In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and

I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I

he doesn’t have time to talk about it

the whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is

my mind. They touch my soft

I

Jefferson's eyes

us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be

once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what

speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by saying that

jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go on

about ten o 'clock, I

too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is

husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the

and no

keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them,

take you

follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat

Frances Louis. I don't want him to

taxi.

smile to Noah Jefferson

strangely nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied

shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was

says makes ripples

who I have always dreamed about is saying

like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t fell

this world has missed each

you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at