In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, “Let’s come in

doesn’t have time to

and the whole room is noisy. Naturally,

words reverberate in my mind. They touch

I like

Jefferson's eyes are

lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don’t be a coward! Just

at once. My eyes dodge and I don't know what

friends in high school, but does

lightly.

staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better

husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary

go to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no

and let me go. Furthermore, no one needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them,

me take you

he puts his

I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him to know, and

can take a taxi. You go back to

smile to Noah Jefferson and say

and even get

really like you. When I was

makes ripples in my

about is saying

pressed by a big stone, and I can’t

if some people in this world has missed each other

like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And,