In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

the second-generation rich boy comes

grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we get

process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room

words reverberate in my mind. They touch my

I like

time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are

between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby!

blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I

high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

leave if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing

they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I

too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for me to go home

so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of sports

work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone

don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them, too.

take you

a bit windy outside and he puts his

Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't

can take a taxi. You go back

smile to Noah Jefferson and say

strangely nervous with him, and even get a

Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was

word he says makes ripples in

about is saying that he likes me. How could I

my heart feels like pressed by a big

if some people in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for the

high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try