In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out and calls

I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we

the whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance to be

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They

I like

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes

her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and

at once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what to

friends in high school, but does she mean

any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the

up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for

would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in

go to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late,

no one needs me to stay.

me take you

he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a

I am living with Frances Louis. I

can take a taxi. You go back

to Noah Jefferson

nervous with him, and even get

me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high

says makes ripples in

who I have always dreamed about is saying that he

my heart feels like pressed by a big

in this world has missed each other

school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to