In My Desperate Time

I feel a little awkward, how does old Mister Louis know about this.

But I still listen to what he asked me and take out the things from my bag, and hand it over to him.

“Mister Louis, how do you know about this?” I ask, feeling a little ashamed.

Old Mister Louis smirks while looking at me and says, “I didn’t know. But I heard him on talking on the phone, asking someone to take the registration book to meet at the courthouse. At first I thought he already found another seductress after getting divorced just recently. But now that I see you back here, I know that it must be you.”

Seductress?

In my head I am still thinking about this word Mister Louis mentioned, not sure if it should make me laugh or cry.

“You two belong together, but you should have smiled at least. This is not good. This will be there forever, you really should have prepared better. Should you retake the picture?” Old Mister Louis asks me.

Forever?

I laugh, but don’t answer his question.

How can I ever be with Frances forever.

really know what he wants to do, as

him, have never talked

I guess it’s fine

take back the marriage certificate, and put it back in the

stairs, and asks me, “What should

He cooks?

I suddenly remember the horrible dishes he once made. I press my lips together, and force a smile on my lips, “I don’t think you should cook. I don’t really wanna eat

though acts as if he hasn’t heard me talk, and keeps walking

half an hour later, he comes out with

pork loin, hot and sour

three dishes and a soup, which gives me

you have too

I suddenly remember that these were the dishes I made when I was pregnant. That time

all these dishes exactly the same as I did before,

when I liked to eat all this. Now, I

trying to remind me

killed my child, and now

hate suddenly