In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

The back of my head hits the floor so hard that

Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen

like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

no! Can anything worse happen to

again outside door

world becomes

I think he has gone, but the door is

Then, Frances Louis

But I couldn't open

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under him.

to feel

was conscious the

don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or asleep.

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Frances Louis has been looking at

the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my body.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

at

he said, I guess I was poisoned by

it. I have not solved

and he picks it up gently.

Wait. I'll

other end of the line. He

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in

know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us

him for Frank Noyes.

talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

something to talk to you.”