In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

and lie on my

I thought I would have a fever, but unexpectedly, I

done, they return my clothes

they won't bully me anymore, but it

are always thumbtacks and needles

like stones, hair, fingernails, and dead insects in my

away my clothes when I'm taking a shower, and they

I will cry and fight with them, but I gradually become

if there is something in my bowl

glance, I see

so I won't

out, but in a corner, I hear some women

we going too far? To be

talking about

an irony that they bully and make fun of me though they

shake my head and

All we need is to make her life

Someone?

Is it Frances?

feel sad anymore, so I have never missed Frances these

of him, I am extremely miserable. How