In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to

time to talk about it

singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t

Noah Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch

Noyes, I

Jefferson's eyes are locked on

get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make

My eyes dodge

Fountain who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean

any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten

doesn’t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little

You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the

am divorced and no one feed me. If

and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to

me take

bit windy outside and he

would be terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s

can take a taxi.

smile to Noah

get a little tongue-tied when

you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't

word he says makes

is saying that he likes me.

like pressed by a big stone, and I

this world has missed each other and would not meet again

before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try