In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I

doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from

save me, but I don’t want

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

Can anything worse happen to me?

me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his

I feel soft under him.

feel

Most importantly, I was conscious the

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

my eyes a little,

at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

am still naked. The air conditioning opens,

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

face suddenly blushes.

turn my head

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you

Louis glances at me and says lightly.

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I

cell phone rings, and

I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

the other end of the line. He would be

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of

I come to him for Frank

brother, but he gets up and says, “you

something to talk to you.” I say quickly.