In My Desperate Time

I feel a little awkward, how does old Mister Louis know about this.

But I still listen to what he asked me and take out the things from my bag, and hand it over to him.

“Mister Louis, how do you know about this?” I ask, feeling a little ashamed.

Old Mister Louis smirks while looking at me and says, “I didn’t know. But I heard him on talking on the phone, asking someone to take the registration book to meet at the courthouse. At first I thought he already found another seductress after getting divorced just recently. But now that I see you back here, I know that it must be you.”

Seductress?

In my head I am still thinking about this word Mister Louis mentioned, not sure if it should make me laugh or cry.

“You two belong together, but you should have smiled at least. This is not good. This will be there forever, you really should have prepared better. Should you retake the picture?” Old Mister Louis asks me.

Forever?

I laugh, but don’t answer his question.

How can I ever be with Frances forever.

I don’t really know what he wants to do, as soon as I have

have

pictures, I guess it’s fine

calmly, take back the marriage certificate,

moment, Frances comes down the stairs, and asks me, “What should we eat for dinner?

He cooks?

suddenly remember the horrible dishes he once made. I press my lips together, and force a smile on

as if he hasn’t heard me talk, and

later, he comes

sour potato shreds, vinegar fish, sauerkraut vermicelli

three dishes and a soup, which gives me a very familiar

all sour dishes, did you have too much vinegar?” Old Mister

I made when I was pregnant. That time Whitney was still there,

has cooked all these dishes exactly the same as I did before, it not only looks good,

pregnant at that time when I liked to eat all this. Now, I don’t

Frances trying to remind me

my child, and now

suddenly starts