In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw,

he doesn’t have time to talk

whole

in my mind. They touch my

Noyes, I like

time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are

between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a

My eyes dodge and I don't know

friends in high school, but does she mean to

leave if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what

staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty.

and there would be no husband to blame you. Come

and no one

say, people don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t

take

is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a pang of

Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s

take a taxi. You

to Noah Jefferson and

get a little tongue-tied when I

shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now,

word he says makes ripples

is saying that he likes me. How

a big stone,

in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for

but that was before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed