In My Desperate Time

Frances is back tonight.

I am cooking when he comes.

On these days without him at home, I have cooked a lot by myself.

Seeing what I am doing, Frances does not say anything to sit by the table.

He has a look at my phone when I am bringing some dish to the table.

I have not closed the webpage of the news on my phone; he smiled slightly to say, “You read my news.”

I don’t reply him, just rolling my eyes at him.

Everyone knows Frances is somebody who is always trending in the social media. I cannot ignore him in these news.

Then I tell him, “Since I read the big news of today, you are there.”

Frances keeps laughing, “Do you feel bad with it?”

He looks so happy to make fun of me.

younger sister. Now I believe

I pretend to be

tell him, “Frances, you are free to date any woman in the world; that’s

slight smile, I start to eat something slowly.

seems to be annoyed and

the meal?”

no appetite today.” he

is irritated too easily.

as passing by the bedside table, I am surprised to see the new box

goodness! Last time, Frances did not use condoms on my ovulation, yet I forgot to buy and

rush to the pharmacy and get one after pill to take. I know in my mind, two days have passed, but the pill

pharmacy, I find someone might be following me

am sensitive enough to feel disturbed for being watched

the awareness, I am sure someone is following me.

a sleeping dog, I don’t turn back to check it. But from some glass door nearby,

anymore and call a taxi to take me

the car still parking not far from the gate

they do to me for following me