In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

and lie

naked all night, I thought I would have a fever, but unexpectedly,

return my clothes and the bed to me early

me anymore, but it is just

always thumbtacks and

like stones, hair, fingernails,

away my clothes when I'm taking a shower, and they even shoot at me

I will cry and fight with

there is something in my

a glance, I see a

I won't take

pour it out, but in a corner, I

we going too far? To be honest,

they talking about

irony that they bully and make fun of me though they feel sorry for

my head and decide to

All we need is

Someone?

Is it Frances?

numb enough to not feel sad anymore, so I have never missed Frances

think of him, I am extremely miserable.