In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

we stand outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and

grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come

I thought, he doesn’t have time to talk about it after we

everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have a

mind. They touch my soft

Noyes, I

whole time, Noah Jefferson's eyes are locked

you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby! everything

once. My eyes dodge and I don't know

is Fountain who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean

make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun

all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get

scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for

you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of

to go to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one

anymore and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them, too.

take

follows me out. It is a bit windy outside and he puts

that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and it’s better that he would never

take a taxi. You

Noah Jefferson

him, and even get a little tongue-tied

me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't want to

says makes ripples in my

is saying that

a big stone, and I can’t fell

people in this world has missed each other and would not meet again for the

you, but that was before. In high school, I was crazy about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to