In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

the second-generation rich boy comes

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it

games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally,

words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft

Noyes, I

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are locked

between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby! everything will

face blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what to

good friends in high school, but does she

says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten o

scene tonight. I feel a

there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your

am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone

don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t

me take you

me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat

knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want

a taxi.

smile to Noah Jefferson and

get a little tongue-tied when I speak with

Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was

he says makes

dreamed about is saying that he likes me.

why my heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and

if some people in this world has missed each other

like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And,