In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip down, and fall to the ground.

head hits the floor so hard that I black out.

Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has

hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted, I can say nothing and my body is limp, I have no strength.

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

calls me again outside

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis rushes in.

I could feel his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

him, so as not to

soft under him. He probably put

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and regain

was conscious the whole time!

The room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is

I open my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass

opens, he could at least give me cover.

Is that how Frances Louis has been looking at

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes.

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head

so long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Frances Louis glances at me and says

what he said, I guess I was poisoned by

it. I have not solved the problem, I

Louis's cell phone rings, and he picks it up gently.

Wait. I'll be right there.”

it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle

that woman I saw in the hospital?

I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private life.\

come to him

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a

something to talk to you.” I say quickly.