In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

“Jane Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes from outside.

come in and save me, but I don’t want him

tongue is like

God, no! Can anything

Frances Louis calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes

I think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis rushes

eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

him, so as

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably put me

It takes me a while to feel

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

little, and meet Frances

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but

air conditioning opens, he

Frances Louis has been looking at

suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Louis glances at me and says lightly.

said, I guess

not solved the problem, I

rings, and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so

woman I saw in the

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has

come to him for Frank Noyes.

talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

something to talk to you.” I say quickly.