In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

hide my clothes and lie on

all night, I thought I would have

return my clothes and the bed to me

think they won't bully me anymore, but it

are always thumbtacks and needles on my

are many objects like stones, hair, fingernails, and dead insects in my

take away my clothes when I'm taking a shower, and they even shoot at me with water cannons

fight with them, but I gradually become

I check if there is something in my bowl as usual before I take my

I see

is poisonous, so I won't take the

have to pour it out, but in a corner, I hear

be honest, I think she

talking about

and make fun of me though they feel sorry

and

paid for this. All we need is to make her

Someone?

Is it Frances?

am numb enough to not feel sad anymore, so I have never missed Frances these

I think of him, I am extremely