In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to wipe the body,

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that

Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

like knotted, I can say nothing

Can anything worse happen to me?

again outside door and knocks fiercely.

the world becomes quiet.

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked

Then, Frances Louis

burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what

see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

soft under

to feel less dizzy and regain some

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Frances Louis has been looking at me?

face suddenly blushes. I pull

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

the doors and windows. If I had come

Louis glances at me and says lightly.

said, I guess I was poisoned

it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

gets up and

“I have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.