In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

a life-saving straw, I say to

doesn’t have time to talk about it after we get

games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have

mind. They touch my soft heart again

I

time, Noah Jefferson's eyes

the difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make

blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don't

in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me

any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

night. At about

a scene tonight.

you. Come

tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone would

Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with

me take

bit windy outside and he puts

am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him

take a taxi. You

Noah Jefferson and

and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak with

doesn’t notice my awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like

makes ripples

who I have always dreamed about is saying that he likes

like pressed by a big

each other

about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him,