In My Desperate Time

I don't know why I have the guts to say such things to Frances.

But I am so angry that I can’t help myself.

The man I love may really be a heartless monster.

He doesn’t sympathize with others or care about other people's feelings. He may never fall in love with me.

My heart hurts so bad that it feels more painful than being stabbed.

"So what? Like you said, I can manipulate people’s fate at will."

Just then, he glances up and down at me.

He means that he is manipulating me.

It hurts me like hell even though what he says is true.

I look at Frances angrily and roar, "You will be dying pointless, Frances!"

The moment I walk

on my face, he says

and go

and I are not on speaking terms. I don't even understand why this

never comes to my room in the

up every day. He isn’t back yet when I go to bed. If it weren't for the coughing and the sound of water in the next

is he not feeling

worried, but I can’t speak

her traveling abroad. Her belly looks a bit obvious, and her face is a lot rounder than before. But the happiness on her face can't be hidden. It seems like she’s doing

one of us is

to settle down abroad?"

months. I have gained weight because I am not used to

does ‘gaining weight’ have to do with ‘not used to the

you’re pregnant. The baby would be healthy

hard to get used to the days

‘period’ suddenly sounds alarming

and my period is usually on time, around the 15th. At most it is early or late for a

and I am not on the pills.