In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out and

grasping at a life-saving straw, I

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we

process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance to be

reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart

I like

Jefferson's eyes are

just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t

once. My eyes dodge and I

is speaking. We were good friends in high school,

if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost

night. At about ten o 'clock,

like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight.

early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come

to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me.

I say, people don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to

me take

me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel

Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he

taxi. You go back

smile to Noah Jefferson and

even get a little

Jefferson doesn’t notice my awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was

he says makes ripples

who I have always dreamed about is saying that he likes

feels like pressed by a

world has missed each other and would not

you, but that was before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners of