In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out

at a life-saving straw, I say to

thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we

and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance to

my mind. They touch my

I like

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are

and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just

face blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what

were good friends in high school, but does she mean to

if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up and want to

doesn’t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene

blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your

am divorced and no one

no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school.

take

a bit windy outside and he puts his coat

be terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to

can take a taxi. You go

smile to Noah Jefferson and

with him, and even get a little tongue-tied when

shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to

makes ripples in

who I have always dreamed about is

a big stone, and

missed each other and would not

I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners of my