In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out

I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say

doesn’t have time to talk

everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance to

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch

Noyes, I

Noah Jefferson's eyes are locked on

and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward!

blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what

Fountain who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does

jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and

about

a scene tonight.

no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy,

go to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone would deduct

stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into

me take

Jefferson follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I

terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he

a taxi.

smile to Noah Jefferson

even get a little tongue-tied when I

Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now,

word he says makes

always dreamed about is saying that he likes

by a big stone, and

wondering if some people in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for the

hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners of my