In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.

His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.

I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.

But it's my relationship with him that's unpresentable.

I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.

“Jane Noyes.”

Seeing me don’t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.

I know he is waiting for my response.

If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone's heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.

If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.

But now, I don’t know how to answer him.

How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?

And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.

Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.

All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.

“Why haven’t you come in? Come in and flirt!”

rich boy comes out and

like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I

time to talk about it after we

and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn’t have

mind. They touch my

Noyes, I

Jefferson's eyes

and boo, “Noah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is

dodge and

speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me

if you make any jokes.” Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the

looks like they're staying up all night. At about ten o 'clock, I get up

going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a

go home so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.” Joy, the commissary in charge of

and no one feed me. If I

needs me to stay. I didn’t get along well with others in high school. Now I can’t fit into them,

take

he puts his coat over my shoulders. But I

terrible if Noah Jefferson knows that I am living with Frances Louis. I don't want him

a taxi. You

Noah Jefferson and

nervous with him, and even get a little tongue-tied when I speak

Noah Jefferson doesn’t notice my awkward. He holds my shoulders, staring at me, and says, “Jane Noyes, why are you hiding from me? Believe me, I really like you. When I was in high school, I missed you because I was always afraid to open my mouth. But now, I don't want to make

makes ripples

is saying that he likes me.

my heart feels like pressed by a big stone, and I can’t fell

this world has missed each other and

about you. I'm really happy to hear you say you like me. But it is too late. Noah Jefferson, I was married. And, divorced.” I try to smile at him, but bitterness showed on the corners of