In My Desperate Time

As soon as I walk in, I feel urgent to back out.

I thought it would be a dinner party or something with a few people at most.

I didn’t expect to see so many people.

I stand there in a daze and don’t go out for a long time.

Everyone turns their eyes on me, which makes me even more nervous. To put it mildly, I am Frances Louis's mistress, and to attend such an event with him would make me feel embarrassed.

“Don’t be nervous, just stay with me.”

Frances Louis cocks his head and whispers in my ear. He doesn’t even look at me. How does he know I am nervous?

I look down at his coat, which has been pulled out of folds, and sheepishly let go.

Seeing his intimacy with me, everyone shows an ambiguous smile. I keep walking and feel my hands and feet out of place.

I almost walk by the same foot with the hand.

But I find that my nervousness seems unnecessary. No one seems to look at me differently. Yes, I don't have a “mistress” written on my face. I calm down with that thought.

Frances Louis takes two glasses of wine from the waiter and offers me one.

“Don’t drink, just pretend.”

I nod, holding my glass and surveying the scene around me.

It should be the dining room of this hotel, surrounded by a lot of food. So late at night, and these people are eating?

I feel a little strange.

We keep walking forward. When we pass the first man, he toasts to Frances Louis and says, “happy birthday, president Louis.”

Today is Frances Louis's birthday? No wonder these people are still here so late at night.

I turn to look at him, feeling nervous.

and I have no idea about it. I am so unqualified to be a mistress, because I don’t

with the man

girls forming a circle.

are handsome. One is handsome and a little ruffian, and the other is stylish, I can feel his muscles bouncing even across

up until eleven o' clock.” The ruffian

know. What's the point of having a birthday without a

this little beauty has

man doesn’t finish his sentence but the crowd

course, I know what he

Louis’s face. He doesn’t seem

of women, seeing Frances Louis, gather around and

“Mr. Louis.”

why you come so

seen each other for

women push desperately towards Frances Louis and easily push

Anyway.

hungry, and I can just

“Jane Noyes.”

move, Frances Louis calls

bitter face, but his two handsome friends stand beside me and smile at Frances Louis., “What, do

women are exaggerating like playing a drama. They rub against Frances Louis so hard that

one in this country who wouldn't want to be Mr. Louis's woman. I suppose

to. If I

I'm tired of seeing them.” The muscular

If you don’t tell me. I would think I have come into a brothel.” I roll my

the way.” Frances

second time I have heard him say it, but it

terrible, these women don’t seem to be very frightened. Maybe their desire is greater than the

women don’t want to get out of the way. No one would let anyone around Frances Louis. They have surround Frances Louis

says to the woman

your name? The daughter

tall and sexy. She is

on him. He just pretended to be immune to t women, and he can’t

on Frances Louis in my