In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

to wipe the body, but suddenly

back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

me, but I don’t

my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

Frances Louis calls me again outside door

Then, the world

but the door is

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of Frances Louis is.

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

soft under him.

a while to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

I was conscious the whole time!

terribly quiet. I don’t know whether

eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me

air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

that how Frances Louis has been

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the

long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If

Louis glances at me and says lightly.

I guess I was poisoned by

not solved the problem,

Frances Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

know. Wait. I'll be right

I think it is a woman on the other end of the

she? Is that woman I saw in

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take

I come to him for Frank Noyes.

about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go

“I have something to talk