In My Desperate Time

I feel a little awkward, how does old Mister Louis know about this.

But I still listen to what he asked me and take out the things from my bag, and hand it over to him.

“Mister Louis, how do you know about this?” I ask, feeling a little ashamed.

Old Mister Louis smirks while looking at me and says, “I didn’t know. But I heard him on talking on the phone, asking someone to take the registration book to meet at the courthouse. At first I thought he already found another seductress after getting divorced just recently. But now that I see you back here, I know that it must be you.”

Seductress?

In my head I am still thinking about this word Mister Louis mentioned, not sure if it should make me laugh or cry.

“You two belong together, but you should have smiled at least. This is not good. This will be there forever, you really should have prepared better. Should you retake the picture?” Old Mister Louis asks me.

Forever?

I laugh, but don’t answer his question.

How can I ever be with Frances forever.

what he wants to do, as soon as I have achieved my own goal, I will leave

have never

wedding pictures, I guess

marriage certificate, and put it back

the stairs, and asks me, “What should

He cooks?

once made. I press my lips together, and force a smile on my lips, “I don’t think you should cook.

if he hasn’t heard me talk,

hour later, he comes out with a

sour pork loin, hot and sour

soup,

you have too much vinegar?”

suddenly remember that these were the dishes I made when I was pregnant. That time

all these dishes exactly the same as I did before, it not

at that time when I liked to

trying to remind me

the one who heartlessly killed my child, and now he is rubbing it

suddenly starts