In My Desperate Time

I really can’t imagine that I am saying this to Frances.

It feels like I am the one who is proposing to him.

Frances didn’t say anything. I may assume that he isn’t on the phone anymore if I can’t hear his light breathing.

The time I am waiting on him is long and suffering.

Until I hear Frances on the phone saying. "Bring your household registration book, I will wait for you at the Civil Affairs Bureau."

I feel the butterflies in my stomach after hearing what he says.

Before marrying Andrew, I also expect that a man would say this to me one day.

No matter he is rich or not, in the past or future, I am marrying the man at any risk.

But I never expect that the person would be Frances.

He shouldn’t be the person who causes turmoil and chaos in my heart. But it turns out to be him.

"Wait, I have one condition." I pause and speak up.

"Go ahead."

"Can you get custody of you and Whitney’s child?" I ask tentatively.

tone immediately sounds

kid for? This kid is not even

He knows about it?

about it. I don’t know what to say for

why Frances insists on getting a divorce is probably because

can such a proud man like

to stay with Whitney. The idea is so fixated in my mind and I don’t even

only

seconds, and finally agree.

"Okay, I promise you."

fact, I never expect that Frances

is still willing to raise him for others? He doesn't love me. Why would he even bother to compromise

afford to think

head out to the Civil Affairs Bureau directly after

already there when I arrive at the door of the Civil Affairs

Making copies

the end, when the red notebook is handed over to me, it almost

am married to

is it like to marry someone

but it feels

"Let's go."

me, then takes me back