In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

stand outside, the second-generation rich boy

straw, I say

time to talk about it after we get

games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance

words reverberate in my mind. They touch my

I

Jefferson's eyes are

just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a

at once. My eyes dodge and I don't

We were good friends in high school, but

make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little

there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary

I am divorced and no one feed me. If I

me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now

take you

It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a pang

Louis. I don't want him to

a taxi. You go back to

smile to Noah

strangely nervous with him, and even get a little

me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now,

says makes ripples in

is

my heart feels like pressed by a

in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for

I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed