In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

me, but I don’t

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I

anything worse happen

again outside door and

Then, the world

gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea

him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his

Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably

It takes me a while to feel less

Most importantly, I was conscious the

quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass

naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at

that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

face suddenly blushes. I

my head away to skip the awkward

lock the doors and windows. If I had

Frances Louis glances at

what he said, I guess I was poisoned

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I can’t die!

phone rings, and

“Well, I know. Wait.

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would

she? Is that woman I saw in the

just take what we

to him for Frank

gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

have something to talk