In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

we stand outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

grasping at a life-saving straw, I say

doesn’t have time to talk about it

the whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t

in my mind. They touch my soft

I

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes

get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and

eyes dodge and

Fountain who is speaking. We were good friends in high

lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

about ten o 'clock, I get up and want to

doesn’t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for me to

You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of sports

to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no

let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay.

me take you

It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I

terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him

can take a taxi. You go back to

to Noah Jefferson

feel strangely nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied

at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't want to make

word he says makes ripples in

have always dreamed about is saying that he likes me. How could I

why my heart feels like pressed by a big stone,

missed each

like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed