In My Desperate Time

“Who’s that?” I can guess but not sure about my answer.

Lawrence says, “It’s too much to say it here. We should go somewhere causal and talk about details.”

In his view, some bars should be casual enough for us to have a longer talk.

Finally, he takes me one quieter bar different from those I have been to before.

There is a woman singing on the middle of the stage; the audience keeps listening quietly.

Lawrence watched the singer. I followed his eyes to look at her to find she is really similar to Whitney Jordan. The two women almost look the same.

I have to tell him, “She looks like Whitney.”

Lawrence laughs, “I know.” And then he looks at the singer tenderly one more time.

Immediately from his eyes, I realize he gets a lot of problems or concerns in his mind.

him, “You know

turns to look at me and answers with a smile, “Of

has the same family name with Whitney. There are not so many wealthy families in the city; most of persons

further, “She is your sibling?”

knows Frances as Whitney’s husband and Frances has an affair with me. However, Whitney has never got to know something about Frances and me from Lawrence. It is

his head to answer me, “She is not my sibling; I am adopted by her parents. Whitney is someone with great pride, never treating me

words confuse me more.

well. But it might not

“What would you like to talk with me?”

woman singer just finishes a

to her who turns

strangers. I still feel something unusual by instinct, but cannot get to

as much

by

he should not talk with me about it. Whitney will hate

him, “Why did you