In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and

head hits the floor

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he

around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is

Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again

Then, the world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I

so as

soft under him. He probably put me to

a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was conscious the

whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

a little, and meet Frances Louis's

no expression on his face, but

am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could

Is that how Frances Louis has been

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

glances at me and says lightly.

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

solved the

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he

“Well, I know. Wait.

woman on the other end of the line.

is she? Is that woman I saw

Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

come to him for

my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

to talk to you.” I say