In My Desperate Time

As soon as I walk in, I feel urgent to back out.

I thought it would be a dinner party or something with a few people at most.

I didn’t expect to see so many people.

I stand there in a daze and don’t go out for a long time.

Everyone turns their eyes on me, which makes me even more nervous. To put it mildly, I am Frances Louis's mistress, and to attend such an event with him would make me feel embarrassed.

“Don’t be nervous, just stay with me.”

Frances Louis cocks his head and whispers in my ear. He doesn’t even look at me. How does he know I am nervous?

I look down at his coat, which has been pulled out of folds, and sheepishly let go.

Seeing his intimacy with me, everyone shows an ambiguous smile. I keep walking and feel my hands and feet out of place.

I almost walk by the same foot with the hand.

But I find that my nervousness seems unnecessary. No one seems to look at me differently. Yes, I don't have a “mistress” written on my face. I calm down with that thought.

Frances Louis takes two glasses of wine from the waiter and offers me one.

“Don’t drink, just pretend.”

I nod, holding my glass and surveying the scene around me.

It should be the dining room of this hotel, surrounded by a lot of food. So late at night, and these people are eating?

I feel a little strange.

We keep walking forward. When we pass the first man, he toasts to Frances Louis and says, “happy birthday, president Louis.”

Today is Frances Louis's birthday? No wonder these people are still here so late at night.

I turn to look at him, feeling nervous.

so unqualified to be a mistress, because I don’t know how

clinks glasses with the man

crowd, I see a group of girls forming a circle. Inside, there are two

a little ruffian, and the other is stylish, I can feel his muscles

a birthday party! You're the main character but won't show up until eleven o' clock.”

man also comes and ridicules, “You don’t know. What's the point

has sent herself to your

sentence

not stupid. Of course, I know what he means. I give him a black

Frances Louis’s face. He doesn’t seem

crowd of women, seeing Frances Louis, gather

“Mr. Louis.”

Louis, why you

seen each other

women push desperately towards Frances Louis and easily push

Anyway.

I can just take this opportunity

“Jane Noyes.”

I could move, Frances Louis

stand beside me and smile at

women are exaggerating like playing a drama. They rub against Frances Louis so hard

popular with these ladies, and there's no one in this country who wouldn't want to be Mr. Louis's woman. I suppose you wouldn't mind since

country want to be his woman? But I don’t want to.

what these ladies look like. I'm tired of seeing

tell me. I would think I have come into a brothel.” I roll

way.” Frances Louis says

is the second time I have heard him say it, but it

women don’t seem to be very frightened. Maybe their desire is greater than

Frances Louis’s face is getting gloomy. But these daredevil women don’t want to get out of the way. No one would let anyone around Frances Louis. They have surround Frances Louis in

smiles and says to the woman standing in

your name? The daughter of

enchanting, her figure is tall

be immune to t

on Frances Louis in my