In My Desperate Time

I want to call him, but I don’t know what I can say to him concerning our relationship. I need time to collect my thoughts.

He sees me too, surprised for two seconds, and then walks towards me.

“Jane, haven’t seen you for a long time.”

He smiles at me but looks very tired.

Actually it’s not a long time, because we saw each other just a few days ago.

“Are you looking for a job here?” I ask him.

Startled for a moment, he immediately shakes his head, “No. I’m recruiting for the school. The school needs new teachers, so I’m asked to post job information here.”

His pretense makes me feel sad.

Maybe he doesn’t want me to worry him or feel guilty so he lies to me. But I already know the truth.

“Your mother has told me that you lost your job.” saying in an upset voice, I look at him with guilt, “I’m sorry. If it’s not for me, you won’t be reduced to such a situation by Frances.”

at me in surprise and shakes his head for denying, “I didn’t lose my job. Actually I quit on my own and intend to find a new job. Originally, I didn’t want to let you know it before

He quit his job?

Frances? He didn’t do anything to Noah, but it is my presumption that made me blamed him

this moment, I feel great pain in my

why, somehow I feel there is someone spying on me, but when

delusion? Is it because pregnant women

stop the messy thoughts in my mind and manage a smile at Noah, “But you are doing well in your job as a teacher, why did you

a nine-to-five job with stable salary won’t allow me to give you a bright future. Jane, if I have enough money and power, I must be able to take you away from Frances. So, you

words really move

is still thinking

I’m in pregnancy. Perhaps besides Mindy, Noah is the other

can’t bear such a

not as simple as you think. Even if

need to do is

heavy heart and

expression on his face is as cold