In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the

my head hits the floor so hard

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!”

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp,

God, no! Can anything worse happen

me again outside door and knocks

the world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but

Then, Frances Louis rushes

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I

him, so as not

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put

takes me a while to feel less

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances

a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but

naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t

rings, and he picks it up gently.

I know. Wait.

on the other end of

that woman I

I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us

I come to him for Frank

Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for

“I have something to talk to you.” I