In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

second-generation rich boy comes out and calls

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw,

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we get

whole room is noisy.

mind. They touch my soft heart

Noyes, I

time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are

Anyway, she is single, don’t

My eyes dodge

were good friends in high school, but

says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

Louis doesn’t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I

go home so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on,

I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late,

no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now

take

follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a pang

am living with Frances Louis. I

take a taxi. You go back

Noah

feel strangely nervous with him, and even get

are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't

makes ripples in my

about is saying that he

why my heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t fell any

world has missed each other and would not

hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on