In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

hide my clothes and lie

I thought I would have a fever, but unexpectedly, I am

return my

they won't bully me anymore, but

always thumbtacks and needles on my

there are many objects like stones, hair, fingernails, and

taking a shower, and they even shoot at me with

cry and fight with them, but I

something in my bowl as usual before I take

a glance, I see

so I won't take

out, but in

too far? To be honest, I think she

talking about

irony that they bully and make fun of me though they feel

my head and

All we need is to make her life here miserable.

Someone?

Is it Frances?

numb enough to not feel sad anymore, so I

I think of him, I am extremely miserable. How