In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes

I don’t want him to see me naked. Although,

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have

anything

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

him, so as not to

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

Most importantly, I was

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Is that how Frances Louis

thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I

my head away to skip the awkward subject.

“Don't wash so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later,

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up

know. Wait.

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would

is she? Is that woman I saw in the hospital?

I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private

to him for Frank Noyes.

Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have

have something to talk to you.” I say quickly.