In My Desperate Time

I want to call him, but I don’t know what I can say to him concerning our relationship. I need time to collect my thoughts.

He sees me too, surprised for two seconds, and then walks towards me.

“Jane, haven’t seen you for a long time.”

He smiles at me but looks very tired.

Actually it’s not a long time, because we saw each other just a few days ago.

“Are you looking for a job here?” I ask him.

Startled for a moment, he immediately shakes his head, “No. I’m recruiting for the school. The school needs new teachers, so I’m asked to post job information here.”

His pretense makes me feel sad.

Maybe he doesn’t want me to worry him or feel guilty so he lies to me. But I already know the truth.

“Your mother has told me that you lost your job.” saying in an upset voice, I look at him with guilt, “I’m sorry. If it’s not for me, you won’t be reduced to such a situation by Frances.”

and intend to find a new job. Originally, I didn’t want

He quit his job?

He didn’t do anything to Noah, but it is my presumption that made me blamed

this moment, I feel

know why, somehow I feel there is someone spying on

delusion? Is it because pregnant women are

the messy thoughts in my mind and manage a smile at Noah, “But you are doing well in your job as a

future. Jane, if I have enough money and power, I must be able to take you away from Frances. So, you must wait for me,

really move

is still thinking about how to give me

I’m in pregnancy. Perhaps besides Mindy, Noah is the other only one that treats me

bear such a

as simple as

need to do is just waiting for me.” he

and is surprised to

expression on his face