In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

hide my clothes and lie

I would have

done, they return my

they won't bully me anymore, but it is just

thumbtacks and needles

stones, hair, fingernails, and dead insects

take away my clothes when I'm taking a shower, and they even shoot at me with

will cry and fight with them, but I gradually

there is something in my bowl as usual before I take

I see

so I won't

have to pour it out, but in a corner, I hear some women are

To be honest, I think she

they talking about

irony that they bully and make fun of

shake my head and

All we need is to make her life here miserable. As long as we keep her alive, it'll be

Someone?

Is it Frances?

to not feel sad anymore, so I have never missed

when I think of him,