In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

The back of my head hits the floor so

Noyes, Jane Noyes, what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of Frances Louis comes

I don’t want him to

me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

me again

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

better not to see him, so as not to

feel soft under him.

It takes me a while to feel less

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

know whether Frances Louis

open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

air conditioning opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at me?

this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head

next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have

Frances Louis glances at me and

I guess I was poisoned by carbon

Damn it. I have not solved the problem, I

Louis's cell phone rings, and he

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

on the other end of

Who is she? Is that woman I saw in

My heat ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us

him for

gets up and says, “you sleep first.

to talk to you.” I