In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out and calls us

a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come

I thought, he doesn’t have time to

process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room

words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart again

Noyes, I

Jefferson's eyes

lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be

eyes dodge and I don't know what

is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by saying

will leave if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun

they're staying up all night. At about ten

He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for

so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge

no one feed

one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now

take

me out. It is a bit windy outside and he

knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he

a taxi.

to Noah

get a little tongue-tied when I speak

notice my awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I

makes ripples in

dreamed about is

a big

this world has missed each other and would

I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married.