In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy

a life-saving straw, I

thought, he doesn’t have time to talk

process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch

Noyes, I like

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes

“Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she

once. My eyes dodge and

were good friends in high school, but does she mean to

jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he

like they're staying up all night. At about ten o

He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better

are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of sports in high school,

and no one feed me. If I am late,

anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others

me take you

out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts

if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he

take a taxi. You go

to Noah Jefferson and say

nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak with

shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't want to make

says makes

have always dreamed about is saying that he likes me.

by a big

each other and would not meet again for the rest of their

say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile