In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come in

doesn’t have time to

everyone is singing and playing games and the whole

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch

I

Jefferson's eyes are

see the difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight

once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what

who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and

they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I

now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy

tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me.

anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along

me take

windy outside and he puts his coat

am living with Frances Louis. I don't

can take a taxi. You go

Noah Jefferson

and even get

really like you.

says makes ripples in

have always dreamed about is saying that he likes me. How

by a

this world has missed each

I liked you, but that was before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but