In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

back of my head hits the floor so hard

what are you doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice of

I want him to come in and save me, but I don’t want him to see me

can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like

Can anything

calls me again outside door and knocks fiercely.

Then, the world becomes quiet.

he has gone, but the

Then, Frances Louis rushes in.

me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea

is better not to see him, so as not to

I feel soft under him. He probably put me to

feel

Most importantly, I was conscious the whole time!

room is terribly quiet. I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the room or

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

at me with no expression on his face, but it is enough to embarrass me to death.

naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least give me

Louis has been looking at me?

blushes. I pull

“Why are you still up?” I turn my head away to skip the awkward subject.

long next time, you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in

at me and

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon dioxide.

solved

rings, and he picks

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be right there.”

I think it is a woman on the other end of the

woman I saw in the hospital?

ripples lightly. But I know it isn’t my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither of us

I come to him for Frank

I am about to talk to Frances Louis about my brother, but he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for a while.”

to talk to you.” I say