In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson,

thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we get

singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance

words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart again and

Noyes, I like

Noah Jefferson's eyes are

you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a

once. My eyes dodge and I don't know

high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

leave if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he

like they're staying up all night. At about ten o

catches me at such a scene

go home so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you.

work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If

don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to

me take you

windy outside and he puts his

be terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that

taxi. You

to Noah Jefferson

and even get

holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't

word he says makes ripples in

who I have always dreamed about is saying

heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t fell

people in this world has missed each other and would not meet

you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was