In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

stand outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and

straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come in

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after

and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a

Noah Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart

I

time, Noah Jefferson's eyes

difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and

My eyes dodge and

We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to

if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says,

about ten o 'clock, I get up and want to

like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It

you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in

I am divorced and no one feed me. If

stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along

take you

outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel

if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and

taxi. You go back

Noah Jefferson

him, and even get a

me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like

he says makes ripples in my

dreamed about is saying

my heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t fell

each other and would not meet again for the

like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married.