In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

second-generation rich boy comes

straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come

time to talk about it

whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room

Noah Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind.

Noyes, I

Jefferson's

also see the difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby! everything

face blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don't

in high school, but does she mean to embarrass

any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost

all night. At about

He catches me at such a scene tonight. I

You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your

to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone

say, people don’t keep me stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them, too.

take

follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel a pang

if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he would never

can take a taxi. You

Noah Jefferson and

nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied

He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open

makes ripples in

dreamed about is saying that he likes me.

like pressed by a big

if some people in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for the rest of their

like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness