In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I

The back of my head hits the floor so hard

are you doing? Get out?!” The

in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

Actually, I am conscious. I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like

God, no! Can anything worse happen

calls me again

Then, the world

has gone, but the

Frances Louis rushes in.

hot. But I couldn't open my eyes.

better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment

Frances Louis holds me up. I feel soft under

It takes me a while to feel less dizzy and

importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether

eyes a little,

He looks at me with no expression on his face, but

I am still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me

how Frances Louis has been looking

suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt

up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in

Louis glances at me

he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

solved the problem, I

phone rings, and he picks

Wait. I'll be right there.”

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be

Is that woman I saw in the

it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us has any say in the other’s private

him for Frank Noyes.

about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out

“I have something to talk