In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

stand outside, the second-generation rich boy

I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s

thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it

everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance

Jefferson’s words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart again

I

Jefferson's

her! Anyway, she

My eyes dodge and I don't know what

in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by

says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go

At about ten o 'clock, I get up and

Louis doesn’t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better

no husband to blame you. Come on,

and no one feed

and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into

me take you

follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts his coat over

Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s

take a taxi. You go

smile to Noah

and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak with

awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't

he says makes ripples in my

always dreamed about is saying that he likes me. How

heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t

people in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for the rest of their

I liked you, but that was before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners