In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

second-generation rich boy comes out

straw,

doesn’t have time to talk about it after we

singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have

my mind. They

I

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are locked

see the difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby! everything will be

My eyes dodge and I

in high school, but does she mean

lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

about ten o

such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for

there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy

work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed

stay anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into

me take

windy outside and he

would be terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to

can take a taxi. You

Noah Jefferson and say

with him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak

Jefferson doesn’t notice my awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you.

word he says makes

who I have always dreamed about is saying that

my heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and

has missed each other and would not meet again for the

to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners