In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

we stand outside, the second-generation rich boy comes

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson,

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about

whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a chance

mind. They touch my soft

I

Noah Jefferson's eyes are locked on

also see the difference between us and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight

eyes dodge and I don't

good friends in high school, but does she mean to

if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people

night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up and

me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for me

no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your

divorced and no one feed me. If I am late,

no one needs me to stay.

take you

It is a bit windy outside and he

Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him

taxi.

smile to Noah Jefferson

him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak

Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now,

he says makes

who I have always dreamed about is saying that he

why my heart feels like pressed by a big stone,

world has missed each other and would not meet again for the rest of their

say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the