feel soft

It takes me a while to feel

was conscious

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

my eyes a little,

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in

Louis glances at me and says

what he said, I guess

it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

and he picks it up gently.

I know. Wait. I'll

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line.

woman I

isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need,

come to him for Frank Noyes.

to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

to talk