In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down,

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis

in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he

my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no

God, no! Can anything

me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes

he has gone, but the door

Frances Louis rushes in.

boiling hot. But I

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as

I feel soft under him. He probably put me to bed.

me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was

know whether Frances Louis is in the

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

how Frances Louis has

of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my

you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

windows. If I had come in later,

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned

I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks

“Well, I know. Wait.

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

that woman

But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

I come to him for

but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.