In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out and calls us

am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah

doesn’t have time to talk about it

games and the whole room is noisy.

in my mind. They touch my soft heart again

I

time, Noah Jefferson's

and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home

eyes dodge and I

speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little

you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of sports in high

tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I

say, people don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along

take

me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a pang of

if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s

take a taxi. You go

Noah

him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I

are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was

makes

about is saying

feels like pressed by a big stone, and

this world has missed each other and would

school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners of my