In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down,

head hits the floor so hard that

out?!” The

to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked.

conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing

no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside door and knocks

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Louis

his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

I feel soft under

It takes me a while to feel less

importantly, I was conscious

is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass

conditioning opens, he could

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt

my head away to skip the awkward subject.

windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in

Frances Louis glances at me and says lightly.

guess I

have not solved the problem,

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to

Who is she? Is that woman I

isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and

I come to him for

he gets up and says, “you

talk to you.” I