In My Desperate Time

Why does she ask me to take off my clothes?

What does she want to do?

I huddle on the bed and shake my head at her.

"Seriously?"

The woman sneers and lifts me from the bed with one hand, throwing me to the ground.

"I am the boss here!"

As she speaks, she gives the other women a look, and then they reach out to strip off my clothes.

I try to stop them, but without success. Therefore, I am stripped naked and I keep crying on the ground.

It's shameful and I almost want to die.

I know it is a common practice that the newcomer will be bullied in male prisons, but I've never expected that it is the same in female prisons.

"Such a long scar on your belly. You must have given birth to a child. I didn't even have a boyfriend before I am here. Why? It's unfair!"

As the woman speaks, she grabs my hair and pulls my head back.

Tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, I look up and see their crazy faces.

clothes and

thought I would

what they've done, they return my clothes

anymore, but it is just

thumbtacks and

like stones, hair,

my clothes when I'm taking a shower, and they even shoot at me

the beginning, I will cry and fight with them, but

something in my

a glance, I see

so I won't take the

out, but in a corner, I hear some women are

be honest, I think she

they talking about

an irony that they bully and make fun of me though they feel sorry for

shake my head and

need is to make her life here

Someone?

Is it Frances?

I am numb enough to not feel sad anymore, so I have

of him,