In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson,

doesn’t have time to talk about it after

process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch my

Noyes, I

Noah Jefferson's

Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t

dodge and I don't know what to

who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what

about ten o 'clock, I get up and want

at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for me to go

be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy

to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If

me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t

take you

Jefferson follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I feel

living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better

can take a taxi. You go

Noah Jefferson

strangely nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak with

Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I

says makes ripples in

always dreamed about is saying that

by a big

missed each other and would not meet again for

happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try