In My Desperate Time

Frances is back tonight.

I am cooking when he comes.

On these days without him at home, I have cooked a lot by myself.

Seeing what I am doing, Frances does not say anything to sit by the table.

He has a look at my phone when I am bringing some dish to the table.

I have not closed the webpage of the news on my phone; he smiled slightly to say, “You read my news.”

I don’t reply him, just rolling my eyes at him.

Everyone knows Frances is somebody who is always trending in the social media. I cannot ignore him in these news.

Then I tell him, “Since I read the big news of today, you are there.”

Frances keeps laughing, “Do you feel bad with it?”

He looks so happy to make fun of me.

his news before knowing Elin Smith is his younger sister. Now I believe

know nothing about them, I pretend to be ignorant

free to date any woman in the world; that’s

I start

annoyed and

you finish the

today.” he answers unhappily.

too

the dinner. As soon as passing by the bedside table, I am surprised to see the new box of

not use condoms on my ovulation, yet I forgot to buy and take the morning-after pill.

his room for the whole night. In the early morning of the next day, I rush to the pharmacy and get one after pill to take. I know in my mind, two days have passed,

might be following

to feel disturbed for being watched

the awareness, I am sure someone

But from some glass door nearby,

don’t wait anymore and call a taxi

car still parking not far from the gate of the

me for following